My Stage, My Entire Orbit.

2009-09-13T12:15:00.002+07:00

Dumbest ad ever -.-

supposedly revising business, but my baby cousin came. waiting for the 2 families (except for me) to go out :'( thus i can focus.

I'M HUNGRY. my TOK pres is waiting for skye's email to appear. i wont start unless he replies me.

i'm so tired and hungry. ciao

2009-09-08T20:53:00.003+07:00

nevermind.

2009-09-06T08:21:00.003+07:00

sent off my best friend 2 days ago, so sad to be left here :(

ariani i'll miss you so much :( in fact i already am.
sorry for the mistakes i made for the past years, i really want you to succeed.
i hope you'll do good in the other end of the world, i'm always praying for you back home.

last nite was bianca's birthday + farewell (man, i hate farewells)
i hope you'll be fine, bie :)

i said all these not realizing there will be 67 other people that i will say goodbye to in july.
it's hard to say goodbye, but it's harder to notice you'll be left alone.

family&friends = my entire universe

2009-09-03T21:12:00.005+07:00

THERE WAS AN EARTHQUAKE!

although it was not my first time, but it was dang scary(7.3 on the richter scale). i was on the 8th floor going to my locker when i saw morgan saying "asdfa7sd98f77" i was like whaaaaat and he was pointing to our tower sign. then we stop a little. THE SHAKE WAS SO STRONG. and we didnt even follow the procedure! supposedly staying at the top of the floor but we got panicked and rush down to the lobby with the emergency exit. our school was united. it was awesomeee.

i agree with ms malourds, there shouldnt be any school today. lol.

anyway, enough about the tragic happenings. today i slack for 3 hours i guess. 1.20 at business (apparently ms malourds was thinking about what happen knowing that we just couldnt be quiet talking about earthquakes, anyway probably shes not in the mood of talking anyway) and 20 minutes recess break which i use getting panicked about SAT deadline which is NEXT week. and so another 1.20 for itgs. idk, i dont feel like talking or even say a word anymore. no one seem to understand me in itgs. anyway, i made TOK, i dont get why cannibalism is so illogical for skye, i mean i said that "animal rights pressure groups deny the generality of eating meat, considering the theory of evolution that stated our origins to be animals, thus, eating meat could be considered as cannibalism" maybe it is pretty illogical. oh well, we'll see.

not that i believe in it. this is just crap i made superficial :p (also due to the mindsets of my groupmates which was clearly typed in their laptops TOK < COD. ah u ppl.

gtg now. ciao

2009-09-01T20:50:00.002+07:00

omg i've been online for 2 hours without doing anything school-related. 0.0 i should start revising.

anyway, today's presentation was epic failure haha not really. we were at 70 minutes which was sppsd to be 80 but, oh well God knows whats gonna happen. i mean IT'S SO HARD HELLOOO. and we were the first ones. the idea of being criticised till my brain went mad will get harder each day. i mean we put extra effort on it (since we knew the expectation for hl will be higher) but then it was still not good enough. then what about the rest? our class' max number of intelligence is just average. including me.

2009-08-31T06:09:00.002+07:00

WL tonight
EE tonight -300 words body please
ENGLISH PRES.
MUG BIO
MUG MATHS

it's deadlier than how it looks.

2009-08-30T11:37:00.003+07:00

i cant do it all. i get it.

this page is real empty. it needs some colors.

E-V-O-L
is in the room. lulz

ok lets not be emo. im reading bnw, for the presentation on tuesday. this monday i actually have to attend 2 events, one with my parents and one with friends. but i cant do both considering that i have an oral the next day. sucks.

ytd was pain. i went home at 10, then found out THE PACKAGE IS HERE! oh i love my bro for this, but dad said it looks *******. lol. but its ok, killer heels are like limited edition sneakers except for the fact that they're.... tall. anyway, i'm just glad its here. merci!

my itgs report is a last-minute crap. tmr gonna revise it, if no chance, then lets just die in peace. haha i could care less now, but i'm putting my whole effort on it.

2 WEEKS TILL TERM TEST. i should start studying, i suppose. not gonna fail bio again. this time, the test will be 40 tricky mcq questions. im skrewt.

2009-08-29T09:01:00.004+07:00

i miss my slc!

im supposedly on school this morning, i have lotsa works.

went out with some friends ytd, had fun. although i dont find karaoke so amazingly fun. maybe the choice of songs they have is very limited. so yeah.

anyway, hanson is the bomb of my itunes this week. i like to recap all those nights i spent listening to their CASSETTE. hahahaha music in indonesia, old times.

why is my package not here yet?? come on. i need it. my bro is like a stupid demotivator. "fie, paketnya udh dikirim. kayaknya ya (feeling gua aja) sepatu lo diambil sama kurirnya" FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK. so demotivated. bet ytd they called to ask my house's full address. i hope it'll be here before i go mad.

i spent like 500k for photo printing. 500 K!!!! MYGODD. so damn expensive one. can die. id rather buy those shoes in adidas rather than that. but oh well my mom pays half, i paid half. NOW IM BROKE. dang

looking forward to another dinner with friends, next weekend :) i hope mom will release me. ciao

2009-08-28T06:06:00.004+07:00

dont you dare beat the crap out of them, they're mine.

i've never been this dissapointed at myself for such a long time. i wouldnt call it sad, just, dissapointing. i wanted to say it to somebody, but i didn't own any guts last night. i'm okay now but it's running through my mind.

i cant wait for tonite's dinner. hope it'll be super fun. SAT comes first though.
i'm trying to download hanson's old album, underneath. i cantbelieve zac hanson has a son now! wow, last time i check he was so young.

i'm dying to get a polaroid, i cant wait >.<

2009-08-27T11:07:00.003+07:00

answer me:

how can educated people act so uneducated?

heartless brainiac who thinks the world is simply his own.

today's a tough day, but it's okay. at least i have a heart.

2009-08-26T23:51:00.003+07:00

the joker is in the building... and is out.

i blog just to trigger my technological sense, so i can do itgs. out of 500 i was planning to do today, so far i've done: 91. great. that's including the words "presentation of the issue" which means i only have 87 words thus far. great.

i'll be staying up probably until 3.30 so i'll have meal straight away, then fast. then sleep in the car, which is totally embarrassing if u have any of your friends around watching you sleep. social disaster. phone have cameras people.

anyway, met garren ytd, well 2 days ago in 4 minutes. i michu gar

today i was so loud in bio kiki was my background vocal. the thing is, i was singing the songs as how a musical would go, and kiki had the background singing in opera. aaah what a day :)

i have world literature assignment due next week. which means, i'm screwed. screwed to the floor. and die. today was supposedly my wl get-it-done period, just that yong khen and i got into this heart-to-heart talk and we didnt even bother to write a single word lol. instead, we took pictures -.-

his glasses are extremely awesomeee :D

goodbye everyone.

2009-08-17T20:50:00.003+07:00

just argued with mom because of food. how immature.

i hate house food nowadays, it's so boring.

i hate it when no one asked me about what i wanna eat during breaks.

i hate boring food.

i hate having the same menu at home for 3 times in a week.

i hate it when no one notice them.

i hate it when everyone's taking it easy.

i'm not hungry anymore. and i dont think our house food is so special after all.

2009-08-17T13:33:00.003+07:00

i'm dying because of school. dont ask.

my extended essay needs extension for submission date.

anyway, hello. howre you doin? cus i'm doing okay. in fact, i just found the 300 thou that ive lost for so long hahaha. nice :) today during our family jog (-.-) my dad lectured about history again. habibie one of our former leaders suggested an expansion of indonesian scholars in the states, so they could go back and lead the country in a more rational manner. so thousands of potentials were being sent to the states, and as they came back habibie said there is a need of payback by giving them a higher seat in the governmental level of heirarchy. which was pretty sensical knowing that they were liberally trained for such jobs. (and i'm not saying this in a non-religious way, but realistically) so he put them into such seats expecting (and this one's reliable) that they would create better change because he knew that in that part of the world, they would learn about diversity and how does politics & science work in a more developed country so they could create a more stable manner for politics & developments, then you can move on to the welfare of our people. for them it was like, you cant be religiously correct unless you're smart at that particular field. because in order to make it happen, you only need one base of resources: smart people.

as the project went on, government employees disagree in the placement of heirarchical seats. for they (those scholars) were seated above the local graduates in an instant. so critics through media was overwhelming, despite the brilliant objective habibie and the project was stopped as the country's expenses keep on rising.

thus, those people ended up working for boeing and other humungous, genius-requiring, companies that demands a lot of research in it. if they were here within the government, at least the poor will suffer less.

so now, it was brought up again. within the speech of some minister, i believe. for the record, it was running 30 years ago. but i guess somebody spilled the coffee on the winning spot.

ok.. long.

my dad also lectured about singapore. how it was so different in the 70s. no tall buildings, very limited resources, no good transports, no nothing. it was a really quick development. my dad's friend used to sleep beside a pork farm, because even the country was really poor, let alone the people.

really, i'm amazed by how they grew so quickly.

ok so. tag people! its so lame.

2009-08-13T11:51:00.003+07:00

hello.

supposedly doing my portfolio, but i want to slack in the aftermath of the horrideous math internal assessment. this morning i could hardly open my eyes. sleepy. tired. nice.
and after numbers scared the hell out of me, it was an unsual business and man topic: CASH FLOW. then again, i deal with numbers. GREAT. but she gave us 30 minutes free time. how generous :D

anyway, then i submitted my portfolio and explained why my graph isn't clear. because my ink is finishing. so he said, "please reprint it, filza." i'm like.... umm..... alright. cus considering my "okay" is different, i would rather say alright to these circumstances lol. my "okay" would be "okay i will do it" but when im this sleepy, "alright, fine" slipped.

so i was doing another graph which was totally NOT CHEATING. right?!

umm the aerobics today was SOCIAL SUICIDE. people werent following moi. it was killing me. i told ms donna "if euthanasia is allowed in this school, i would be the one mercily killed" but okay, i good. everybody loves me (?) haha jk.

i wrote "LIMY :(" on my hand. it stands for "look, i miss you" which is less personal. cus personal = intimacy. idk i just thought so.

im doing my business ia on italian restaurants, its nice i guess. their place have style :D

alright (you know what i mean) i should stop now. 10 minutes until TOK class. last minutes to be productive in itgs. cant wait for long weekend (4 days ;)) ciao.

2009-08-11T22:57:00.002+07:00

CAS CAMP WAS SUPER FUNNNNNNN ! screw yew ppl who didnt make it.

it was supa beyond what i expected. i was tired for 2 weeks. and now time for the real deal: academics.

i dont wanna talk much about other things such as essays. but im currently on MATH IA. yes, mathematics internal assessment standard level. dies.

i can guess that the scalar for quartic function would have 57 (or more) significant figures. each. yayzorz. go math woohoo.

as i said in my fb status. im filing for divorce to mathematics. filed.
i used to love math, the only motivation of me doing this and actually trying not to cheat is because i love math and i expect a 7 on the sheet erdolfo gave us. GREAT. now im real dead.

i tweet a lot = stressed.

then i have EE. i have WL. the worst: TOK presentation. nice IB, very nice.

im working my ass off for bahasa starting... now. and bio too, which reminds me, the book is... DOWNSTAIRS. dad will kill my ass.

ppl, please reserve your time with your cas advisors for semester 3 consultation. YOUR EVIDENCE PEOPLE. thank you. please come to your student assisstants before you meet your advisors, they might not have time to deal about timings with you. so just leave it to us, we wont let you down. thanks.

2009-08-07T20:39:00.002+07:00

i just wanna post today. it was supposedly a half-day school today, since we were dismissed right at 12 noon, but CAS CAMP awaited. and apparently i dont feel like leaving works undone. my mom helped us, which was weird, she was probably the pioneer of the "CAS MUMS".

ANYWAY.

i'm pretty pissed, but i wont talk about it here, cus i think its so unimportant. because the people also thought it was unimportant, so i guess i wont give a fuck. but today was weird cus i slept at 10.30 last night but i was so sleepy the whole day. except business class, fortunately she didnt give any lectures today, otherwise i would faint.

this was a life-changing dream: i wanna be a motivational speaker.

probably one of the best lessons i get taking B&M as my group 3 subject. Maslow's heirarchy of needs. i really like it you know why, it has that prospect of a new understanding deeper than that shallow knowledge of mine.

crazy i believe so

i really think that it would give an impact to some people's lives. and i guess i'll do anything with the basis of my principle.

too tired. gtg bath. shall do the timeline for tomorrow's "lecture" haha no, breifing.

2009-08-04T20:08:00.007+07:00

my life in the past few weeks:

school! :D
being a senior: greatt! senior's locker area: sad, real sad.

WALK-A-THON OH NINE :D
the very first time we actually failed in the fundraising business. lol

ma beet's toast :D
happy 17 my dear

trying out that fisheye of julian's.
love love love love. its real cuteee

watched hp6, then i miss this :(
when they were young and the movie was still good to watch

the school just announced:
they'll start giving us 4-5 IAs per week.

die

2009-07-20T13:59:00.002+07:00

my dad told me to stay in A2 HL. idk if i have to be sad or happy. i just dont want my future to get worse.

anyway, today is an off day for me cus... im just.... off today. i just wanna dance.

oh and i dont really know about this. but i'm not that free, like i cant rly go on a night out unless im having a sleepover. sometimes i just need that atmosphere, loud music and the dance floor. but i cant. and nowadays ive been recapitulating my old dancing days. and by practicing a lot, i didnt feel that much need of going out. my room is pretty small, but its enough for practicing everyday.

ive been dancing since i was 5, although i dont attend formal classes much, i take dances off videos, and mimic them until i got it right. and if i dont, i'll be so mad. i'll be sweaty AND mad. i began watching old center stage and grease long time ago and adore ballet. so i mimic lyrical/theatrical dances off tv. but im no good compare to hip hop dancers. im zero. but i dont care what people think, cus i do this to satisfy myself. and im satisfied.

i think thats a step ahead.

i just need to do theatre. i just have to do it before i die.

2009-07-19T10:28:00.005+07:00

BATSY WON :D;D;D;DD HAPPYYY

i was watching with anya, comment and complaint a lot on those malaysian singers.. and it went down to taufik and hadyyy omg i was psyched batsy is finally here :D:D:D and he won too! he was best dressed for the night. well after him, it was bcl's malaysian hubby. he's cute too.

anya had no choice but voting for AFGAN. altho she dislikes him. afganisme, ew please. anyway, i told odi that if he happen to bump into batsy, please send my regards. and it was a joke, i mean yeah. BUT HE SERIOUSULY DID OMG OMG OMG TAUFIK GOT MY REGARDSSSSS

odi: "my friend filza is a huge friend of yours"
batsy: "haha thx where is she now?"
odi: "she's not here bla bla bla (i dont really know)"
batsy: "oh thats too bad.."
*odi ran*

OMG I DONT CARE I LOVE YOU BATSYYYYYYYYYYY THX ODI THE BEST MAN IN THE WORLD

anya and i were fighting last night about stuff, but ends up with LMAO-ing our own selves. it was fun. we were waiting for the best artist award and i was like "TAUFIKKKKKK" cheesy : "AFGAAAAAN MASGAAANNN" gross. but it turns out that siti won. tough luck. she is good. i just hope batsy won.

its like. once he's here, im not there to watch. so i have to go all the way to singapore to watch taufik cus his fanbase is so tiny here. argh fugg you people with less broad creative knowledge

my speech went really good ytd. i stumbled upon the second half ONCE only. but ms elsie & peter said it was excellent and im really happy cus this is my first speech appreciated by the principal weeheeeee. BUT i wore the wrong earrings. its too big peter said. -.- so he said he'll make it as an example of unnecessary accessories which peter told me to bring. haha ok then i said. but my HAIR is a good example. i can hear YOU SENIORS, bad seniors, laughing over it hahaha i love you friends. it'll always be the trademark of out batch :D

ok im very smelly. shall go to bath.

filza loves batsy.

2009-07-18T07:02:00.002+07:00

OMG DADDY MAKE UP YOUR MIND. ytd was transcript request form day and i'm only 70% sure that im going to nevada. AIYAAA :(

its so sad to know that after graduation you'll be thrown out to the desert and study. :'( haha anyway i'm just kidding. IB exams are coming, and im aiming for 36 hahahah please. but idk i just hope so, cus im downgrading my total weaknesses like bio and, well not so much english, cus i downgraded english cus i have no choice. stupid bio. if i didn fail bio i could stay in A2. but nonetheless i can feel slightly painless. so yeah. just that bahasa is still my weakness even tho im in sl. and i think thats it. business is fine, math is fine, itgs.... i can work on it.

the bombings were very dissapointing. and it was a suicidal bomb. SO FUCKIN STUPID if you wanna get yourself killed, get yourself hung. DO NOT BOMB PLACES MORON -.- and we were dismissed earlier ytd, although i kinda watch harry potter at 3.30. oh and speaking of harry, THE MOVIE WAS DISSAPOINTING AS WELL. god knows why. TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED. as a fan. so DONT DIE FOR IT IF YOU HAVE NOT WATCHED. gaaaaaaah

oh ytd icha sonia and i got the number of one of the popcorn stall guy HAHAHAHHAHA we were chatting and joking around and icha was kidding about NUMBERS. but then he was like "SUREEE" and we were like "icha......................." and well he said we cud order movies from him. like hp, the driver was ordering tickets for us while we were in school hahahahah so that makes it a lot easier. besides hes cool i guess :/ ew

haha so just got home from breakfast with mummmm and shopping with mummmm which was quite a funny experience shopping in the morning. so i'll see you laterrrr

2009-07-15T19:49:00.003+07:00

Filzaa says (7:32 PM):
aku jg close kok temperaturnya
anya says (7:32 PM):
takutnya lebih dr 38
anya says (7:32 PM):
kamu 37?
anya says (7:32 PM):
37 mah normal
Filzaa says (7:32 PM):
35
anya says (7:32 PM):
aku cek ah
anya says (7:32 PM):
ITU JAUH DODOL
Filzaa says (7:32 PM):
oh gitu ya

hihiii i love chezyyyy

SCHOOL'S TOMORROW! STOKED :D

i cant wait to see my friends :D omg

ok orientation today was not bad. the new kids are very shy. but we'll see tomorrow.

ok speech on friday. i havent prepared. serious.

ive beend ancing for cas camp and for myself lately. change songs and moves for the 1897234th time. and i think i have to give an easier, and publicised, routine for the newborns. so yeah. my feet hurts SO BAD. serious.

kangen yongkiiiiiii!

2009-07-12T13:17:00.002+07:00

IM DONE WITH DAD'S WORK. very happy, veeery happy.

so he's leaving in supposedly half an hour. but until now, he hasnt even taken any bath. and i doubt that he'll be late, cus he'll be super late.

oh the reason that i wanna post is that I FOUND A GREAT VENUE FOR GATHERING IN KEMAAANG. ok i know kemang has every space filled with cafes, but this is super cute. it has a stage and stagelights and band kits for us to rent! together with the place, and they only have sofas with pillows and bears. really, a great arisan place. haha. and they have an outdoor too. the only problem is, it is together with an apple store -.- so u'll be seeing those macs and ipods while hanging out with your friends. haha. its not on my toplist but we'll definitely have to check it outtt.

lets go to pepenero for lunch on tuesday, anyone?

2009-07-12T07:29:00.002+07:00

oooheyyy. I'M SO BORED. i'm like, downloading indo songs FOR MY DAD. cus he doesnt listen to my stuff. and i have to wait to put it in his ipod and i like doing it simultaneously, as in the downloading, otherwise it'll burst, i guess :/ he's going on a business trip this afternoon, and yet i could only put songs NOW. ytd ive no time, besides the laptop's not in my room nymore. oh i think i slept during titanics D= oh well. i'll watch it later. anyway, yes, this takes TOOOOOOO long. but he begged me, for it is a long flight for him. so i'll be kind

shopping with my daddy never gets any better weeeheeeee

ok so.............. school in 3 days. i have a packed meeting scheds for next week, starting TOMORROW. and i'll be going to school i guess so it means I GET TO MEET TEACHERS oh i miss them SO MUCH. i think i miss them more than my friends. haha kidding babes. my teachers ARE my friends (well not all of them, i cant miss all of them) so ya'll are equall.

i have to be serious next semester, like, really.

ok i'll post later again. see you

2009-07-10T10:30:00.003+07:00

i like this image

i was always fascinated with the jackson 5. but seeing MJ died, i wasn't all weepy weepy. i just have to keep to myself that his music will always be in our hearts.

when i was born and start liking the jackson 5 when i was like... 11, or 12? i cant remember. but i do know that it was sad knowing that they dont exist anymore when i'm alive. started when i started to play disney dance dance revolution and my brother bought his first playstation when he was 14-15. and "i want you back" was on the mickey stage! and so i got to listen to it on the radio and i was like "cool!" ok weird.

anyway, then i'll be there and more hits came to my head. i loved it. and i still do now.

never been so much of a fan of michael. sorry. i just listen to heal the world and we are the world cus i'm concerned about poverty.

ok so. im going to the gym any minute now. no actually any hour. i have to buy dad's jeans. wonder why not mine -.-

silet has been discussing mj forever! gah, im so sick. even US channels are showing the memorial once. silet is a gossip show. why bother -.-

so school next week! stoked.

2009-07-08T15:35:00.002+07:00

i voted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha i was so excited this morning, u cant tell. its so fun voting. i hate the day tho, its so empty, and slow. and the house is so quiet and stuff. and shin's leaving :( thx for the sms sorry i forgot to text this morning :(

anyway, i wanna go out with mom, maybe later. i called my uber sexy dairy product today, CHEESY. haha anya, she was like "hello?" "I VOTEDD!!" hahhaha be jealous 16-year-olds lol
oh and people overseas, u cud vote with your passports. how fun :D

so today im so lazy, AND STRESSED. i cant blv i actually have important works to do these days, life didnt get any better as you get older.

you guys should watch renee olstead's rendition of chaka khan's through the fire! its THAT good! omg and i cant find in anywhere on youtube. sucks to be you :( buy the dvd, i promise it'll be worth it.

oh and duff's new movie "what goes up" SUCKS ASS. srs, do not ever buy it. its downright boring. and sickening. ugh

batsy is going to APM 2009 here in jakarta :D omggg i wanna watch but idk howwwwww. BATSYYYY IS COMIN TO TOWN :D

lets go to the movies peeps. sorry i cant go to dinner last time. lets have a nother one next week. loveyous.

BUH BYEEEEEE

2009-07-07T10:54:00.002+07:00

hello there... the angel of my nightmare. :D

ok my mom just went grocery shopping and i can hear her being busy with her stuff. i dont wanna get involved. haha.

im lazy. lazy.lazy.

see you

2009-07-06T18:36:00.002+07:00

this was over a year ago, a week before i turn 16. before i change.

my mom said i changed a lot as i grow up, and that is not maturity.

i'll try mom.

oh btw, shes okay now. my dad too i guess. and my bro, he's just... what he is. so idgaf.
i wanna start a new page this year, and i guess i'll start that next week when school starts.

ok, i need to tell you guys, how THE SECRET LIFE OF BEES turned my world around ytd. the movie was awesome. and so as hes just not into you. it is a wake up call. changes how i think :) so i guess i'll stop here, ive been having stomach ache since 4 pm and its not over till now. the meeting today was fun. cant wait to see you guys next week. ciao.

2009-07-03T12:33:00.005+07:00

uuu i miss you girls, i miss the drama. hahahaha no i miss the dance :D

alright, i wanna blog everyday now.

toefl and SAT in daytime
read novels nighttime.

nice! =) haha well, i think its quite fun reading indonesian literature, never really find it interesting until i tried reading the books for the summer. argenteuil, a novel by N.H.Dini. i think the front part is okay-ly boring. but i'll see, i mean its only the first quarter of the book.

school has given a book of short stories by A.A.Navis, and i have read only 2 short stories out of the whole book. on the plane. haha, imho it didnt wow me. i love short stories but idk for this one. i guess the spice that makes reader's piece of curiosity is the first parts of a short story book. RIPIN was great because the first short story of the book is awesome. and i think that really drives me to read a lot more of the book. as for this one, idk, but so far, not a good one for me.

i'm halfway through reading my EE books. well, a quarter away actually. or less. i just have to finish wicked, then i'm done. but im still not sure, after reading the color purple, its pretty different from what i heard. in reviews, it is always about sexual exploitation and yada yada yada, but its only like, 40% of the book. the rest was different. perhaps oprah's book club wasnt that attentive =/ oh well, i cant blame the entire world.

i seriously think you guys shud read it tho, its SO GOOD.

so unexpected, thus it wont bore you, at leas the ending wudnt. yes, it bored the hell out of me in the first few but it was an amazing, amazing book. wicked was rather... okay. but it's unique, that's why. you know what, try reading both books.

oh and after you finish, dont forget to help me with my EE. hahahaha

WHICH REMINDS ME. i havent touched any schoolwork this holiday :p i wanna focus on SAT and toefl, but i guess i have to start tomorrow.
well, my EE, im reading it. i havent done the outline, nor the RQ haha but imma finish the book first.
BUSINESS IA.
im gonna move to HL later, so i have to get malourd's consent first ayyt. i guess thats it.
the rest will just probably study bio and study TOK. well you cant really STUDY TOK but at least learning how to analyse THEORY OF KNOWLEDGE is important due to the needs of passing IB. i just need it >.<

since cable was plugged out of my room. nowadays......... I WATCH INDO SINETRONS 0.0 dont ask, it was a sucky entertainment. although some episodes are quite good. well last night i watched 'dewi' and luna maya got preggered by this other guy and the kid is mentally disabled so her servant 'adopted' the kid for her. and she pushed the kid in frnt of everyone so she'll stop calling her mom.

very dramatic. well not so much trust me haha

oh and i watched son of the mask too. the baby was cute. thats all i can say. the rest are just too... lebay. although alan cummings was there. and thats the best part about it. i love alan cummings, even though he looks gay but in a scary way. he's very theatrical.

no comment on the presidential debate, i would rather talk about it face to face.

doon is leaving in 6 DAYSSSS! shin im gonna miss youuuu :(:(:( my dooooooon

so i'll be blogging again tomorrow, see you :)

2009-07-02T09:54:00.003+07:00

home since a few days ago from medan. yes, ETERNAL GLORY. haha

anyway, ive been "pretty busy" no actually grounded. and too much problems at home. like ytd, im sorry mother. :'( my reason for internet is bcs i need my toefl listening tracks to exercise, butttt you know me. i ended up on twitter. college prep has been insanely freakin me out. well prior to the prep, I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT MAJOR AM TAKING. shit man.

i was thinking about communicative science and disease (career: speech therapist)
reasons: i'd work in a hospital, 1/3 medical 1/3 communication 1/3 child psychology (just as i wanted)
but my bio grade, which i failed, didnt seem to meet the requirements. well that can wait but i was thinking, i didnt wanna be far away from home. i want singapore, but they dont have this major. so i guess i'll give it a pass. my dad doesnt know that im sure of sg, mayb i'll tell him later.

now in relation to that, communication.
reason: i can cope with this
problems:
a. too basic! why go overseas
b. it seems wrong
c. too basic!

hotel management
reason: unlv singapore is offering the course, so i guess i'll just run for it.
problems:
a. i dont really like the campus -.-
b. hotel management in the family... again?? my dad mentioned smth about this. and mom said i just wanna take an easy ride since my brother had been through the same thing.

school in the states:
problems:
a. i have to drive
b. credit cards and fuel moneyyyy (hard to control)
c. social security problems
d. the calls....... (dont ask)
e. my dad's demands

benefits:
a. great environment
b. new experience
c. i can travel much

school in singapore:
problems:
a. it gets boring after a while
b. i cant travel accross the country in a day
c. not so much of a new living experience
d. tuition money is pretty much the same as in the states, since i would be going intensive there. i'd graduate later in singapore than the states.

benefits:
a. close to home
b. i dont have to drive
c. cheaper living cost?
additional d. closer to anya -.- HAHAHAHAHA jk

pick. pick. TAG FOR ME. HELP MEEEEE

2009-06-24T10:20:00.003+07:00

ive been living in a catastrophe... again. year after year.
i'm so sorry i havent been so 'in touch' with you especially cheesy. its not that i dont wanna talk but talk is pointless cus i wont be that enthusiastic. anyway, i'm leaving tomorrow and will be out of town for a few days. brudder, brudder brudder havent called him for a while. i wish i can go straight to las vegas and live the american dream. haha (whats the american dream?) anywhere on stage. WITH APPAREL PEOPLE. appropriate apparel -.- and my chiobu and chioma :( oh and chelly too!

ok see you around

2009-06-20T14:46:00.005+07:00

yesterday was report distribution. my gpa sucks ass >.<

(apperently lost a huge part of this post argh)

and HOMEROOM AND ASSEMBLY. i still dk why it exists though, i mean. helloooo. its homeroom. and assembly. what's there to grade? pointless la lol

I FLUNKED BIO. dont ask. i'll move to sl anyway.

it seems like i have a solution for every subject that i flunked:

bio -> move to sl
english -> move to B

but but but

TEE-OWH-KAY ?? wts.

that cant even be a subject wtfffff. go eat some shit. i'm so un-tok-ing myself. though it would be a 'fun' subject. but nooooooo. sighs

2009-06-15T06:23:00.003+07:00

hey guys i know its a bit late, but those are pictures frm my birthday dinner a while back. i had 3 birthday cakes, since my dad bought 2 cus he thought it wudnt be enuf for everybody, and my friends bought me cupcakes :D i had 4 cakes in total. but i'll have a family one later, so 5 -.-

i really love my ayys :D they're my babies! we had a sleepover at anya's and talked all night. as in ALL NIGHT. it was fun, except for the fact that i got sick afterwards and the damned traffic ugh i hate jakartaaaaaa. but that was a week + ago.

BATCH DINNER: JUNIOR'S EVE turned out grrreaaaaat! it was our last junior gathering before the upcoming welcome to senior life party (as if i'm attending one :p) but we'll see. surprisingly, i met norman and chatted for a while with the others. since a lot of us will be moving for some reasons and this is a tradition for our batch so we thought why not make another one. but i have to admit tho, the food werent as nice as jw marriott's. i still think we should've done it in some other hotel. or restaurants. it would be nice.

nowadays, i constantly call mentari. she's awesome.

and im looking forward to a fun ride this summer. something i could think of by the end of this period and make me want to do it all over again. like, love perhaps? well no, haha just... friends :)

2009-06-11T08:29:00.004+07:00

bloggie :)

my bestfriend that i foremostly wedded 2 years ago, i wuf you. (huh?)

here with me through hard times, and good ones fo sho. haha.

2009-05-23T23:57:00.000+07:00

Filzaa says (11:50 PM):
CHEIS
Filzaa says (11:50 PM):
GABE UDH APPROVE
Filzaa says (11:51 PM):
HE SAID FOR MY BIRTHDAY PRESENT
Filzaa says (11:51 PM):
MAU LIAT FOTONYA GA
anya says (11:51 PM):
mana mana?
Filzaa says (11:51 PM):
OMG HE REMEMBERED
anya says (11:51 PM):
MAUUUUU
Filzaa says (11:51 PM):
(link - censored as requested, might results armageddon)
anya says (11:51 PM):
AAAH
anya says (11:51 PM):
hahahahahaha
anya says (11:51 PM):
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ITU RIFAN LOL
Filzaa says (11:52 PM):
LOL BUKAN TAU ITU GABE
Filzaa says (11:52 PM):
LOL
anya says (11:52 PM):
hah?
anya says (11:52 PM):
wait...
anya says (11:52 PM):
errr
anya says (11:52 PM):
NGGA ITU RIFAN
Filzaa says (11:52 PM):
BUKAN, GABE!
Filzaa says (11:52 PM):
kan dia abis oprasi plastik masa lo gatau
Filzaa says (11:52 PM):
hahahhahahahaa
anya says (11:53 PM):
iuuuh
anya says (11:53 PM):
rifan
anya says (11:53 PM):
iuuuuh

2009-05-10T18:35:00.007+07:00

my first english play in kindergarten, i was a bird. the moment i embrace as i live lives on stage

2009-05-10T15:08:00.002+07:00

TO REDZER. a.k.a THE DARING CRUSADER or whoever your "holistic" superhero name is.

CONGRATULATIONSSS!

although it was just a walk-in but no more class, ay? i'll be needing you pictures NOW. send it in or i'll kill you virtually. work hard at your new place B ) get 630 on gmat lol while im working on my sat. i'll see you when i see youuuuu

2009-05-09T08:02:00.004+07:00

sometimes, all you need is not the boy you said you need. all you really need is the girl who listens to what you've been saying.

iloveyou, ayy.

2009-05-06T20:59:00.001+07:00

*a thousand words

2009-05-05T18:48:00.003+07:00

2nd may 2009

Hari Pendidikan Nasional. it was a moment in time.

Saat itu, saya sedang dalam perjalanan ke sekolah, untuk aktifitas pelayanan sosial di SDN belakang. Pergilah saya dijemput oleh teman sebaya yang kebetulan juga ikut dalam proses tersebut. Bapak supir memilih untuk lewat jalan tikus dari arah tanah kusir, yang nanti mengarah ke gang kecil depan SD Al-azhar di kebayoran lama. Kamipun lintaskan suatu SD, dimana anak-anak masuk sekolah di panas terik yang membuat saya pun risih akan keadaan nanti saat acara. Setelah melewati, tak jauh dari sekolah tersebut saya lihat anak laki-laki berpakaian rapih, berjalan menuju sekolah dengan di panas terik yang menyakiti mata. Anak itu jalan sambil membaca kertas yang ada di kedua tangannya. Dari dalam mobil aku bisa tau bahwa itu potongan dari siatu majalah Politik, mengetahui ada gambar Barack Obama berdiri ditengah acuan argumen yang ditulis oleh pers. Dari heading artikel, saya juga bisa tahu, bahwa itu potongan majalah Newsweek, dengan bahasa inggris. Hati saya berdebar lebih kencang, tak tahu harus bersyukur ada juga yang punya motivasi belajar walau banyak kekurangan secara finansial, atau harus sedih melihat diri saya yang kurang menghargai apa yang orang tua telah berikan. Saya juga pelanggan majalah tersebut. Namun tidak tiap minggu saya bisa hayati semua artikel di dalamnya. Saya malu. Di rumah ini saya dibesarkan mensyukuri semua yang telah disediakan. Dan dalam ukuran hidup, ini sudah cukup. Saya tahu saya tidak pernah minta yang berlebihan, namun saya belum pernah mendapatkan motivasi yang amat tinggi untuk lebih menggapai lagi langit yang tidak ada batasannya. Pendidikan harus disertai keingintahuan diluar buku cetak yang tersedia. Anak itu, telah membuka mata saya, untuk lari di jalan pendidikan yang masih panjang kedepan.

2009-05-05T00:18:00.006+07:00

THINKQUEST SUBMITTED!!

i can catch my breath

and anya, i'm so sorry for wasting your time, i was 20 minutes away from deadline, so i cant possibly finish the flash. so sorry :( i'll bring you chocolates tomorrow.

ivana's party was fun, and the sleepover was fuuuuuun. although we did get in trouble :/

im still awake. cus of thinkquest :( now i shud do reflections

2009-04-29T22:20:00.004+07:00

my stomach is aching.

yoga class today was damn boring, it was downright meditation.

i have to use PC :( THE NEW INTERNET GUY DIDNT PLUG THE FRKKIN CABLE TO MY LAPTOP :(

my CAS evidences sucks to hell. like, a shattered glass on the pavements. its everywhere! exams in 2 weeks. NOOOOO.

a few days ago skye was telling me "filza, youre not allowed to sleep in class, if you want to sleep then just go home" DUDE, come on. i didnt distract you. that guy srsly has a problem, its like, he cares too much. u shudnt

i think i flunked my bio test the other day dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee im getting worse each day. shud mug more.

ok see ya

2009-04-26T08:44:00.004+07:00

good morning :)

ytd, turned out. nothing was finished D= and on friday, didnt do anything D=

okay today in 20 hrs i have to finish

~~WL outline~~
CAS reflections in total of: 14 D=
BIO HUMAN PHYSIOLOGY
thinkquest storyboard and writing
~~english reading & movie planning~~
EE READING D=

helllpppppp. dieeeeeeeee

and still, my dad : "lets go to the museum!" omgggggg

thus, i would want a vacation to zimbabwe.

plus, i want a private jet to take me to bora-bora when i graduate.

2009-04-24T19:02:00.004+07:00

i decided not to go with the girls to GrandIndo cus i need to study HUMAN PHYSIOLOGY. i hate muggin. like seriously.

and i srsly hate the fact that i spent all a lot to buy food thus no cash to photo copy bio study guide -.-

TODAY WAS KARTINI DAY. thank you for those ppl who showed up in indo attire. but there are a lot who didnt, but tis ok, maybe its my fault by saying 'attire', and the new juniors didnt understand what it means.

more pictures will be up tomorrow :) hopefully.

just got in a fight with my mom. she was so pushy and forceful :(

PLEASE DO COME TO FAMILY SPORTS DAY :D IT'LL BE A LOT OF FUN. yea i'm like.. the co-dj :p nah, just music director assistant. i'll be watching you guys from the center of the hall. so watch me -.- and we'll be playing a lot of music. and request will be taken. also support the fun fair stall CAS students made! it'll be a lot of fun. meeting teachers with their groove on :D -.-

i apologize my culturific people. i was being a bitch this afternoon. shudnt have done that. sorry :(

my worst habit: thinking i can always fix mistakes without telling anyone what's wrong, too afraid to face the real world. i hate to say this but i cant always get in the right track. making mistakes, telling my parents, then trying my hardest under supervision - cant. i thought i can fix it all with their hands off my stuff. thus we'll forget the past and everything will go back to normal. my parents always said, that i cant work alone. truth be told, i always told people the right thing to do, but i cant do it for myself. im trying tho.

today's EE class was fun. della and i were sorting through the untouched books in the library (most of them are media) and found 'teenage sex'. surprisingly, it was very educating :p finally our questions were answered. 'how to do it' was one of them . LOL and AIDS, teenage pregnancy, rape, homosexuality, teenage confusion of their sexual orientation were all elaborated. never knew those kinda things, especially bout rape. never knew the types of effect a victim would get, it was scary i can tell ya that. it was not nasty, AT ALL. its like.. the answer book. i blv teenagers do ask themselves about it and this light book answers it all. go check it out - for those who are 16 and above :)

i used to bitch about the movie SPECTACULAR! tha nickelodeon shit/high school musical wannabe. well, the last musical number wasn't THAT bad. however there are some weird dancemoves. cheap movies. but i was inspired, it was a big stage, so they had a lot of opportunities. anyway, gotta wake up early tmr! see ya peepzers.

2009-04-22T21:23:00.002+07:00

WORLD LITERATURE OUTLINE BY FRIDAY shootz

THE COLOR PURPLE FINISHED BY TOMORROW shootz

EXTENDED ESSAY RESEARCH QUEST BY FRIDAY shootz

BANNER ISSUE COVERED BY TOMORROW MORNING shootz

BUSINESS IA SUPPORTING DOCUMENTS BY MAY 1 shootz

ITGS OUTLINE BY TOMORROW shootz

SUBJECT REVIEW shootz

THINKQUEST shootz

BOOK DRIVE BOX shootz

IB, go put a crap on smth else lhe.

2009-04-21T19:33:00.001+07:00

today was so hectic. i dont feel like blogging. i'll blog tomorrow.

2009-04-21T05:57:00.002+07:00

its me... again.

so last night (or shud i say morning -.-) went to bed at 3, woke up around 5.25 ish. idk i feel like blogging now. im so empty inside. no one's listening to me. much less i dont really know what to share juga sih.

my mind is falling apart, i dont think i'll survive school today. and i have extra class until 3. i srsly dont think i'll survive biology, but thanks to the seating arrangement, i'll have a chance to be alive at least. my lab mates are bloody geniuses!

oh, and ytd mr godfried, my math teacher, gave me tonnes of calculator programmes! gosh, now i can do stuff thats fuckin awesome. this is probably a tiny bit part of IB that makes me wanna hug the logo so tight.

which reminds me, mr. peter's in singapore, and so tomorrow i will have to sing with rama only D= this is the only thing i hate about being vp. gosh.

i have so much to say, so little time. better go now ciao

2009-04-21T00:10:00.002+07:00

my day at school. my fellow funmily day music mixers

anyway, today was a loooong day.

school was okay 'cept the fact that i didn't eat at all. the only thing i ate was a piece of anya's chicken fillet, and a piece of ivana's fish. for lunch -.-
so after school mr lai was all tired, he didnt have enuf sleep. pity him. and so he dropped me off at the bus stop. turned out he met ms arlene and they were all going shopping. since she's going home the same way as i am, so i hopped in and went grocery shopping with my school mummy and daddyyyy.

so afterwards i went to pim, fetched, but my mom said i should eat there first. so i ate. after eating my tummy was painful as it is in hell. and i had to walk like a hunchback at the mall. i couldn't take it. so i went home with a lot of pain. it got worse, i was damn pathetic.

so i just woke up from the horrid sickness, and this is a good time to mug. so i guess.

btw culturific ladies, tmr i nandra and i will announce the layout for the banner. thank you girls.

another itgs frikkin lecture tmr. grrr. its so boring, i slept in class today, lecture session only, and thank god ms tima has enough faith in me, i think she knows i'll read it anyway :) idk why, every rule she sets up for garren and i should not be talking in class not even a word, never really works. idk, we will always find a way to make people happy :D besides our talk is always very entertaining.

tomorrow... no language class. and only 3 main subj. VICTORYYYYY
but theres the horrid TOK. lets practice deductive reasoning.

IB is stress
stress kills
therefore IB kills (and everyone knows).

i dont need 40 damn minutes to learn about this. damn easy. i hate nearly all of the boys in my class, i know its TOK, but youre no better than a kid living on the street you fucking losers. you just lost my respect, and soon much more. i dont need your crap to be around me, let alone your fucking brain.

sorry for all these. im so angry

anyway, have a good tuesday :) will post afterschool.

2009-04-19T22:11:00.002+07:00

im so down now.
thinking of this person doesnt get me anywhere.
i wanna go back, and listen to the piano sound from nowhere.
maybe its true when you said "isn't it just wonderful lying down next to someone you love"

i need to go back, for i am ready to run.

2009-04-19T18:17:00.002+07:00

i like this picture a lot, by nandra.
thank youuu it made my day.

anyway. i've only finished 2 tasks -.-

the dentist doesnt make me feel good about my teeth, but people said its better. idk, my sense perception just works my way.
and my mom said i need to "think" before i shop. well hey, i found a way to solve the problem even before we bought it mom, but you disagreed the next day -.- peculiarity. never really find a point in essence in this kind of problems.

brb, eat pempek.

back.

im full!

i havent done my CAS reflections due to my trainer's lousy act le argh
gym is my obsession rite now, but i never can do it on weekends. idk why, maybe that relaxation atmosphere emphasized in the word "weekend". although yoga refers to relaxation or peace of mind or find your center kind of shapes, i dont intend to join my weekend yoga class.

i slacked a lot today. but not as much as ytd. k ciao

woah. my kind of moment

2009-04-18T16:59:00.001+07:00

I took a chance, i took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not
You took a swing, i took it hard
And down here from the ground i see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that that you love me then cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day
Well I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh

Taylor Swift - Tell Me Why

2009-04-17T20:33:00.005+07:00

phew. weekends.

i have managed to list down what am i sppsd to work on this weekend. apparently, found my EE topic alr, which i am excited about. and CAS reflections. i feel like the compulsory subjects (or what they call 'the heart of IB') are the real weapons for the killing of IB students.

originally written 17/04

my friday at school, taken by ichel.

hey guys

im scared for April 27, really i am.
i seriously dont think im good enough :(

anyway, weekend.

finish The Color Purple
finish Wicked
finish Kunjungan Nyonya Tua
finish my article
finish Thinkquest writing
finish CAS reflections
review math
review bio
review business

die.

OH MY

2009-04-16T20:44:00.004+07:00

Happy birthday Reuben! it was a surprise, he was so grumpy on his birthday (at least we made him so) but turned out great :) all the best, man.

hello, 'tis almost the end of the week fellaz.

damn ridiculous le.

i've only finished 1/6 tasks that was given, due TOMORROW. and the one is actually 0.5 - 0.5 -.- half for cas dance reflections, and the other half for bahasa homework (and that was the easy one) crap.

i srsly need to fill up the slack. cus internet doesn't get me anywhere for the moment. tis just facebook twitter facebook twitter stalking facebook twitter oceanup twitter. but of course, i wouldn't put blog on my blacklist due to its educational aspect. virtual journalism? the thing is, what ive been doing is damn sinful in the English A2 bible.

truth be told, i enjoy English A2 lectures. not that i fully agree on media studies and how the new media throws garbage on our butts, but the chance to interrelate things is merely exciting. that's why i answer practically every question asked, people. even though i may be wrong haha but who cares? God gave me this mouth to take risks. and besides, ms donna's ma girrlll. she rocks the charisma.

why am i blogging while i have a pile of stuff to do? because i rock. dont ask.

lol no, i think this is one of the ways to take a rest from mugging. rather than goin on facebook.....................................or twitter..........................or more facebook.... dang i feel so crappy D= (im doing it rite now)

MY A;LSFAFSD/LH;L//;LK;KDFA EXTENDED ESSAY. out of 200+ pages of The Color Purple, i've read only 20 pages of it :( 10 % sucks. and tomorrow i have to come up with the research question, and meeting with mr.c :((((( and since im his only EE student in the class.................im screwed.

LAST WEEK OF APRIL: THE ZOO. WORST WEEK, HELP.

new convo- IT class.

2009-04-13T14:16:00.003+07:00

filza: hey gurrrlfriend
garren: ?
filza: hey garren
garren: ?
garren: gotcha
filza: hey dummy
garren: iyaaaa, i am since my name is filza rite..how are u garr??
filza: i'm stupid, filza.
garren: well its okay, its better than being sexually attracted to hairy older men
filza: i'm attracted to an unhairy high school student, gua g homo
garren: gosh, filza's using both acc to make fun of me and herself. idiot
filza: its not insulting
garren: haha!! gareeen's dumb
garren: seeee!!! she is using her acc and even mine..
filza: for the record, idk what you mean. LOL.

fyi, this isnot a quote, rather we used this posting box for a chatroom

2009-04-13T06:01:00.002+07:00

it's 6.08 and i'm dressed for school.

all of the sudden i remember at this point, two weeks ago i was trembling so badly. for i knew i'll be seeing you for the first time in 11 months. 7.16, i saw you in the edge of your class row, seated and yet that face, i know its you.

i tried to hide my face, so on the way up, you wouldn't see me. and i succeeded, you didn't see me.

2009-04-12T10:09:00.005+07:00

hey, virtual-engineers :) i'm back.

it's been a month since i updated, and this past month has been terrific :)

alrite, BALI was amazing! it was a great getaway with great people, (although anya would make my days a lot more awesome) and the extend days were full of... stories :D mushroom beach, the hidden beach that garren and i found that morning, was breath-taking. it was a wonder, since no one's there to interrupt, it was one fine afternoon.

it was hella fun. rayner's surfing pants are always down everytime the wave comes, so he ended up wearing his boxers alone -.- bara too i guess. garren's tie dye pants blinded my eyes, they look like colored bamboos, oh and i got sunburn, and peeled off my skin... not my fault. now its back already, dont worry. yogi got a temporary tattoo, ying andn yang (or was it yin and yan?) ON HIS CHEST. hahhahah he looked like a true monk, with his baldness.

finally, i'm back to HCI's immersion trip. it was fine, altho had some moments on getting lost in singapore -.- haha but it was okay. met my peeps from last year, it was great going ahead for spring break :D we all went out with warren at east coast, and congratz war you made it to student council :D but we didnt take a picture :( anyway, met oliver, norman, and lingjie from the boarding school. chatted with oliver almost every night after quiet hours, haha it was so nice to relax near the pond for a little while. the program was quite different, altho it was good. i shared host with rama and abe at some point, altho at breaks i separated myself hehe. met zack, and talk to him, almost everyday at school, on break times. he's been thru a lot, and i did too so we're on the same boat. i miss him quite much now, he was surprised to see me at first lol.

Mr. charles low said i've grown, he said im more mature now that i'm in grade 11. he also mentioned that the maturity comes from the toughness of grade 11. haha true, sir. IB kills. oh speaking of IB, i checked out IB quotes that anya was promoting haha dang funny. and mrs giam was surprised to see me again :p great to see them again as well.

oh and thanks to alastair, little jeremy, jeremy, darren, troy, kurt, you guys are great hosts.

KURT!

it sucks to know that you're getting older, but at the same time, you are ecstatic to have your driver's license and your id. it's very confusing. i manage to make decisions more wisely now that i'm older each day. well, that's what i think. anyway, i'm starting to be booze-free for 2 weeks now :D:D and want to stay that way until my birthday, which is a month + away so, i better manage to tempted-free for 7 weeks. well my goal is actually 4 months but what can i do if it's my birthday right? hehe

i miss my two e-buddies together. i love hearing what she has to say, what he has to say. and finally what i have to say.

last night it was cavin's birthday. the place is very unique, but i have to admit... it was scary :'( i didnt wanna go to the toilet, trust me, i was shaking at some point. but we had fun :D thx cav

with one of the bottom 10 finalists of indonesian idol, GEVIN.
look, its pretty creepy but so intimate, which was the best part.

regrets : didn't go parasailing, didn't go for a slingshot in singapore (cus bali's was too nerve-wrecking), didn't see the rest of my friends in sg.

my soundtrack for the moment : getting stronger - adeaze (i really need to be strong, this longing doesn't get me anywhere, its a burden)

oh quotes, qotes.

sevira: mas, bisa minta bawang goreng ga? sama minum ya
masnya: oh bisa dong, minumnya mau apa?
sevira: bawang goreng
masnya: hah?
sevira: *ga peduli*

ciao, kiddos. filza.

2009-03-09T16:09:00.003+07:00

i havent post anything for decades woo. haha

i was bored. to death. so i came in for a while, check out what's new. apparently MY BIGGEST FAN. the queen of interwebz wanted me so much muahahaha.

so my long weekend was... surprisingly normal. i didn't go out, i did go out with my family and cousins but that's pretty much all. anyway, i really really need to be serious in my studies. like. srsly.

okay so this is March, apparently the month i've been waiting for. bali's next week and i'm ecstatic. naida will hop in!! woohoo i love yous to cimsie.

but bali wouldnt be as fun without you goonie :(

my life is becoming problematic lately. i am too afraid to spread out the reality bout the response i was getting while others got the exact opposite which is worse. its crazy. i'm gonna meet oliver at the end of the month, its gonna be fun. hope we'll do a lot of talking.

and lately.. i'm pretty much emo. regardless of the pms, idk why i was listening to my emo playlist. (fyi, no screamos indeed, just deep songs) school will end in two days! wooo i'm so happy, crappy.
'

rockin

2009-02-01T08:11:00.001+07:00

ok. amy winehouse is the art. her music's fuckin delicious!

omg, i love her lyrics, true artist, i may say. she's awesome. i hafta buy her cd, like now.

ok now. lazy to post. see ya around.

2009-01-26T19:03:00.004+07:00

my dad is... confusing. sometimes i just wanna runaway. but oh well, that's life. its difficult.

happy chinese new year, people ;D

i was aiming to study my butt off this long weekend, but i just couldnt.

somehow i am so not ready to meet ... >.< 2 months wouldnt prepare me for that horrendous moment. and i'm doing this cus maybeee... just maybe, it wouldnt happen if i go all crazy haha.

just read my schedule for the slc trip. another photonics lab experiment... noooooo. i suck at making holograms. i'll see if they can excuse me from the session, i'm sure they wouldn't mind.

i have to get off from computer, like seriously.

and now i'm about to. see you at school people.

oh just fyi, tomorrow's the chinese costume freedress thing, so lets make sure you got it all in the head. ciao

can i have my angpao now?

2009-01-25T01:36:00.006+07:00

it's almost 2 a.m. but i'm not even ready for bed. in fact, the bed's not ready, still buried underneath a pile of.. stuff. anyway, i wanna go to sleep.

was it that hard to just simply trust you?
or was i banned for having faith in you?
will i be sinned by doing a deed?
or just simply burned by the flame of your words?
was i too honest it pushed you hard and made you hide?
or perhaps all those to retain my consent?
was this harmful?
or was it just me?

2009-01-18T23:10:00.003+07:00

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM, MSN ?!

omaiz my msn's being a total nun. anyway, i'm stuck with blog. and facebook, but got too much of it so. wont let myself to get so full of it. i'm curious WHAT IS THE HIGHLY IMPORTANT FACEBOOK POLICY?! this is like... weird. cus peter's referring to grade 11s, and yet the whole student body has a facebook page.

FACEBOOK IS IMMORTAL. well, for now. anyway i'm not making any sense.

oh i was checkin out mike elgar's facebook page, and reminds me how anya used to adore the song '214' and the next thing i know i was opening the lyrics to the song. it says..

The world could die
And everything may lie
Still you shoudn't cry
'Cause time may pass
And everything won't last
But I'll be by your side

i know these kinds of love songs are pretty cliche but it has a sense of 'finally i can catch my breath' feeling when you take a glance at the words. it would perfectly fit a valentine's day or maybe.. just a simple 21st of april :p if you know what i'm talking about, my friend.

anyway, i shall go to bed. school tomorrow and... dont wanna be late for my second monday.

2009-01-17T23:08:00.002+07:00

i was planning to study the whole day, but i guess its not possible. instead, i'm bangin my head and wavin my long curly hair woohoooooooo rocknroll baby!

2009-01-17T11:07:00.002+07:00

if you see those pictures below. been wonderin WHY, that's what we do in bahasa class, presentation sessions, severe boredom, dont ask. hahahha anyway

the first week of school, hmm, what can i say. pretty normal. still fuckloads of homeworks, that's unavoidable. slc things, pretty normal. but busy stuff happenin, i just cant wait to get into debate class next week, so i can torture you all, losers. 'cept eugenia, she hardly is vulnerable hahahha

maybe i'll move my english to B next year, i dont know. i just want the grades, like REALLY BAD. to get into university (hopefully), the faculties wouldnt bother checkin out my media studies notes or my lord of the flies booklet. what they want: GOOD GRADES. but i like lit, so i'll keep hangin until the last chance of moving is announced.

I HAVE TONNES OF WORK THIS WEEKEND. NOT EXACTLY THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY JUNIOR YEAR.

FACEinHOLE

2009-01-16T11:40:00.002+07:00

Create your own FACEinHOLE

FACEinHOLE

2009-01-16T11:35:00.001+07:00

Create your own FACEinHOLE

2009-01-10T09:04:00.002+07:00

first of all i would like to say,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, RAY!

may God bless you

second,
HAPPY FIRST ANNIVERSARY, CIMS!

may our friendship lasts as we grow along, i love you guys.

i have to do my homeworks before i'll be gone for the night. can't wait, peace.

2009-01-08T00:19:00.009+07:00

In You, I Breathe

In a lost city i found hope

In a deserted land i feel snow

In a small space i see a great amount of love

In a tangled thread i was free

In this big world i whisper

In sickness and in health

Till death do us part

P.S: I love you

2009-01-07T05:29:00.002+07:00

aaaaaaargh i'm awake. thx for the crazy nights when i sleep really late -_- and now so quick.

i'm feeling sick again. grrr i want midori. idk why i'm just in looove with midori now. its so gooood and i can go for a massage straight away if i want haha

i want a car! not my mom's not anyone's MINE. well it's not compulsory for you to buy me one, mom. idk i just feel like it. besides, i dont wanna be some spoiled gift from God : )

okay.. now where do i go for breakfast? hmm.. i was thinking.. midori. hahahahhahahahahahha (bilang aja pengen bgt)

did i sleep real quick last night? how come i woke up early, then? maybe cus of bad dreams. but wait, i didnt have any nightmares tonight. creepy little nature!

OMG CHEETAH GIRLS 2 IS THE BOMB. CG3 IS CRAP. argh cg2 is directed by KENNY ORTEGA. no wonder -_- aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaargh cg3 sucks.

2009-01-05T12:06:00.003+07:00

oh boy. i just did some thinking.

i post so much if i miss someone. it triggers me to write. now i know, gosh.

and maybe now you can figure out why i post so much at times.

TAYLOR SWIFT IS THE BEST! GAH. HELP ME. CANT GET OVER HER ALBUM.

keren!

leon jackson's is awesome too! hot as well :D

k then, bye bye.

2009-01-03T21:15:00.004+07:00

to keep on dancing wherever we go next..

That's my new year resolution... i guess? well not quite a resolution just a simple phrase to begin with this new year. Dancing doesn't mean having fun. It means doing it the right way, on the right beat, within control. Btw, its from high school musical 3. dont ask.

i wanna study. but i'm lazy. help me. get me a therapy.

2009-01-02T00:56:00.006+07:00

HAPPY 17 CHEISY ZEFANYA :)

may all good things be with you, <3>i remember we used to joke around when we were 15 and imagine what our sweet 17s would be like. i said i would invite bondoc to sing with and for me. you said you would bring over our friend from far faaaar away land to share the moments with. but time pass by, and as we go older, we forget about granting such things to feel satisfied, but we never forget the highlights of every movements that we made in our lives.

sorry it's too melancholic. i'm not asleep yet, so... yeah. ily, flzy.

2009-01-01T09:51:00.002+07:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009! hope this year all great things would come :)) including great grades ahahhaha

anyway, i'm doing my usual new year. sitting at home (or sleeping) i didnt do sleep cus there's a harry potter movie i was ought to watch. and so i did a virtual new year with my friends and a telephonic (?) new year with anya. she was like SCREAMING intensely like she was falling down a well or smth (she was at the mall, it's so loud). haha, well at least that could make me understand what she was saying the whole time. anyway, the convo with cims was great. reuben was ruining it tho. shut up the first, then created a one-man show later on. haha, he couldnt stop talking.

okay. ugh theres a HUGE zit on my nose i hate it, i wanna kill myself :(

2008-12-30T09:28:00.003+07:00

omg i have to buy tayswift's fearless album. it's a M-U-S-T-H-A-V-E. cus i finally found an album that is solely personal. i know it's about love, love, love, it is typical. but the words are differently recited by the artist, and it is good. i like songs that has a story behind it, and this album clearly stated each and every story behind the song. in which i can connect well.

wooohooooo!

i love the idea that when i was on the flight home from bali, it was sunset!! it's soooo pretty. i'm 'flying' so technically i'm watching the sunset BEFORE the people on the beach see it finishing thru the horizon. haha i feel prooouuuud.

this is the digicam image, i'll show you the SLR image later (my battery's finished).

ANYA'S BACK. yay yay yayerz.

I WANNA GO BOWLING. oh, reminds me. i'll just go to the movies nearby then -_-

2008-12-21T18:28:00.004+07:00

i'm back! from medan. my bro's home so we had to visit our beloved grandmum. anyway, this was THE FIRST TIME that i was actually ENJOYING my medan holiday. 1. because it was short (3 days! haha) 2. because we went to the beach! although bali is nicer... but at least i could escape from the city. the 'mirror beach' haha nah, pantai cermin is like 1.5 hrs away from medan and the wind is nice.. i get to see some farms and what not. they have fishermen too! well nto exactly, they search for shrimps. my driver bought shrimps and... baby stingray. the man said it was stuck in the shrimp net hahahahah. its funny tho

vacayy is not over! more adventures to come fellaz.

i am currently listening to baby, it's cold outside. a very romantic jazz song, i love it too much.

Ahh, but it's coooold outside~

2008-12-14T21:14:00.005+07:00

ok, i'm feeling like posting since the past few days.

i've been following what anya said... from now on i will turn off my computer when i'm away :( well truth be told i was just leaving some buffering for tv shows. didn't mean to "leave a message" people who dingdong-ed me on msn. so forgive me, my fere :(

anyway, i just learned something. did you realize that gossip girl has a lot of literary devices? that's so cool. anyway, ugly betty is such GUILTY PLEASURE (this is the real thang). i could die if UB's not on tv. i've been a fan, never MISSED an episode of the telenovela, and so as the american tv show. i have been taking a close look at betty's outfits. piece by piece they're DOWNRIGHT EXPENSIVE (designer all the way, sister). it's just that the wardrobe department crashed the colors and patterns therefore turns out that it has always been a fashion catastrophe. as i watched the behind the scenes, it is like designer clothes head to toe. whereas the fashion editor (in this case, Wilhelmina) is wearing a $140 suit from H&M and she looks like a million dollars.

anyway i dotn wanna look like a fashion-obsession victim. (there a huge diff between a fashion victim and a fashion-obsession victim. for all i know i can be obsessive at times) and now i'm being a total brat please dont mind.

sitcoms are loooooooove as well. i just cant get over it. sitcoms are my type :) haha.

i just went accessories shopping with mumz. bought A LOT. what can i say, it's too great it outshines me most of the time hahahahha (a non-living thing just beat filza.. in life)

oh speaking of life.... this is a new quote i found. "can you pretend like you have a life for just one minute?" hahahhahahah. i love finding quotes about a lifeless being. like me. uh shit, do i even have a life to say that?

anyway, it's 10 and... i wanna watch tv. see you soon.

2008-12-13T21:33:00.002+07:00

i'm listening to player's player again. it's just too deep gaaazsh

monday = doomsday! dont wanna talk abt it :(

i'm in need of food. altho i'm kinda on a diet, well nto that strict, not that strict. but i was notified by nature that i must have gained weight. i'm not trying to be anorexic or anything, but the goal is just to try healthy living. and so far, it didnt quite work out for me. i did try tho, ate red rice... GREEN VEGGIES... and reduce my dinner-portion. that is all very cliche in my life due to the fact that i have HUGE appetite. hahahhaha lets keep trying people. live healthily!

ok... i used to say i dislike tights... now i take back my words. i love it. leggings are so comfy... warm... i hereby announce that my leggings are now a part of my pajamas =) awesome stuff. i love it like i love john mayer hahahhaha wow huge difference.

seeya later.

2008-12-09T22:04:00.006+07:00

it was the music

it was a message

it was a time

along that genuine line of hope

i stuttered

for i was seeing you

who blocked my way to ecstacy

and led me to another direction

i was given everything but the one i longed for

: my way to that day

there was zero

knowing you’ve given me everything but that,

now i feel like i’m a whole again

of a complete wasteland

as you know

it was shit

it was dirt

it was lust

i know this is a total crap, i was just tryna kill time. sorry

2008-11-27T15:10:00.002+07:00

omg, TOK was a waste. srsly, i was like "sir, is this a typo?" and he was like "no, i cant answer if it's a typo or not" and he ended up not answering any single question. GOSH, dont come then. shoo shoo

i'm pretty pissed. anyway, i wanna get on the dance floor dancing to lady gagagagagagagagagagagagagagagaga haha such a cute name

i have business tomorrow, and i'm like... lazy. you can tell, huh?

i want jiffest! this year they're using fx as a venue! yes yes yes. i wanna watch WORLDS APART but it's night time dang. and loads of free screenings! haha nandraaaaaa it'll be better than last year. srsly fuuuuuuuuuun. i'll see ya there!

4 more subjects! wish me luck, people. virtual prayers count!

2008-11-25T09:08:00.002+07:00

YESTERDAY WAS ITGS :((

DAYYYMMM HARD. it was fuckin' a lot! god, itgs the term was godawful! i didn't finish. godddd ugh.

wish me luck on today's. bahasa...... i hope it goes well. and it has to anyway, so yea cross your fingers X.

2008-11-12T17:36:00.006+07:00

have you ever felt like you actually regret thinking about somebody in a bad way, cause people change you know, and that person might eventually change too as time rolls, right? well, it's happening to me now. and shoot, yeah.

i can't believe that the nicest person i can think of NOW, is the person i used to say the non-boyfriend material one back then. its sooo disturbing, and really, it is.

i regret, seriously, if i can turn back time i would. but the good thing is he's not the kind of person who turns back the page. so he's on to NOW. and i like that.

i know i'm being SUPER melancholic right now, but srsly, you guys. DONT EVER -at least- make promises or swear (hear that, anya) on somebody cus you'll eventually, at some point, think about them. and its a great feeling now, i'm telling you, and it just sucks to recap all those unfortunate moments :(

picture:http://www.sandrophoto.com/wp-content/themes
/ubminim/images/digital-photography-3.jpg

2008-11-09T21:01:00.007+07:00

I'VE BEEN TAGGED by Cheisy Zefanya :):)

now here goes

Answer the questions below, do a Google image search with your answer, take a
picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of
explanation.Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.

1. The age you'll be your next birthday

my sweetest seventeen :)

2. A place you'd like to travel to

anywhere with unicef

3. You're favourite place:

bedroom is so love

4. You're favourite food.

nothing beats mcd's apple pie

5. My favourite pet

if only he's real :(:(

6. Your favourite colour combination

it's a lot.. but i'm standing strong for this one :)

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

trench coats! if only i own one :(

8. Your favourite all time song

hits by coldplay. inevitably awesome.

9. Your all time favourite TV show

my eyes just open everytime lizzie's on :p

10. First name of your significant other/crush

hottie.

11. The town in which you live

jakartaa

12. Your first job

anything for opraah

13. Your dream job

someone like Ian Wright. travelshow-host!

14. A bad habit you have

clutter :(

15. Your worst fear

dissapointment

16. The one thing you'd like to do before you die

complete my call

17. The first thing you'll buy if you get $1000000

a strategic penthouse. awesomeee

tagging:
1. Sariee
2. Johanna
3. Clariszaa
4. Redha
5. Andrew

2008-11-09T15:30:00.007+07:00

CAMP WAS FUUUUUNNNNN !!! thank you SLCs!!

i learned a lot about leadership from campp but unfortunately we didnt take any picture on the late night (scary candle) meeting haha but ok. i was glad that everyone shared something and was sooo sincere. honesty was the word :) thank you for the rest of the activities and glad everybody followed :) AND I DIDNT GO TO THE LABRYNTH :( but oh well. see the maze doen there in the photo?

I MISS MY LITTLE GUYS ALREADY :) RICO ODI AND ARMAAAAAAAN :):)

THANK YOU SOOO MUCH LEADERS! ily ALL <3

2008-11-01T19:52:00.005+07:00

at last..

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3

it was awesome as hell, yeah!

incredible work. *standing ovation*

the movie was soooooo great! it was beyond my expectations. the choreography was BREATH-TAKING. to watch it on the premiere day was also a hard work facing those obsessive kids. srsly, it was awesome. i'm speechless. really. one question: can i try being one of the character's understudy? if possible :D

haha sure not.

it's a dream <3>

unified.

2008-11-01T18:28:00.010+07:00

i'm too nice, i'm actually granting yo wishesss, bloggeerz. haha jk pals.

hello people of the world, i haven't post for aggggesss maaann. sick as hell, i know. well not quite, i actually tried to post the other day, and that other day was like... a week ago. i tried to post on the frggin iGoogle, which i was excited about. that day, however, it got screwed, something refreshed and whooossshhhh ... my super quite long post swept away. great job, webbie! but anyways, i'm kinda sick of this layout skin thing, i might as well changed it to the old one. haha, i love that one. unfortunately... it's boring. i'll think it over.

this week was soooooo fuuuuuuunn, thanks to ALL TEACHERS for all the hard work in the making of Unity in Diversity week. it was a huuuge success, and i was so proud of my school nao. the "curtain call" of UiD was starvaganza, or as anya liked to call it *vgnz, which was pretty cool there, anya. and starvaganza was magnificent! it was a-w-e-s-o-m-e. even though it was tiring for 5 of us (with the exception of aryandi -__-) but it was all paid off. my favorite was the ethnic part of the phillipines tribal dance thingy, the bollywood dance, aaanndd pak ade+mr.sadrakh were totally funny. oh and the saman dance + choir of the PSG was awesome too, these ladies were on top this year, bravo! and bravo to all of the performers!

haha orang nyasar ;p

mr.c stole the show, woot woot <3>

the saman!

and i still cant blv those are my teachers.... dancing. awesome job, everybody! :):):)

I <3>

2008-10-12T10:25:00.001+07:00

i'm writing this from iGoogle. omg so fetch, baby! haha keren deh, u guys shud try it. it's iGoogle, thanks for introducing it to me red!

2008-10-12T09:24:00.002+07:00

Happy Birthday, Nai! glad u like the surprise although the candles are scary.

2008-10-11T22:08:00.002+07:00

so i went to bogor today, and spent a day with my baby cousin nayang. and something happened, so we were playing she was running, and i was about to call her name, but something different came out..

"dek, jgn lari"
"naida!"
"eh maksudnya nayang"

haha sowee nai ;p

2008-10-08T21:51:00.001+07:00

priceless!

oh, i love you sarrie you know i do <3

2008-10-08T12:26:00.003+07:00

ohmay, i just watched this movie, and you know what, the movie was so...

VAGUE.

SERIOUSLY, if you really wanna make a movie, please think this over. i cant say that it was plotless, but i am saying that THE RESOLUTION IS U N C L E A R. i was waiting, it was already like 7/8 of the movie and i was "okay... is this movie going somewhere?" of course, half of the whole movie has a progression, i can see that. but HELLOOOOOOOOO. what is jesse mccartney up to? he's obviously sick, we all know that. and a psychopath, but why? i'm not seeing any background and a clear ending people.

so it was like this:

a girl at school, she's running for a scholarship -> lab-partnering with jesse -> jesse becomes obsessed -> the girl dates this cool guy -> jesse took her out to "play" -> she likes jesse as a friend and had fun with him -> jesse gone -> the girl becomes wilder -> jesse came back -> jesse gone -> the girl's finding him but he wouldn't see her -> she stalked him -> they made love -> he told her that his life sucks and her's dont so he wants to ruin her life but she didnt respond -> they kissed -> jesse leaving to canada -> the girl drove off to canada to meet jesse with his truck.

IF YOU'RE WITH ME PLEASE TAG WITH A "YES, I'M WITH YOU" TEXT. THANK YOU, ADIOS.

2008-10-08T09:40:00.004+07:00

i know the presidential debate is like HOT as fire these days. and i shall say, mccain is such a challenged donkey. last week, obama was like "i previously warned.." and mccain was like "i also warned that..." it's like... DUDE! come up with something else, obama gave his resolution by warning, and mccain's such a fat copycat. mccain is overly competitive.

now i'm watching the second debate, and i like this one cus both of them are able to move around, so at least i can see some gesture, pheww. and MCCAIN will not be as stiff. haha

oh boy, it was finished-.- for the second time i missed the debate.

2008-10-07T11:14:00.002+07:00

i worked my ass off today, pretty happy bout it tho. but i still have not work on my room that pretty much looks like a zoo at the moment. i've been cooking much lately, since that is the only thing i feel like doing instead of cleaning. i hate cleaning. srsly, i just can't imagine living alone, haha. anyways, i dont feel like going out today, maybe i do. but i need to keep my mum company.

i just bought a red box with hearty pattern on it. shiny even. looks valentine-ish but i dont care, it has some cool components. which i think is cool, you may not. you may even think i'm such a fool for buying that box that was pretty pricey.

i want another watch. i'm so addicted.

karma >.< i now love wearing leggings for sleeping.

ugh mom attacks, she wants a beauty treatment for me. so lazeh. i hate going to salon these days. its so... time-consuming.

you know what: I NEED SOME FREGGIN GOOD TV SHOWS. dumb channels.

i'm watching joan cusack checking out come cheese. stupid. youtube is so lame right now. i dont feel like going youtube. ciao.

2008-10-06T07:07:00.002+07:00

i feel bad for people i've stalked before thru the net >.< like srsly. but its fuuuuuuuun, i recommend people to try it. you might get some unexpected infos.

i adore CERN, for inventing the world wide web. you science ppl are geniuses (no pun intended).

i dont give a damn on those time-and-energy-consuming bullshits about how internet changed the world in a bad way and things like that. you know what, internet plays a big part of your life, and you can not deny that it does make a change in whichever part of your brain.... in one way or another. you might live without internet, but it is beneficial you cannot resist. despite the fact that crimes and porn whatever comes in handy across the network but srsly guys, i mean sometimes we're the one who has to make an effort not to check it out, right?

by the way, i've been driving myself to movies again lately, although i didn't go to the movies much but i do buy vcds and (illegal) dvds. haha poor me. i just loooove to call it illegal, not that i wanna act all bad, but it's fun being descriptive haha. there's a huge difference between dvds, and illegal dvds. dvds or original dvds cost a fortune while illegal dvds only take probbly... say... 4% of one original dvd. i'm not blaming anyone or my friends of saying dvd but its just my point of view. and i just learned that lately, so never mind if i said dvds before. haha besides, i learn one thing from andrew last weekend:

appreciate and respect every point of view. Thanks fella!

anyways, lets go back to my point, i've been watching a lot of indonesian movies. not that i wanna make fun of the bad ones and embrace the good ones only. but i want to compare and reflect (ceileeeeh) how the film industry in indonesia is growing. but... idk how to say this. because as it grows, there are a lot of movies that keeps.. ok, let me put it this way.. there are 3 movies. movie A, if you promote the film in.. say.. paris film festival, it would make a big hit. but for movies B & C, not only that people wouldnt even try to get in the cinema, but it would also downgrade indonesia in the film industry. so it is a hard work. but good movies are coming our way lately, but it didn't violate the presence of movies which are supposedly not to be shown in our country for whatever reason. its just wrooong.

i hate that i lost my gie vcd >.< where did i put it ya? i was tryna buy chants of lotus the other day, but im glad i didnt buy it cus i seem to have lack of money that day haha. i'm gonna buy it soon. so excited. heheeee.

oyea, by the way. laskar pelangi wasn't as good as the book. srsly. i was hoping for more. they turn things around, and i was shocked.

i gtg help my mum. see ya.

2008-10-05T06:51:00.004+07:00

now i'm here, sitting, elaborating my laziness. gosh, i hate being lazy. not that i don't wanna have fun, but i need to do my duties.

duties. gosh it haunts me night and day. now i'm home alone. well not exactly alone, but ... yeah u can call it alone. *nothing to say* ok. been watching some tv shows, and i have to say... gossip girl is going too inappropriate. it was fine before, but now. its a no no. idk if you guys agree but for me, its overly adult-ic (or however you wanna put it). i would rather watch ugly betty than gossip girl. besides, scandals can sometimes bore you. IT BORES YOU BAAAD.

and heroes, i can go maddddddaaaahh. gosh mohinder suresh is such a sick bastard x( i hate him like... like... damn.

HOLY CRAP
i really need to go to the beach... something like... water would do.

been pigging out in my room lately, with cookies. movies, music, and what not. i've been a wreck since after ramadhan. i cant found myself some peace of mind. and god knows why. well, i do to. i must interfere with nature, no matter how. and by this i did not mean talking to animals like a sick lunatic.

of which i'm beginning to discover if i'm acting like one. scaryxzx.

talking on skype with sari for... quiet a long while. and she was HYPED about having skype. she couldnt get over it.

i need water. sea water. i need to go to greece. oasis would be fine. not that imma swim in it. nvm, ciaoooooista.

2008-10-04T21:29:00.001+07:00

ok i'm so consumptive >.< this month i've reached twice my limit omg help. gotta save some moneeeyy.

2008-10-03T08:06:00.004+07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

ok got this message for sarriee: SAR, CHECK OUT AJ'S NEW VIDEO. ITS A NEW SONG HE MADE, GOSH IT WAS GODAWESOME! AND YOU KNOW WHAT, THE LYRIC WAS ABOUT LYDIA! omg omg omg, awwwwwnesssss.

i (illegally) downloaded the video from youtube hahas =)

so far, my holiday was okay. nothing's special except for lebaran, had a lot of fun fighting with my little monsters. i was a pillow that day, they whipped me with plastic chocolate jars. and went thru my bag. opened my wallet. spread my money bills all over the bed. played with my oh-so-low-bat phone. put out all the cds i brought. GOSH WHEN CAN THEY STOP. uh, i know : when they grow up. in around... 10 years time.

oh, and they played soccer pillow balls. guess the target : my head.

kill me.

2008-09-29T11:06:00.003+07:00

this is like the cutest thing ever. i'm reading a kadohata novel, and found this. A girl was talking to her little brother who was carrying a stick

"Did you hit anyone?"

"No, because nobody hit you"

awwness

2008-09-29T04:40:00.001+07:00

i'm so sick of my blog sometimes

2008-09-27T06:30:00.002+07:00

you're a golden ocean on a shore of bright white sand

in a complicated world you bring simplicity

i'll wait till forever is through..

2008-09-26T05:34:00.002+07:00

i miss you :'( whichever you are. haha.

a very very good friend of mine is an ocean away. one, idk where.

it's holiday, and i hate it. i just wanna get it overwith and come back to school

i went to sayap ibu yesterday, and frankly saying, i love my trip. i fell in love with the kids.

nandra's asleep, she was staying over.

i hate that i love your favorite song >.<

2008-09-23T04:42:00.002+07:00

rooster rocks my day. these lyrics are sooo deep. been having the cd for a few years now, just noticed how beautiful it was written.

Does it help if i say
That im really truly sorry
And that I never meant for it to end- this way
Theres a place in your heart
Where you know you'll always find me
and I'll be with you wherever you are
Near or far

Oh so if you believe
Say a prayer for me
I wont be here tomorrow
Somewhere I gotta be
Things you want to say
Save them for another day
Cos i can hear the angels calling
Angels calling for me

that is super saaaaaad T.T

2008-09-21T20:39:00.004+07:00

KEMBANG NESTAPA

mawar mekar semekar-mekarnya
juga duri yang menghiasi tangkai memanjang
menggores, berzina dengan darah manusia
lalu bercampur dengan kelopak yang selaras
dan kami pun berdansa.

namun saat ini.

melati kian lama kian hilang
kelopak kecilnya sudah tua dan mencoklat
lebah tak inginkan lagi
kupu pun mati beku di dinding rumah ini.

filza, dan sendok kue kecil.