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hello dudes and dudettes.. haha that greetings remind me of something, somethign real funny.

but anyways, straight to my point. i have a question:

r u not being yourself when you're crazy about the opposite sex even for only 1 minute?

anya i'm sure u kno about this. but i'm still curious, what part of it is fake?

and i'm trying to find out, cus obviously i've experienced someone giving either a compliment or a harsh commentary bout me. but really, is it?


please help me by answering it in the tagboard, thank you.

GOSH I LOST IT

for some of my friends might know a charm bracelet that i have, a silver one with a heart. yes, it was given to me by my dad's friend's wife, who is sooooo nice to me and lives in vegas. and now, I LOST THE CHARM! OMG, i've been trying to take a good care of it! yesterday i wore the bracelet to ohlala, and when i got home, the charm was not there! but the chain still remain. aaaaaaaaaaaaaa! i love that charm! to be honest, i've been buying tonnes of charm bracelets because that charm made me so in love with this particular accessories. so yeah, broken-hearted.

bubba

:D:D:D:D:D:D

yes yes yes, i love you! ahaha.

man, am i dreaming or what? he became one of the nicest person i have ever known. can't believe there is such a figure like that. full package. although, i'm not hoping for more, i know him. having a relationship is not an important factor in my life, after all. but i'm just happy that i have another one special friend that could understand me.

and now i have a letter to write.

dear andrew,
i'm sorry i've been such a bitch. sometimes when i'm bete i dont wanna listen to you. and sorry for my lazy voices on the phone, plus blaming you for no reason or one. but i'm lucky to have a friend like you, drew. thanks for listening to me, and being my seat buddy in IT in which i'm bored at. and thanks for telling me what i did was wrong. really, really appreciate it. and now i miss you, come home! cims is incomplete without you, you know.

hope u read this. thx



gtg bye2.

scratch the soil, filza!

something happened today, which made me about to fall down in a cd store. So melas, and gondok. I guess, tough luck. i couldn't reveal the story here, cus everyone knows the internet is a free world. But it doesn't tacked with me for long, now it has given me back the wish i've wanted for quite a while.

oia, my mom bought me a book titled "Belajar Lebih Cerdas, Bukan lebih Keras" -_-'
should i cherish the moment? or burn it? lets burn the moment, but not the book. i appreciate the book, ma. thank you, i need it. but sooo lazy to read it.

today, my area had the electricity off thingy for more than two hours. thank god i had that portable little non-living angel from above. haha i love you my sweety.

i shall finish my last block of papaya. bye bye.

in love?

love, such a silly game we play
like a summer's day in may
what is love? what is love?
i just want it to be love..

yes, matt white's true. love can kill boredom and boredom kills.

i will fill my world with love this summer! i have nothing to do, why not create peace?!

anyhow, love kids are one, i can babysit, which is totally not my thing. instead, i can tell them to massage me before i give them the candy, hehe.

make sense? no? ok, lets switch topic.

where are you?! i've been waiting yknow. and now time has given me the strength to be patient. so now i'm not crazy about hearing your chit-chat. but i still miss you, i cant lie.

anyways, i found myself very addicted to gums. gotta stop. help!




this is not a very good way to stop slacking. now, i hafta slack again -_- no choice.ciao

ganjal

ada sesuatu yang terus terisolasi di pikiran saya yang sedang senang, dan tentu saja membuat perasaan saya membuat celah pikiran buruk terhadap sesuatu. intinya, saya nggak bisa tenang.

tadi malam ada kejadian, saya memang sedang ada perasaan dengan seseorang, not exactly as a crush, but more as a crazy feelings for a friend. lambat laun, saya sudah bisa kontrol terhadap fakta yang berbicara bahwa saya belum bisa bicara dengan dia untuk beberapa saat. namun tadi malam, dalam sudut pandang saya, dia memang sibuk, tapi yang membuat saya skeptis, adalah fakta bahwa dia juga ragu-ragu bicara. saya santai, tapi pada akhir pembicaraan, ia pamit, dengan cara berbeda. ia ingin pamit karena terlalu capek, tapi minta approval dari saya dulu.

jadinya, saya ngga enak. apa selama ini saya yang jadi obstacle di kehidupan dia? teman sayapun ambil alih bicara pada saya, katanya, mungkin dia tau saya kepengen ngobrol sama dia. namun mendengar hal itu, perasaan saya jadi beralih malu.



and now i have no idea what to do. thank you.

stuck 3x

i have a song, stuck in my head for days! i just couldn't get rid of this.

Even though i'm no spiderman, or superman
i'll be the one who guards you
night and day and trust me
i dont need no spiderweb, or laser eyes
cause you're giving me the strength to say
share you life, and be my wife.

well in my case, husband. haha, just kidding. it's so beautiful, even more with the melody. ugh, it hits me deep.

heyy ya'll, today's the first day of holidaaaaaays! i just had my recognition day yesterday, and so far, i have not receive any pictures, but maybe yes later. btw, i won 3 amazing awards. although it weren't math or science, or business, or anything that would make my parents even prouder, but they are proud of those i've gotten . and those are the things i was focusing on. well at least 2 of them, because in my perspective, for service, it is about the calling. and i feel that doing community service is my calling which happens to have nominations but in any case, i would still do it for the sake of life. not sports(which i suck at), not innovations, nor arts. helping people. but i was happy that i got drama studies awards, which has been my dream ever since i casted at my first theatrical production. as for english, it was my goal. well, it was not literature, but not that i care, haha. sorry folks.

yea, and it was sad, i have to be honest. but the point is, there's more to school than just books and teachers, sometimes there are other people too. and even though they dont have anything, they're still good teachers for giving me the lessons of life.

last but not least i wanna congratulate mr.peter for giving such an inspiring & creative speech.




are you smarter than a 10th grader?

masih jam 7.15

now i'm patiently waiting for anyone i talk to to be online. please! anyone, i believe that gb's not gonna be online in the morning (sabar ya anya), that bird is not coming around (well he might, its just that i'm not that excited), i'm sure anya's still asleep, sarie doesn't like being on in the morning, ivana's learning math, zack is on vacation, si kingkong nih lagi siap-siap, he may or may not, so just wait, who else? umm, sutan's not on facebook, he hasn't been online for a while. and now i can see how often come online, haha. it's just that i'm soooo bored! and tomorrow i have math, which creates more trouble because i have to frikkin study.

my do-list for the day :
-buy drama things
-study math, seriously!
-thinking about people

yea the last one, because last night something happened that made sarrie and i were like "yea.. yea.. say what you wanna say" well, sarrie was not that tired, i do. it was very tiring listening to this person last night. agak kesel sih, because things are going rude, although it was meant to be funny. but i cant say what exactly happened.

i'm shaaaaaking

well, someone's NOT REPLYING. me on msn. kesel ah.

at the same time, i'm thinking. maybe that certain someone could be here, somewhere around jakarta. if i know, i'll be DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN HAPPY. but still, i'm too shy -.-

at this point of time, i need cims' filicium.


ah i have a desire to do something, it's just that i'm too negative thinking! gosh i cant do it. gtg, i have some body parts to get to know. biology, ciao.