Dumbest ad ever -.-

supposedly revising business, but my baby cousin came. waiting for the 2 families (except for me) to go out :'( thus i can focus.

I'M HUNGRY. my TOK pres is waiting for skye's email to appear. i wont start unless he replies me.

i'm so tired and hungry. ciao

nevermind.

sent off my best friend 2 days ago, so sad to be left here :(

ariani i'll miss you so much :( in fact i already am.
sorry for the mistakes i made for the past years, i really want you to succeed.
i hope you'll do good in the other end of the world, i'm always praying for you back home.

last nite was bianca's birthday + farewell (man, i hate farewells)
i hope you'll be fine, bie :)


i said all these not realizing there will be 67 other people that i will say goodbye to in july.
it's hard to say goodbye, but it's harder to notice you'll be left alone.



family&friends = my entire universe

THERE WAS AN EARTHQUAKE!


although it was not my first time, but it was dang scary(7.3 on the richter scale). i was on the 8th floor going to my locker when i saw morgan saying "asdfa7sd98f77" i was like whaaaaat and he was pointing to our tower sign. then we stop a little. THE SHAKE WAS SO STRONG. and we didnt even follow the procedure! supposedly staying at the top of the floor but we got panicked and rush down to the lobby with the emergency exit. our school was united. it was awesomeee.

i agree with ms malourds, there shouldnt be any school today. lol.

anyway, enough about the tragic happenings. today i slack for 3 hours i guess. 1.20 at business (apparently ms malourds was thinking about what happen knowing that we just couldnt be quiet talking about earthquakes, anyway probably shes not in the mood of talking anyway) and 20 minutes recess break which i use getting panicked about SAT deadline which is NEXT week. and so another 1.20 for itgs. idk, i dont feel like talking or even say a word anymore. no one seem to understand me in itgs. anyway, i made TOK, i dont get why cannibalism is so illogical for skye, i mean i said that "animal rights pressure groups deny the generality of eating meat, considering the theory of evolution that stated our origins to be animals, thus, eating meat could be considered as cannibalism" maybe it is pretty illogical. oh well, we'll see.

not that i believe in it. this is just crap i made superficial :p (also due to the mindsets of my groupmates which was clearly typed in their laptops TOK < COD. ah u ppl.


gtg now. ciao

omg i've been online for 2 hours without doing anything school-related. 0.0 i should start revising.



anyway, today's presentation was epic failure haha not really. we were at 70 minutes which was sppsd to be 80 but, oh well God knows whats gonna happen. i mean IT'S SO HARD HELLOOO. and we were the first ones. the idea of being criticised till my brain went mad will get harder each day. i mean we put extra effort on it (since we knew the expectation for hl will be higher) but then it was still not good enough. then what about the rest? our class' max number of intelligence is just average. including me.

WL tonight
EE tonight -300 words body please
ENGLISH PRES.
MUG BIO
MUG MATHS

it's deadlier than how it looks.

i cant do it all. i get it.

this page is real empty. it needs some colors.

E-V-O-L
is in the room. lulz

ok lets not be emo. im reading bnw, for the presentation on tuesday. this monday i actually have to attend 2 events, one with my parents and one with friends. but i cant do both considering that i have an oral the next day. sucks.

ytd was pain. i went home at 10, then found out THE PACKAGE IS HERE! oh i love my bro for this, but dad said it looks *******. lol. but its ok, killer heels are like limited edition sneakers except for the fact that they're.... tall. anyway, i'm just glad its here. merci!

my itgs report is a last-minute crap. tmr gonna revise it, if no chance, then lets just die in peace. haha i could care less now, but i'm putting my whole effort on it.

2 WEEKS TILL TERM TEST. i should start studying, i suppose. not gonna fail bio again. this time, the test will be 40 tricky mcq questions. im skrewt.

i miss my slc!

im supposedly on school this morning, i have lotsa works.

went out with some friends ytd, had fun. although i dont find karaoke so amazingly fun. maybe the choice of songs they have is very limited. so yeah.

anyway, hanson is the bomb of my itunes this week. i like to recap all those nights i spent listening to their CASSETTE. hahahaha music in indonesia, old times.

why is my package not here yet?? come on. i need it. my bro is like a stupid demotivator. "fie, paketnya udh dikirim. kayaknya ya (feeling gua aja) sepatu lo diambil sama kurirnya" FAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAK. so demotivated. bet ytd they called to ask my house's full address. i hope it'll be here before i go mad.

i spent like 500k for photo printing. 500 K!!!! MYGODD. so damn expensive one. can die. id rather buy those shoes in adidas rather than that. but oh well my mom pays half, i paid half. NOW IM BROKE. dang

looking forward to another dinner with friends, next weekend :) i hope mom will release me. ciao

dont you dare beat the crap out of them, they're mine.

i've never been this dissapointed at myself for such a long time. i wouldnt call it sad, just, dissapointing. i wanted to say it to somebody, but i didn't own any guts last night. i'm okay now but it's running through my mind.

i cant wait for tonite's dinner. hope it'll be super fun. SAT comes first though.
i'm trying to download hanson's old album, underneath. i cantbelieve zac hanson has a son now! wow, last time i check he was so young.

i'm dying to get a polaroid, i cant wait >.<

answer me:

how can educated people act so uneducated?

heartless brainiac who thinks the world is simply his own.

today's a tough day, but it's okay. at least i have a heart.

the joker is in the building... and is out.

i blog just to trigger my technological sense, so i can do itgs. out of 500 i was planning to do today, so far i've done: 91. great. that's including the words "presentation of the issue" which means i only have 87 words thus far. great.

i'll be staying up probably until 3.30 so i'll have meal straight away, then fast. then sleep in the car, which is totally embarrassing if u have any of your friends around watching you sleep. social disaster. phone have cameras people.

anyway, met garren ytd, well 2 days ago in 4 minutes. i michu gar

today i was so loud in bio kiki was my background vocal. the thing is, i was singing the songs as how a musical would go, and kiki had the background singing in opera. aaah what a day :)

i have world literature assignment due next week. which means, i'm screwed. screwed to the floor. and die. today was supposedly my wl get-it-done period, just that yong khen and i got into this heart-to-heart talk and we didnt even bother to write a single word lol. instead, we took pictures -.-

his glasses are extremely awesomeee :D

goodbye everyone.

just argued with mom because of food. how immature.

i hate house food nowadays, it's so boring.

i hate it when no one asked me about what i wanna eat during breaks.

i hate boring food.

i hate having the same menu at home for 3 times in a week.

i hate it when no one notice them.

i hate it when everyone's taking it easy.



i'm not hungry anymore. and i dont think our house food is so special after all.

i'm dying because of school. dont ask.

my extended essay needs extension for submission date.

anyway, hello. howre you doin? cus i'm doing okay. in fact, i just found the 300 thou that ive lost for so long hahaha. nice :) today during our family jog (-.-) my dad lectured about history again. habibie one of our former leaders suggested an expansion of indonesian scholars in the states, so they could go back and lead the country in a more rational manner. so thousands of potentials were being sent to the states, and as they came back habibie said there is a need of payback by giving them a higher seat in the governmental level of heirarchy. which was pretty sensical knowing that they were liberally trained for such jobs. (and i'm not saying this in a non-religious way, but realistically) so he put them into such seats expecting (and this one's reliable) that they would create better change because he knew that in that part of the world, they would learn about diversity and how does politics & science work in a more developed country so they could create a more stable manner for politics & developments, then you can move on to the welfare of our people. for them it was like, you cant be religiously correct unless you're smart at that particular field. because in order to make it happen, you only need one base of resources: smart people.

as the project went on, government employees disagree in the placement of heirarchical seats. for they (those scholars) were seated above the local graduates in an instant. so critics through media was overwhelming, despite the brilliant objective habibie and the project was stopped as the country's expenses keep on rising.

thus, those people ended up working for boeing and other humungous, genius-requiring, companies that demands a lot of research in it. if they were here within the government, at least the poor will suffer less.

so now, it was brought up again. within the speech of some minister, i believe. for the record, it was running 30 years ago. but i guess somebody spilled the coffee on the winning spot.



ok.. long.

my dad also lectured about singapore. how it was so different in the 70s. no tall buildings, very limited resources, no good transports, no nothing. it was a really quick development. my dad's friend used to sleep beside a pork farm, because even the country was really poor, let alone the people.

really, i'm amazed by how they grew so quickly.




ok so. tag people! its so lame.

hello.

supposedly doing my portfolio, but i want to slack in the aftermath of the horrideous math internal assessment. this morning i could hardly open my eyes. sleepy. tired. nice.
and after numbers scared the hell out of me, it was an unsual business and man topic: CASH FLOW. then again, i deal with numbers. GREAT. but she gave us 30 minutes free time. how generous :D

anyway, then i submitted my portfolio and explained why my graph isn't clear. because my ink is finishing. so he said, "please reprint it, filza." i'm like.... umm..... alright. cus considering my "okay" is different, i would rather say alright to these circumstances lol. my "okay" would be "okay i will do it" but when im this sleepy, "alright, fine" slipped.

so i was doing another graph which was totally NOT CHEATING. right?!

umm the aerobics today was SOCIAL SUICIDE. people werent following moi. it was killing me. i told ms donna "if euthanasia is allowed in this school, i would be the one mercily killed" but okay, i good. everybody loves me (?) haha jk.

i wrote "LIMY :(" on my hand. it stands for "look, i miss you" which is less personal. cus personal = intimacy. idk i just thought so.

im doing my business ia on italian restaurants, its nice i guess. their place have style :D




alright (you know what i mean) i should stop now. 10 minutes until TOK class. last minutes to be productive in itgs. cant wait for long weekend (4 days ;)) ciao.

CAS CAMP WAS SUPER FUNNNNNNN ! screw yew ppl who didnt make it.

it was supa beyond what i expected. i was tired for 2 weeks. and now time for the real deal: academics.

i dont wanna talk much about other things such as essays. but im currently on MATH IA. yes, mathematics internal assessment standard level. dies.

i can guess that the scalar for quartic function would have 57 (or more) significant figures. each. yayzorz. go math woohoo.

as i said in my fb status. im filing for divorce to mathematics. filed.
i used to love math, the only motivation of me doing this and actually trying not to cheat is because i love math and i expect a 7 on the sheet erdolfo gave us. GREAT. now im real dead.

i tweet a lot = stressed.

then i have EE. i have WL. the worst: TOK presentation. nice IB, very nice.

im working my ass off for bahasa starting... now. and bio too, which reminds me, the book is... DOWNSTAIRS. dad will kill my ass.

ppl, please reserve your time with your cas advisors for semester 3 consultation. YOUR EVIDENCE PEOPLE. thank you. please come to your student assisstants before you meet your advisors, they might not have time to deal about timings with you. so just leave it to us, we wont let you down. thanks.

i just wanna post today. it was supposedly a half-day school today, since we were dismissed right at 12 noon, but CAS CAMP awaited. and apparently i dont feel like leaving works undone. my mom helped us, which was weird, she was probably the pioneer of the "CAS MUMS".

ANYWAY.

i'm pretty pissed, but i wont talk about it here, cus i think its so unimportant. because the people also thought it was unimportant, so i guess i wont give a fuck. but today was weird cus i slept at 10.30 last night but i was so sleepy the whole day. except business class, fortunately she didnt give any lectures today, otherwise i would faint.

this was a life-changing dream: i wanna be a motivational speaker.

probably one of the best lessons i get taking B&M as my group 3 subject. Maslow's heirarchy of needs. i really like it you know why, it has that prospect of a new understanding deeper than that shallow knowledge of mine.

crazy i believe so

i really think that it would give an impact to some people's lives. and i guess i'll do anything with the basis of my principle.


too tired. gtg bath. shall do the timeline for tomorrow's "lecture" haha no, breifing.

my life in the past few weeks:

school! :D
being a senior: greatt! senior's locker area: sad, real sad.



WALK-A-THON OH NINE :D
the very first time we actually failed in the fundraising business. lol

ma beet's toast :D
happy 17 my dear



trying out that fisheye of julian's.
love love love love. its real cuteee

watched hp6, then i miss this :(
when they were young and the movie was still good to watch

the school just announced:
they'll start giving us 4-5 IAs per week.





die

my dad told me to stay in A2 HL. idk if i have to be sad or happy. i just dont want my future to get worse.

anyway, today is an off day for me cus... im just.... off today. i just wanna dance.

oh and i dont really know about this. but i'm not that free, like i cant rly go on a night out unless im having a sleepover. sometimes i just need that atmosphere, loud music and the dance floor. but i cant. and nowadays ive been recapitulating my old dancing days. and by practicing a lot, i didnt feel that much need of going out. my room is pretty small, but its enough for practicing everyday.

ive been dancing since i was 5, although i dont attend formal classes much, i take dances off videos, and mimic them until i got it right. and if i dont, i'll be so mad. i'll be sweaty AND mad. i began watching old center stage and grease long time ago and adore ballet. so i mimic lyrical/theatrical dances off tv. but im no good compare to hip hop dancers. im zero. but i dont care what people think, cus i do this to satisfy myself. and im satisfied.

i think thats a step ahead.

i just need to do theatre. i just have to do it before i die.

BATSY WON :D;D;D;DD HAPPYYY

i was watching with anya, comment and complaint a lot on those malaysian singers.. and it went down to taufik and hadyyy omg i was psyched batsy is finally here :D:D:D and he won too! he was best dressed for the night. well after him, it was bcl's malaysian hubby. he's cute too.

anya had no choice but voting for AFGAN. altho she dislikes him. afganisme, ew please. anyway, i told odi that if he happen to bump into batsy, please send my regards. and it was a joke, i mean yeah. BUT HE SERIOUSULY DID OMG OMG OMG TAUFIK GOT MY REGARDSSSSS

odi: "my friend filza is a huge friend of yours"
batsy: "haha thx where is she now?"
odi: "she's not here bla bla bla (i dont really know)"
batsy: "oh thats too bad.."
*odi ran*

OMG I DONT CARE I LOVE YOU BATSYYYYYYYYYYY THX ODI THE BEST MAN IN THE WORLD

anya and i were fighting last night about stuff, but ends up with LMAO-ing our own selves. it was fun. we were waiting for the best artist award and i was like "TAUFIKKKKKK" cheesy : "AFGAAAAAN MASGAAANNN" gross. but it turns out that siti won. tough luck. she is good. i just hope batsy won.

its like. once he's here, im not there to watch. so i have to go all the way to singapore to watch taufik cus his fanbase is so tiny here. argh fugg you people with less broad creative knowledge

my speech went really good ytd. i stumbled upon the second half ONCE only. but ms elsie & peter said it was excellent and im really happy cus this is my first speech appreciated by the principal weeheeeee. BUT i wore the wrong earrings. its too big peter said. -.- so he said he'll make it as an example of unnecessary accessories which peter told me to bring. haha ok then i said. but my HAIR is a good example. i can hear YOU SENIORS, bad seniors, laughing over it hahaha i love you friends. it'll always be the trademark of out batch :D

ok im very smelly. shall go to bath.

filza loves batsy.

OMG DADDY MAKE UP YOUR MIND. ytd was transcript request form day and i'm only 70% sure that im going to nevada. AIYAAA :(

its so sad to know that after graduation you'll be thrown out to the desert and study. :'( haha anyway i'm just kidding. IB exams are coming, and im aiming for 36 hahahah please. but idk i just hope so, cus im downgrading my total weaknesses like bio and, well not so much english, cus i downgraded english cus i have no choice. stupid bio. if i didn fail bio i could stay in A2. but nonetheless i can feel slightly painless. so yeah. just that bahasa is still my weakness even tho im in sl. and i think thats it. business is fine, math is fine, itgs.... i can work on it.

the bombings were very dissapointing. and it was a suicidal bomb. SO FUCKIN STUPID if you wanna get yourself killed, get yourself hung. DO NOT BOMB PLACES MORON -.- and we were dismissed earlier ytd, although i kinda watch harry potter at 3.30. oh and speaking of harry, THE MOVIE WAS DISSAPOINTING AS WELL. god knows why. TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED. as a fan. so DONT DIE FOR IT IF YOU HAVE NOT WATCHED. gaaaaaaah

oh ytd icha sonia and i got the number of one of the popcorn stall guy HAHAHAHHAHA we were chatting and joking around and icha was kidding about NUMBERS. but then he was like "SUREEE" and we were like "icha......................." and well he said we cud order movies from him. like hp, the driver was ordering tickets for us while we were in school hahahahah so that makes it a lot easier. besides hes cool i guess :/ ew

haha so just got home from breakfast with mummmm and shopping with mummmm which was quite a funny experience shopping in the morning. so i'll see you laterrrr