i was supposed to be happy by the end of the day, because after all it is my 16th birthday. but i do have a certain fear inside. and i am not very happy about 15 minutes ago. i cant type it, at least not with tears.

but anyways, thanks guys for the presents, teh cards, and the birthday wishes. i just son't wanna get older and older until i turn into a sick, grey-haired, hunch-baked grandma. life is not bad for me, it's just that, i have a fear of the word "more".