GOSH I LOST IT

for some of my friends might know a charm bracelet that i have, a silver one with a heart. yes, it was given to me by my dad's friend's wife, who is sooooo nice to me and lives in vegas. and now, I LOST THE CHARM! OMG, i've been trying to take a good care of it! yesterday i wore the bracelet to ohlala, and when i got home, the charm was not there! but the chain still remain. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa! i love that charm! to be honest, i've been buying tonnes of charm bracelets because that charm made me so in love with this particular accessories. so yeah, broken-hearted.

see?

see, i told u my dad will go crazy. becus he said in the states a grade of 7 is a C. so yeah, he went mad.

he said there's gonna be a cutoff from the first day of school and on. oh well, i guess my life will be more serious.



pray for me.

recap

my 12th birthday party with some classmates. past.

batch of grade 10 07-08. present.

what a quick transition life made.


i cannot believe it has been 5 years since i ate my 12th birthday cake along with my childhood friends.


i will not forget the memories of my second picture, as much as i have not forget a single memory of the first one.





love, filza.

masih jam 7.15

now i'm patiently waiting for anyone i talk to to be online. please! anyone, i believe that gb's not gonna be online in the morning (sabar ya anya), that bird is not coming around (well he might, its just that i'm not that excited), i'm sure anya's still asleep, sarie doesn't like being on in the morning, ivana's learning math, zack is on vacation, si kingkong nih lagi siap-siap, he may or may not, so just wait, who else? umm, sutan's not on facebook, he hasn't been online for a while. and now i can see how often come online, haha. it's just that i'm soooo bored! and tomorrow i have math, which creates more trouble because i have to frikkin study.

my do-list for the day :
-buy drama things
-study math, seriously!
-thinking about people

yea the last one, because last night something happened that made sarrie and i were like "yea.. yea.. say what you wanna say" well, sarrie was not that tired, i do. it was very tiring listening to this person last night. agak kesel sih, because things are going rude, although it was meant to be funny. but i cant say what exactly happened.

i'm shaaaaaking

well, someone's NOT REPLYING. me on msn. kesel ah.

at the same time, i'm thinking. maybe that certain someone could be here, somewhere around jakarta. if i know, i'll be DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN HAPPY. but still, i'm too shy -.-

at this point of time, i need cims' filicium.


ah i have a desire to do something, it's just that i'm too negative thinking! gosh i cant do it. gtg, i have some body parts to get to know. biology, ciao.

i was supposed to be happy by the end of the day, because after all it is my 16th birthday. but i do have a certain fear inside. and i am not very happy about 15 minutes ago. i cant type it, at least not with tears.

but anyways, thanks guys for the presents, teh cards, and the birthday wishes. i just son't wanna get older and older until i turn into a sick, grey-haired, hunch-baked grandma. life is not bad for me, it's just that, i have a fear of the word "more".

tank

this tank is so comfy i dont wanna take it off! hey i'm watching aaaaaaaamerican idol! i was surprised to see david archuleta singing Dont Let The Sun Goes Down on Me which is my personal favorite. It was in the american idol history, as a true viewer / fan of american idol, (haha, filzaa), i remember Clay Aiken of Season 2, singing this song with so much victory of winning. If you watched season 2, you might know how Clay Aiken sings, i mean his style of singing. His face resonates the true meaning of optimism, that gives a sense of victory of winning. He might be in the second place, but his album made it to the top, even leaving Ruben Studdard (or however you spell his last name) behind.
Ok, enuf talk about Clay Aiken, i was his fan. I literally begged my dad to buy my his cd (which wasn't out yet at that time in jak), in singapore. My senior, who was also my bro's friend at that time (btw, this was 6th grade) and i were screaming and talking talking in the cafetaria alone, haha. Because of Clay of course. But it was so funny, she hugged me badly when i gave a her a poster of Clay Aiken, haha. So there i was, humiliated by mr. clay aiken.
i grew up listening to queen and a little bit of michael learns to rock, sicne my dad always turn it on. I listened to Air Supply, but i dont really like it tho. as i grew up, pop music became HUGE. And so i started listening to backstreet boys, a little bit of westlife, Spice girls etc. And as my brother grows older, i began listening to his kind of music. But i found out that my true love was in pop music. So i started listening to them again. But one thing, i never enjoy j-pop, k-pop, chinese pop or whatever, no. I like filipino artist lately, they have good music, it's just that i couldnt understand a word, haha. Now, i figured that my true love is in blues, swingjazz music. I dont enjoy some modern jazz (those jazz that's in rite now), and i cant figure out why. It started when my dad bought this jazz Robbie Williams album, Swing like you mean it, probably around 2003, i guess. And i began to love those catchy tunes. Now, i'm listening to Tony bennet, Jane Monheit, Michael Buble (his jazz song covers), Frank Sinatra, and jazz Robbie Williams of course. Apart from that, i like soul artists. Amy winehouse, Stevie Wonder, and George Benson, also that new artist Duffy, i like her too. Elton John is a great one too. Haha, sometimes i dont like to search on some new artist, coz it's better not to forget the old, than trying to dig the new ones, because i mean they will rise sooner or later. But dont get me wrong, i do like the new ones too, i love them, but the ones who made it to the charts now. I like both, and a little bit of everything.


thank you for reading my boring, wasteful, land of life blog-post.

bum bum bum bum cuap

this morning, i woke up at 7. and i have an empty stomach. i don't know what i want to have for breakfast!

my mom's away my dad's away, they both went for a jog. i'm alone, waiting for the car to go back at 11 so then i can go to school and do the drama practice thingy. and i really have to revise the script, well at least help a little. cus i'm so tired of doing it all over again.

i had a really good nite sleep last night. that's because i slept at 10 something, and woke up at 7. haha, it looks like a cheesy-fairy tale. when you open your window, and inhale the fresh air with the flowers and the birds singing to you. ok, back to the real life, people!

in front of me, this small bended calender from bread papa. with images of the cram puffs SOO GOOD, AND DEEEELICIOUS! haha. but honestly, yes, i do have a desire for beard papa's cream puffs, although i have to admit, they are a little expensive. its funny, when i went to L.A, to the creepy montrey park, i saw this beard papa store, but it was closed. but i think they have a better taste there, in LA. but do not got to montrey park, it's creepy, well not in a mystic way, but in a never-find-that-atmosphere-across-America way. speaking of america, i wanted to go there but since my brother's coming in December because of his stupid working stuff whatever, so i cant go there. unless if i want to go to some other places, it's fine. I'll probably go somewhere by august, when the ticket price is quite low, haha. and u promised me something daddy!

i wanna go to Singapore tho, not for shopping. for hanging out with my friends. haha. when you're alone, only with your friends, you can really feel the freedom man. but this summer i have to go to the boring Medan. at least i can make my grandma happy :) but i'll probably waste most of my time wandering around sun plaza anyways, or the warnet. since no one practically use Internet in my house. but it's so hot there, and it's so awkward to bring over sized sunglasses when you're in Medan. they'll probably think : "hey it's not Bali, it's Medan, get used to it"



i'm getting hungrier, help! i need to buy something, ciao!

huh?

i felt so emo today. and i just dont want to write. the thing is, it's so weird.




bcs i'm pretty emo at this moment.

did i ever tell you?

did i ever tell you how i hate plagiarism so much? that is only for do-badders. i'm sorry to say, but this world is full of copycats that wouldn't care so much. well this is what i can say :

MIND YOUR OWN CREATION, SUCK-UPS.

hey, no-brainers. please use your own brain. remember the wizard of oz? yea, scarecrow fought for a brain,note that. what did u do with yours? nothing, rite.?i noticed. you're a loser-user. and please think about it with you own brain.

second post for the day :D

i actually wanted to discuss something in this post, that might be a long one, but i have so little time, i really have to finish my bahasa task. but one thing i wanna share with you guys is that some of you might know that i used to be in the production of the wiz abt 2 years ago, and in the wiz musical, there's a song called Home. And it is such an amzing song, everytime i sing the song i got goosebumps. and i am not kidding this time. the song was so pure, and i think it meant so much to me i cant even declare it verbally. i dont know why, because the song doesnt really have a realted subject with my life or my stories, however, i felt a certain kind of spiritual connection between me and the song and as the result : goosebumps. it might sound crazy or weird, but it is a fact that i cant deny.

peace out. ciao