sitting on a rolling rolling chair.

listening to blower's daughter, my mood today. at school, i was like, so happy. and so hyper, that's why i cant be quite for just a moment, ms angai. sorry miss.

i dunno, i just feel like i need a moment. maybe because i have these writing homeworks that i need to sacrifice my energy on tonight. homework sucks (like duh, even my 3-year-old cousin knows that)

but anyways, i was thinking about loving and hating people. nowadays, as i get older (yea, if you havent notice, u're getting older everyday) i feel like, i cant do the image thing anymore. i dont wanna look nice to people when they did something wrong. i never hate people for something they didnt do. maybe like someone who was raised being spoiled ends up being a snob. they were raised so and the same thing will happen to you if you're spoiled since the very beginning. and there's nothing you can do about it. and for me, those bad things are just one of human being's limitation. it's the same thing as when you like candies so much, and you keep on buying a $100 candy and people start talking abt it. you did it because spending that much and buying what you love feels good, it's worth the price.

maybe i never said this, maybe sometimes i hate that kind of person. but i know it's wrong. and i know i'm wrong. that's why i said those things.

so let's just leave that kind of topic and move on with another one. i cant go to camp guys, i'm sorry. my dad's leaving at the beginning of february hopefully, and that means my mom will be left behind. and i cant leave her alone, sorry.

and i started making the concepts for year-end vosual presentation or graduation movie, and i have this idea of a very popular song that makes you sing and dance, ups sorry, RAP and dance. i have the whole thing tho, the problem is that, we havent shoot anything, YET.

however, i still need to focus on my studies. from what i observe, i'm getting better (caelah). ngga lah, at least i'm more focus than before. so probably the best way is to focus more and more and more and MORE!


i'm tired. i wanna observe my camera, hehe. GUDBYE.