my dad told me to stay in A2 HL. idk if i have to be sad or happy. i just dont want my future to get worse.

anyway, today is an off day for me cus... im just.... off today. i just wanna dance.

oh and i dont really know about this. but i'm not that free, like i cant rly go on a night out unless im having a sleepover. sometimes i just need that atmosphere, loud music and the dance floor. but i cant. and nowadays ive been recapitulating my old dancing days. and by practicing a lot, i didnt feel that much need of going out. my room is pretty small, but its enough for practicing everyday.

ive been dancing since i was 5, although i dont attend formal classes much, i take dances off videos, and mimic them until i got it right. and if i dont, i'll be so mad. i'll be sweaty AND mad. i began watching old center stage and grease long time ago and adore ballet. so i mimic lyrical/theatrical dances off tv. but im no good compare to hip hop dancers. im zero. but i dont care what people think, cus i do this to satisfy myself. and im satisfied.

i think thats a step ahead.

i just need to do theatre. i just have to do it before i die.