confession (?)

i realize that this past few months of highschool, i was not paying attention in certain subjects. which are really important because daddy already spoken about things in highschool that needed for college. and this is now. i dont know, it's not like i'm having fun all the time, but math is just not my thing. i reckon that my thing is talking, talking as in having ajob that talks all the time. maybe that is my strength. as i have been called, i talk a lot, that's why i wanna host. i talk a lot, because i always dream of being on stage. i talk a lot so then i can be friends with everybody, well plus being nice to everyone. as far as i know, i dont make people suffer when they hear me talking. they even laugh for some of them. i like to make people happy. i wanna be a teacher, at least a motivational teacher (so i dont have to read more) i need this communication to people. but maybe that's just for college. it's so hard when u want to focus on something, but to reach that something we nee to go into a big pile of homeworks, of subjects, that we dont wanna do. i am ready for specific majors. maybe next year will get better, since we will choose. so i dont have to do science. i just want to do service on my own, without making reflections, cus i know eher i'm going and i know what i've improved and everything. i wanna be a social worker.


big dreams, filza.