puisi lagi nge-trend. haha, i didnt decide to make one but it popped in my head. so i'll post, pinjem ide ya sari, icha. and other bloggers who made one too. biasa amatur, jadinya maklum kalo norak haha.

kiasan hidup selalu melewati setiap detak jantungku
saat mawar menghampiri , terbanglah pikiran
terbang ke langit ke-7
tapi mengapa hujan menjatuhkan impiku?
airpun tak bisa basahi jiwaku yang terbakar
teriaklah, kalbu.
ambil kayu, biar api takkan padam.
aku lengah akan nyanyianmu
nyanyian setan yang menyita setiap detik hidup itu
hidup remaja bejat yang ingin berlindung
lindungi, biar mereka tak dengar.
akan pedihnya teriakan itu.

Filza, doubtful.

yeay i moved to English A2! HAHA I'M HAPPY. it's so nice, it has that learning atmosphere, unlike English B -_- well despite the fact that i have to read the Scarlet Letter up to chapter 15 this weekend, i'm so glad i made the right choice. and i have a lot to catch up with.

just did my debate thing today, it was fun. as for speech, i'm kinda left behind T-T

i've created a CAS blog not only for my reflections, but also for informations. feel free to check it out, it's available on the links bar, feel free to ask any question regarding CAS, and feel free to link if you wanna ;p but i'm not pushing haha


ok thx seeyaaaa

gosh, zack. what takes you so long -__-

i'm learning to get over it, i'm over it. although cesi didnt believe me. at all. this month is so packed, with school stuff and inter-school stuff. however, it makes me feel more as a high school student. i got a few more confessions to make. and finish my overloaded list of books to read. well the book's are more 'in my face' since it's in my room waiting to take turns.

oh shit, i cant go to A2 for now. i have to wait till october. they'll see my term test. ok larh.

my pimples are sheerly irritating. people said "dont think about it" well hey, it's on my fuckin' forehead, and irritating, how can i not think about it while its always hurting my head or brain whatever. i have this certain skin sensitivity from my dad, genetically. but what makes it different is that he suffered on the body, i suffered on my face which creates severe acne 'flood'.

i think experience is the best teacher in the whole wide world.


i'll start an essay about it after i found some reference. haha



i'll see ya

life has been pretty darn hard these days, a real life story happens to a very special person. i'm scared. last night, i was so shocked, i could hardly breathe. and questions started to popped in my mind. "can i really except and be normal about it?" "but who am i to judge?" it was just so serious, i cant even study by myself. and coming back to school was my drug, just to calm myself down. and learn.

no i became so interested in biology. cell rocks. thank god i dont feel so geeky.

unlikely, i feel like such a scumbag :(( i have a confession to make. im just finding it hard how to say it right.

this fakking circumstance had gone too wrong. but as cesi said "how can you be so calm about it? youre too nice fie." but my question is how can i say anything? i dont even know what to say, i cant judge. besides, swearing is not my thing. i guess i need to make another campaign "not to swear much when you're in a shock" i guess that'll do much in our lives, eh? if no.. never mind.

fak. oh boy, i just swore. lets not


i'll pass. see ya

i'm in complete shock right now. cant think, cant speak, cant get out of my seat. basically shivered on my seat while typing this shocking post. i cant study, help me.



this is too shocking to end.

Danny is soo hottt <3 and he looks
omg, i love you :D

omg i just cant wait till Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 comes out!
i just loooooove the film, i saw the trailer ytd, and fell in love with it.

today was supposed to be an official lunch or dinner, and stuff. but i guess somebody changed the plan. guess where we went for my parents' anniversary party: my granny's house -_-"

for some apparent reason, i dont know what to say

but anyways, i went thru it. so i was taking a break from my math-learning period (how geeky) but turns out that i'm taking looong break. meanwhile, i was looking at the pictures of my friends on facebook. i noticed that simple plan has arrived in jakarta, and i thought, "cool".

can you possibly imagine that i just watched Little Miss Sunshine this afternoon? i know i'm so outdated -_- however not many ppl scold me at my outdatedness haha



gtg, study galore _-_

just now, i was tuning in my itunes, and the song viva la vida came out. i heard these crystal clear lyrics of the song which came out of chris martin's mouth

"sweep the streets i used to own"

from there on, i began elaborating the lyrics, and i first thought (long before i knew this), that it would be about winning but it wasn't. it's about downfalls and it is scary, a wake up call for a "king" and some other stuff pertaining to that.

and the phrase above is so extreme, it gave me a wake up call. because from those 7 letters, gave a sense of such change for, say, a king. and now he's just a tiny little piece of the world. however, he was a tiny piece of the world, and still is. physically, and capability-wise. power is just a part of arrogance which can brings us back to "sweeping" and gives us a wake up call of how something can change drastically, and by the end of the day, brings us to think that every human being's the same from the fact that this guy would still be the same self as he was before the downfall. get it? if yes, good. if no, contact me. haha


last, i wanna congratulate mr.Godfried for the birth of his newborn baby girl :D
peace out

i loove my new layout. although i was hoping for another font, unlike the one under (this, i changed it), but it's nice and eye catching in my point of view. hope u like it, if u dont, please tag.

please, my friends, you know who you are. i hayyyyte this kind of condition. i hayte fights, honesttly i didnt want things to be like this. i hayyyyyyyyyyyte this truthfully. i dont know what to do, myself. i dont know how to get into your mind, girl. and just stop everything. i hate it that you're not talking to each other. u guys start to make me mad too, you know. do u know how it feels to be in the middle while trying to make things better for the sake of our ties, whatever the ties we have now. if u cant do it for us or yourself, try doing it for me. for the sake of your friend. ever think about my feelings?

now i'm not gonna get emotional. the point is i dont like this, at all. please think about what i said above, i'm starting to get mad. man, be gentle. girl, persevere in this kind of moment. as for me, i'll try my best.

alright guys, i take back my words. I DONT LIKE MILEY CYRUS. i dont hate her, cus i do listen to her songs, but she mocked selena gomez! . she did an impersonation on sel's video, and mocked her!

papermountains

omg my eyes are manufacturing tears because of my sleepy-ness my god! i havent done all my homeworks, and there are some more left. and i gotta read the damn big book. i'm not pissed by how things go in IB, it's just that it kinds of remind me how focus i am before and how i'm not right now, so that's sort of a problem.

i lost my vitamin. well, realistically it could not possibly went somewhere. but it did. oh boy, i'm sleepy as hell. but i have to welcome tomorrow, since my naida's coming (yay!) and stuff happens toms, plus, i have good subjects to enjoy tomorrow, well with the exceptions of bio.


i'll ttyl.

mom just made my day. i was silent in the car, coz i sort of had a tough day. she said while holding my hands

"adek, kok tumben ga cerita?"

i love you mom :)

bomb!

i miss chatting with my friends talking cock. hahhahaha canda lah


tadi pagi saya sempet... merenung lah istilahnya teh. jadi lagi ngobrol sama mas sawal si abang sopir. terus akhir pembicaraan, dia bilang "ini mendung, de" dan teruslah pikiran saya langsung ke isu hujan. aneh saya tau, tapi yaaa begitu.

eniweis, hujan.. berhubung lagi di mobil, saya relasi aja mobil sama ujan. kadang saya suka agak kesel kalo lagi ujan, nggak bisa liat apa-apa sama sekali. kadang ngambek sama nyokap gara-gara saya nggak bisa ngomongin apa-apa yang ada di sekitar saya. pokoknya kesel to the kor. tapi saya kadang suka liat ekspresi pengendara motor yang saat ujan hanya bisa berlindung di bawah jembatan layang. kadang kalo mereka buru-buru, harus rela ujan-ujanan. kasian.. tapi menurut realita mereka harus jalani itu semua. nggak adil sih, tp adil juga. tau kenapa? karena lebih baik mereka terbantu dengan kendarai motor dengan cepat, daripada mesti jalan kaki puluhan kilometer. orang kecil terbantu, walaupun kadang menyebalkan di jalan, dan sangat basah.

jujur saya ngga pernah mau menyalahkan berpa juta motor yang berkeliaran di jakarta. karena saya tau, kalo saya nggak punya ekonomi keluarga yang mampu membeli mobil, pasti saya bakal kendarai motor, and it'll just make me one of them.



ci-ao.

11HR4
7.11MAT.GB
4.11BUS.MC
8.11ENB.RB
1.11CS2.VT
9.11INA.PD
6.11BIO.SM
1.11EE1.MF
2.11TOK.SC
5.11ITG.TH

in any of these classes? tag!
i'm finding my classmates =p

now u're getting on my nerves. it's all about yooooouuuu, why cant it be about me for one second you moron! dont turn things over just to impress, omg. OMG I HATE YOU TO DEATH.

everyone's crazy about adam. but what i can do is just lay back and watch the girls go crazy on monday morning.




altho i am curious. haha

okay, i have a confession to make.

i made anya a fully-decorated birthday card. and forgot to give it to her :(((
aaand, her birthday was on january 2nd! haha i'm sorry bby. i'll give it to u ASAP.
it's been 6 months, and it was piled up with other white materials, very hard to notice :D

ouuuujah, so tired. had a packed day. so here's what i can say:

every sad-times might conclude to a lifeless fate.




thx

i.need.help

she's a rockstar

And just maybe I can convince time to slow up
Giving me enough time in my life to grow up
Time be my friend, let me start again

Home - The Wiz

wezzzzzup

i had a tiring day. i went jogging, as usual. but ended up stranded in grand indonesia without taking a bath, haha i know, gross. but hey, what could be more relieving than shopping.

sadly, the sunnies i wanted to buy for weeks had already gone!!!!! omg, i'm so sorry ces, i didnt buy it cus there was no more.. sorry but we cant take mirror pictures :( i wanted to buy so bad :(((( so i bought another one, but the lens is different, you cant see urself with this one. aaaa i really want it :( but i'm happy with this one as well. i bought myself a few things and here's the funny thing.

so when my dad was trying on shoes, i took a look around. i saw this jacket, well more like a coat. since it was more sophisticated, but short. and it has fur on it and i thought "hmm... interesting" so i went to the person, and ask "mba, ini bulu apa ya, apa sintetik?" "umm... enggak sih.. disini bulunya asli semua" at that point of time, sedikit malu, cuman ya namanya orang nanya. at least i had the knowledge knowing that not every fur on an outfit is real. or in other words faux fur does exists."oh, ada di dalemnya, lamb" dalam hati "anjrit bulu kambing"



nonetheless, how cruel.

i hope u dont mind me doing this nonsense

1: Who was your last call from and what was it about?

naida, her new uniform haha

.

2: Is there a member of the opposite gender on your mind?
yes, obviously

.

3: Last movie you watched and with who?

wanted, frieennzzeeee

.

4: Have you told anybody you loved them today?

umm... i cant remember.

.

5: What mood are you in?

confused :S

.

6: Do you miss anyone?

OBVIOUSLY

.

7: Are you growing apart from someone close?

YEEEEEESSSSSSS.

.

8: What would you do if your last ex called you?

...

.

9: Where was your default pic taken?

my roooom

.

10: Have you ever liked anyone on your top friends?
nope

.

11: Do you have a facebook?

yes, you're talking to a social media freak

.

12: What is one thing that's hurting you right on?

wounds

.

13: Is there anybody you wish you could kill?

nyamuk!

.

14: What will you be doing at 8am tomorrow?

maybe... out?

.

15: When is the last time you cried?

i cant remember

.

17: Is Tom your friend on myspace?

DUH. he's like, tha man! haha, i love your picture btw tom, change it!

.

18: Do you have a best friend?

loadds.

.

19: Are you dating the person you text the most?

nope :(

.

20: Is there anyone you hate?

a few

.

21: Who is the last person you held hands with?

mom

.

22: Do you like someone?

i'm not sure

.

23: How much are you on the phone daily?

probably like.. 3-5

.

24: Are you in a good mood?

Yes

.

25: Have you ever been in love?

uh huh

.

26: Do you love your life?

yeap

.

27: What's your favorite shirt?

my new comfie white tank top

.

28: Who cleans your room ?

Mba asih ku tercinta

.

29: What are you really into?

theatre

.

30: What is something you really want to do now?

vaca

.

31: Do your parents know what's happening in your life?

not for some ;p

.

32: Who do you trust with EVERYTHING?

Allah

.

33: Are you living a lie?

umm...

.

34: Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?

i dont wish, but i imagine.

.

35: Who was the third last person that left you a comment?

mitaa
.

36: Did you hug anyone yesterday?

mama

.

37: Who made you laugh last?

simon cowell

.

38: What will you be doing in 3 hours?

tv?

.

39: What is your wallpaper on your phone?

me laughing

.

40: What color are your eyes

dark hazel

.

41: What would you do if you get the NDP tickets?

have fun?

.

42: Will you be in a relationship in 50 days?

i can dream

.

43: Who were you with last night?

mom

.

44: What's outside your window?
nothing

.

45: What are you doing this weekend?

hang out with my dad, or my friends.

I NEED SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL SCHOOL


PLEASE!

IDIOSYNCRASY

by Dave Walker

stalk

i am a stalker when it comes to the things i love, not the things i hate. i wanna make use of the info, not abuse.

but my friend once said : hey you're quite and observant aren't you?



maybe i am an observant. that's why i stalk, haha. but it drives me to my interest of knowing history too. attitude grows, there's nothing we can do about it.

doctor 90210

truthfully, i have no intention in granting cesi's wish. hahaha no, kidding.

so i went to the doctor for my face check-up, and guess what? my doctor took a frikkin picture with tom hanks! and katie holmes.. woooooooooooooooaaaaaaaaahhhhh how coooooooooool ! and this isnt any picture. she was wearing a party dress, along with them also. that means..... she was invited to some hollywood party! haha, i love her she's that nice.

I MISS ZACHARY. but i'm trying to get over it.

sorry if this wasnt so productive.

piece of ...

i hate this when it happens, i'm trying to act out a piece for theatre, and i just couldn't get it right!

the piece is not in english, i can handle it. but to be in the character like that, is hardwork. i have to be a nasty seductive cabaret bitch along with the lines which are in 3 different languages! help.

i'm trying to find more rare pieces, i found one from west side story. but i just cent get the accent right! gosh i struggle in the sake of accents, it made me forget the character i have to be.

where are you, filza? i feel like that strength has gone a little.

7.7.8

TODAY'S THE 1ST ANNIVERSARY OF
FILZA AND CESI'S
JACKPOT DAY !$!$!$!
since 7.7.7
haha i miss those times.
thank you for reminding, ces.

and to recap, i am here to, again, do the quiz i did on 7.7.7!

1.udah berapa lama hidup?16 tahun, 1 bulan
2. apa yang membangunkan lo tadi pagi? bangun sendiri
3. hal pertama yang lo lakukan hari ini? turun kebawah
4. lo udah ngobrol ama siapa aja hariini? cesi, jo, adit, aem, ariani, mama, papa, banyak lah.
5. baju apa aja yang lo pake hari ini? kaos celana.
6. lebih suka gitar atau piano? both are such a perfect match
7. saat-saat yang paling bahagia yang lo inget? saat-saat dimana gsaya ngerasa bahagia -_-
8. saat-saat yang paling sedih yang lo inget? pas awa meninggal
9. teman terbaik yang selalu ada saat lo down? ada deh.
10. cita-cita lo dari kecil sampe sekarang? wish : pengen keliling duniaa (jawaban setaun lalu), sekarang pun masih
11. gebetan pertama? ORVIN DONG. haha
12.gebetan terakhir? starts with a vowel ;p
13. lagu yang lo suka setahun yang lalu? JOE BROOKS - SUPERMAN
14. film yang lo suka dari dulu sampe sekarang? johnny english.
15. kegiatan favorit di kamar mandi? practice my speech
16. apa yang lo lakukan kalo lo lagi sendiri ? self-performance
17. apa yang lo lakukan dimobil/motor ? ngobrol sama mama, music.
18. benda favorit saat ini ? my laptop
19. sms terakhir dari siapa, apa isinya? ferina : "hoo, dikirain gue ...."
20. missed call terakhir dari siapa ? papa
21. pekerjaan terakhir yang lolakukan ? typing
22. mall apa yang lo kunjungi terakhirkali ? TA.
23. lagu yang terakhir lo nyanyiin ? viva la vida
24. lagu bahasa inggris pertama yang lo afal? twinkle-twinkle
25. pendidikan terakhir? grade 10!
26. benda yang paling lo suka dan nggak akan lo kasih ke siapapun? elektronik hahahaha
27. hari ini udah sms siapa aja? ferina, ariani.
28. berapa kali lo makan hari ini? main course : 2
29. warna yang paling sering lo liat? umm, white?
30. benda favorit dikamar lo ? medali hehe
31. ada berapa orang yang ada diotak losaat lo denger huruf R dan siapa? redha
32. siapa orang yang paling lo sayang diseluruh dunia ? family, friends.
33. sebutin ciri-ciri first love lo! ....
34. apa yang lo bayangin tentang pacaran waktu pertama kali lo jadian ? no comment.
35. tipe pacar impian? SOMEBODY LIKE -----N too bad he's taken. ohwell.
36. siapa yang saat ini lagi ngomong ? my head
37. apa yang saat ini ada dipikiran loe? bokap gue lagi ngebut.
38. kenapa lo mau jawab pertanyaan2ini? recapitulating.
39.orang yang ada diotak lo saat lodenger huruf D dan siapa? ... dork. hahaha
40.do u miss him?her? yea, haha. i miss dork -.-

beyond my imagination

this is the movie i watched last night. and it blew me away, even tho i'm not into cartoons.




i love it!

i know it's been ages since it first came out. i've seen it once but i guess i like it, the secind time I LOVE IT! you know, i'm really into some heart-wrenching stories with a little comedy. and this movie has an extra. SCIENCE STORIES. haha not that i'm being a dork. but it's like, i love seeing smart kids making inventions. just my thing, that's why i watch ellen a lot.

i love pixar movies :D

was it my mistake?

this is what happens on valentine's day

ok so i've been finding ... love this holiday (obviously not over the internet). and it didnt turn out so good. i guess, i have to focus on something else. however, i think i know the reason why. bcs honestly in school days i would not be "finding" one if i was not caught in inadvertence. and (probably) the reason is because lack of activities i did during the holidays, and that makes it hard not to.

but it made me here to think, maybe, i didn't even notice this but i'm doing this like a game. which i dont want to be involved in. some of you may know that when you're doing nothing, you tend to do something based on your wants. if it involves other people, sometimes you're playing a game that you're interested in. let's say finding friends on the internet. you're indirectly offering a choice to the friend you just met, either befriend or just leave. and for them to befriend with you, you have to attract them and set a method, what's not to talk about whats to talk about. although, this "game" is somewhat for good. and i am in the game, which i'm interested in, but proclaimed rejecting.

so yeah, i cant wait for the organization meeting. that's 2 days before school starts. it'll be fun, i guess. at least i can avoid the points above.

ok, i just found this on wiki :
Love represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the senses of affection and sexual attraction.

ok, i'm not trying to be melancholy here, but what i'm trying to say is : i am amazed how wikipedia, an information search engine in which mr.bart refuse to call it a reference of a case study, can cite such phrase like said. that is beautiful.

but it is funny when someone ask you
"what is love?" "according to wikipedia, love represents a range of human emotions and experiences related to the sense of affection and sexual attraction...."

haha, i'm gonna do that next time :D

ohmai

woaaaaaah.

HAIRSPRAY JUST WON THE LAURENCE OLIVIER AWARDS FOR BEST NEW MUSICAL! YEAY! and some other, of course. the best actors/actresses comes from hairspray too.

haha nice job.

but idk why alan cummings never win any. he's like.. the best.

oyeah, and i just saw the new mary poppins at the tony awards, and it was MAGICAL!

and i am looking forward to see previews for in the heights the musical. ITS SOOOOO COOL! however, the characters dont seem so symbolic ya. but i guess i just have to see it for myself. and btw, they won tony awards. aint that sumthin.



ciao.

aaaaaaaaaaa i'm broken-hearted real bad

*speechless*

just me listening to let it be by the beatles. i guess i just need to let it be...

lunatics

i just had a day out, or should i say... half-day out. i cant take it!

i went out with my little cousins, and they're monsters! gosh some little creatures runnin around. hate them hate them. gosh, why did they even exist.

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa take me outta this!

moving on?

i am very interested in moving on.

well all these times, i have been reading my favorite, favorite blog (and cesi's too, she's been in love with it lately), and the blogger uses livejournal.
unfortunately, i've been in love with it. i dont know why, there's a certain kind of... simplicity in livejournal.
however, i'm still stuck with the fact that this blog is the one and only. i want my memories to be attached with the new ones i'll write. you know, like i want a sentimental aspect to be within this blog.

it's just amazing how i see this blog i love so much. despite the beautiful writing of one's mind, everything around it just glue together and create a remarkable literary accomplishment.
(filza's archaic -_-)

by the way, i wrote this evidently for you guys to help me so tag guys, i would really appreciate it. however, for daily basis, i just dont know what to write anymore. haha, i got no fresh discussion.

oyeah, i got the new fresh idea, that i spilled to anya last night. and i think i'm gonna make it happen as soon as possible, so that means winter. and if successful, i might do it again for next semester. however, i still havent found the "fun" aspects to wrap up the whole period.
cesi, help me.

i had a crazy dream last night. some premans chased me for no reason. however, i'm not wearing binus uniform, i'm wearing the public school uniform for middle. wow. i think i sleep-talked, i was screaming i think, humm.



cesi must know why i changed my way paragraph structure. i was inpired, people.
and i inspire, filza. (haha how geeky)

doo dooodoo

hey pals als ls s.. dumb and dumber.

this morning, while waiting for the clock to strike 9, i'm thinking of you.... whoever you are... hahahaha, soo so slacking doug.

i'm listening to the loud voice of my dad speaking on the phone with some guy, omg his laughter made me burst in tears... not tears of sadness... not tears of joy... but tears of irritation. GOSH THIS IS SO NOT PRODUCTIVE. i hate being not so productive lately.

yay! my driving is going good. yess. my coach said i'm ready to fly onthe road, baby! but i'm scared.. i just want a private jet, mommy. and need someone to drive it -.-

CAMP ROCK IS THE COOLEST THING THIS MONTH. gosh, thanks to my lovely cesi (cheisy) who gave me the link to the full movie. and now i'm watching my fair lady. ces, the link you gave me have tonnes of musicals. after this am gonna watch on the town, starring frank sinatra. so cool! oh yeah, and jekyll and hyde the musical. that's the one which has the song : This is the moment, this is the day.... yeah, those. however, camp rock isn't a musical, like brechtian-musical kind of stuff. unlike hairspray or high school musical, that makes their life a musical. on the other hand, camp rock's songs are put in a purpose of performing. there's not one scene, where somebody is sad and sing about his/her sadness, or when they're happy and start dancing ans singing about. so, it's not a musical-musical for me.

nonetheless, i'm still alone.. well something happen last night which made me a little minder. but i guess i just have to face it. sometimes it does bother me when i think someone i care about is not responding to what i have to say. crazy eh? bitidabelyu, (that's btw in alay lang) do you realize how much pressure the opposite sex has to offer? even though it's your friends or your boyfriends, or your spouse.. sometimes it really is important to have a friend who has the same sex as you. but a friend from the opposite sex is also important to seek advices. advices you cant get from the a friend who has the same sex as you. ok, this part is not working. i just want to make a point each day. instead of writing my not-so-interesting life. i'm sure you do know about the point i just made. but... as i said.. i dont want this to be not-so-productive.

i shall post a little bit later, again. ok ciao

sorry, for the last post, there's a mistake. apparently my touchpad blocked a few words and put it in the start of paragraph, so it looks wrong. but i've edited it and put it in its proper place. for that i apologize. and thank you very much.