HAPPY 1ST ANNIVERSARY http://filzouch.blogspot.com/ !
I can't believe i passed one year writing posts in my blog. all the hates, the laughs, the tears i shared with this blog will hopefully stays forever. i wanna thank my fellow senior blogger, especially nandra & anya, who had influenced me to make one. i like to go thru the archives and see how i've changed A LOT . this blog has been a witness of my growth, for the past year, and will always be.
and i hope i will continue, and please remind me if i forget
love and regards, filza.
Saturday, May 31, 2008
Friday, May 30, 2008
hectic in one way. the rest.. "finally i can catch my breath"
i finished the exam week! well, almost.
i still have 2 more to go, one for drama one for MATH, yes the excruciating mathematics.
but my concern is for drama, i still don't get brechtian. Its goal is to make the audience aware of the things in front of them and get the message the play is trying to set up and yet, it is somewhat absurdist. mr.c said the physical appearance must exaggerate. and we havent even start making the set! and the costumes need to be custom. not custom made, just.. different. and symbolic.
i'm so gonna fail drama. but at least my quiz helps :D
i went out or should i say.. escaped with my friends, ate somewhere and went to filicium. yes, we have our own filicium. and it is a big ol' tree. we spent our lazy afternoons under filicium talking about bizzare people in our "environment" and sometimes it can lead to serious laughter, haha. so we went there just a few hours ago, we spent hours talking about things. and in the middle of the conversation, someone did this thing (actually it's an ongoing thing, so it's not a one-time thing) that made us laugh.. badly. and i said "this is what i'm gonna miss the most and why i'm gonna miss all this" which stuck on my mind the whoooooole time now. i cant believe it's ending. ending like an end of a happy ending movie, when people enjoy the movie so much. and couldn't continue the story so we keep on wanting to re-watch. but in my case, we cannot repeat the whole thing, time passes by.
i'll write again tomorrow. peace.
i still have 2 more to go, one for drama one for MATH, yes the excruciating mathematics.
but my concern is for drama, i still don't get brechtian. Its goal is to make the audience aware of the things in front of them and get the message the play is trying to set up and yet, it is somewhat absurdist. mr.c said the physical appearance must exaggerate. and we havent even start making the set! and the costumes need to be custom. not custom made, just.. different. and symbolic.
i'm so gonna fail drama. but at least my quiz helps :D
i went out or should i say.. escaped with my friends, ate somewhere and went to filicium. yes, we have our own filicium. and it is a big ol' tree. we spent our lazy afternoons under filicium talking about bizzare people in our "environment" and sometimes it can lead to serious laughter, haha. so we went there just a few hours ago, we spent hours talking about things. and in the middle of the conversation, someone did this thing (actually it's an ongoing thing, so it's not a one-time thing) that made us laugh.. badly. and i said "this is what i'm gonna miss the most and why i'm gonna miss all this" which stuck on my mind the whoooooole time now. i cant believe it's ending. ending like an end of a happy ending movie, when people enjoy the movie so much. and couldn't continue the story so we keep on wanting to re-watch. but in my case, we cannot repeat the whole thing, time passes by.
i'll write again tomorrow. peace.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
essays
look, here's the thing.
i was not as crazy as i was yesterday, it's just that a lot has happened in the past 4 hours. from excited.. to heart-broken.. to okay.. to being so generous (well at least i think i'm being generous) well u judge me. but it turns out that only a person (or two) can judge if i was being generous. well lest just forget about that.
my point is, it's crazy to see how my feelings about is jumping. meaning, say, now i love you, the next hour i hate you, and the next hour i'm helping you to pass your exams and yet i still hate you while falling in love with you. pretty crazy, huh?
now i have no one to talk to on msn, so i'll just talk to you, my dear friend.
how's you day, mate?
oh, how lovely.. mine was utterly singular. i felt of a certain mixture of feelings.
oh really? how unfortunate..
gosh, am i really acting stupid? i better go, ciao
i was not as crazy as i was yesterday, it's just that a lot has happened in the past 4 hours. from excited.. to heart-broken.. to okay.. to being so generous (well at least i think i'm being generous) well u judge me. but it turns out that only a person (or two) can judge if i was being generous. well lest just forget about that.
my point is, it's crazy to see how my feelings about is jumping. meaning, say, now i love you, the next hour i hate you, and the next hour i'm helping you to pass your exams and yet i still hate you while falling in love with you. pretty crazy, huh?
now i have no one to talk to on msn, so i'll just talk to you, my dear friend.
how's you day, mate?
oh, how lovely.. mine was utterly singular. i felt of a certain mixture of feelings.
oh really? how unfortunate..
gosh, am i really acting stupid? i better go, ciao
Tuesday, May 27, 2008
i'm shaaaaaking
well, someone's NOT REPLYING. me on msn. kesel ah.
at the same time, i'm thinking. maybe that certain someone could be here, somewhere around jakarta. if i know, i'll be DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN HAPPY. but still, i'm too shy -.-
at this point of time, i need cims' filicium.
ah i have a desire to do something, it's just that i'm too negative thinking! gosh i cant do it. gtg, i have some body parts to get to know. biology, ciao.
at the same time, i'm thinking. maybe that certain someone could be here, somewhere around jakarta. if i know, i'll be DAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMN HAPPY. but still, i'm too shy -.-
at this point of time, i need cims' filicium.
ah i have a desire to do something, it's just that i'm too negative thinking! gosh i cant do it. gtg, i have some body parts to get to know. biology, ciao.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
THANK YOU
oh my gosh, after all those birthday night depression, I was so happy yesterday!
THANK YOU 10B FOR THAT AWESOME BIRTHDAY CAKE!
i have nooo idea. the first time the cake enters i sang along the happy birthday song, cus i thought it's for somebody. and i was like confused when everybody's looking at me along with the cake. it was so weird, and yet sooo beautiful. i wasn't expecting any of it, but i'm sooo happy.
jon looks like he's cherishing the moment, but he was there mostly for the cake haha
they didn't get the shocked moment picture, however. but these means a lot to me, thx guys.
apart from the birthday cake, there's also some heart-breaking moment. our last math class w/ ms. angay!
my math group BOTENG!
Soulja Kids
All da bebi
Scooby-doo
Snow white
as well as my awesome teacher ms.bernadette!!
crowded group hug haha.
last-but-not-least, the WHITIES cims
i laughed bad because of jon, well i asked him to do it, but it only affects me. it supposed to be everybody, if you know what i mean.
CIIIIMS THIS IS OUR LAST FREE-DRESS PICTURE IN Y10!
overall this year has been amazing! i'll post more class pictures later. ciao
THANK YOU 10B FOR THAT AWESOME BIRTHDAY CAKE!
i have nooo idea. the first time the cake enters i sang along the happy birthday song, cus i thought it's for somebody. and i was like confused when everybody's looking at me along with the cake. it was so weird, and yet sooo beautiful. i wasn't expecting any of it, but i'm sooo happy.
jon looks like he's cherishing the moment, but he was there mostly for the cake haha
they didn't get the shocked moment picture, however. but these means a lot to me, thx guys.
apart from the birthday cake, there's also some heart-breaking moment. our last math class w/ ms. angay!
my math group BOTENG!
Soulja Kids
All da bebi
Scooby-doo
Snow white
as well as my awesome teacher ms.bernadette!!
crowded group hug haha.
last-but-not-least, the WHITIES cims
i laughed bad because of jon, well i asked him to do it, but it only affects me. it supposed to be everybody, if you know what i mean.
CIIIIMS THIS IS OUR LAST FREE-DRESS PICTURE IN Y10!
overall this year has been amazing! i'll post more class pictures later. ciao
Thursday, May 22, 2008
#2
i was inspired by anya's latest post, as i've always wanted to discuss this. about the XOXO thing.
no offense, but i don't really like the idea of people mentioning xoxo everywhere after gossip girl came out and became a huge hit. so does "XOXO". i have no problem with everybody saying XOXO at the first place, however, in my opinion it is a low-level imitation. XOXO has been a slang for decades. And in my point of view, i think people are too fascinated by that line, even sometimes i was disgust by how people say it in a perky way similar to the tone they have a gossip girl. i mean COME ON! XOXO isn't the only you so-called "fabulous" line they have on this planet. There are loads of words you can use. I'm not saying that it's wrong, but i am saying that for those who applied XOXO as a fashion-socialism-word-sensation or however you put the words. please, think twice. i do use those hugs and kisses interpretation, however not that way. say, "hugs are cheap.. XXXX, filza" or maybe experiment with XOXO, like what cheisy did.
and as far as i'm concerned, gossip girl has affected the young girls to try to reach a step further in a world so far from their capabilities and thoughts. This young girls are suppose to know the basis of the adult world, but not too extreme. In my opinion, gossip girl is too extreme. yes, that TV series has the elements of teen spirits, well any kind we have these days. But dont get me wrong, i do watch gossip girl, even crazy about them. As a 10th grader, i can see that most of the students here watch gossip girl, but we were not attached to the stories, nor trying to apply the stories to real life with the exceptions of a few. However, young teens as i observe, are mostly attached, and i'm sorry to say that it is an act of immaturity. They might be immature, but by being mentally attached to the story, that could affect the learning capability and possibility of the basis in maturity.
sorry if offended. thx for reading.
no offense, but i don't really like the idea of people mentioning xoxo everywhere after gossip girl came out and became a huge hit. so does "XOXO". i have no problem with everybody saying XOXO at the first place, however, in my opinion it is a low-level imitation. XOXO has been a slang for decades. And in my point of view, i think people are too fascinated by that line, even sometimes i was disgust by how people say it in a perky way similar to the tone they have a gossip girl. i mean COME ON! XOXO isn't the only you so-called "fabulous" line they have on this planet. There are loads of words you can use. I'm not saying that it's wrong, but i am saying that for those who applied XOXO as a fashion-socialism-word-sensation or however you put the words. please, think twice. i do use those hugs and kisses interpretation, however not that way. say, "hugs are cheap.. XXXX, filza" or maybe experiment with XOXO, like what cheisy did.
and as far as i'm concerned, gossip girl has affected the young girls to try to reach a step further in a world so far from their capabilities and thoughts. This young girls are suppose to know the basis of the adult world, but not too extreme. In my opinion, gossip girl is too extreme. yes, that TV series has the elements of teen spirits, well any kind we have these days. But dont get me wrong, i do watch gossip girl, even crazy about them. As a 10th grader, i can see that most of the students here watch gossip girl, but we were not attached to the stories, nor trying to apply the stories to real life with the exceptions of a few. However, young teens as i observe, are mostly attached, and i'm sorry to say that it is an act of immaturity. They might be immature, but by being mentally attached to the story, that could affect the learning capability and possibility of the basis in maturity.
sorry if offended. thx for reading.
i was supposed to be happy by the end of the day, because after all it is my 16th birthday. but i do have a certain fear inside. and i am not very happy about 15 minutes ago. i cant type it, at least not with tears.
but anyways, thanks guys for the presents, teh cards, and the birthday wishes. i just son't wanna get older and older until i turn into a sick, grey-haired, hunch-baked grandma. life is not bad for me, it's just that, i have a fear of the word "more".
but anyways, thanks guys for the presents, teh cards, and the birthday wishes. i just son't wanna get older and older until i turn into a sick, grey-haired, hunch-baked grandma. life is not bad for me, it's just that, i have a fear of the word "more".
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
CIMS
haha baru nyadar dr postnya andrew juga dicerna oleh naida, cims tuh punya ya filicium. tempat dimana kita observe kata2 "halo.. halo.. oi.. oi" haha, asli kocaknyaaa.
apalagi ngegosip, yaoloh.
pohon beneran loh. haha btw, andrew sabar ya, makanya ati2 kalo ngobrolin, haha orgnya liat kan tuh skrg? hahahahah.
apalagi ngegosip, yaoloh.
pohon beneran loh. haha btw, andrew sabar ya, makanya ati2 kalo ngobrolin, haha orgnya liat kan tuh skrg? hahahahah.
tank
this tank is so comfy i dont wanna take it off! hey i'm watching aaaaaaaamerican idol! i was surprised to see david archuleta singing Dont Let The Sun Goes Down on Me which is my personal favorite. It was in the american idol history, as a true viewer / fan of american idol, (haha, filzaa), i remember Clay Aiken of Season 2, singing this song with so much victory of winning. If you watched season 2, you might know how Clay Aiken sings, i mean his style of singing. His face resonates the true meaning of optimism, that gives a sense of victory of winning. He might be in the second place, but his album made it to the top, even leaving Ruben Studdard (or however you spell his last name) behind.
Ok, enuf talk about Clay Aiken, i was his fan. I literally begged my dad to buy my his cd (which wasn't out yet at that time in jak), in singapore. My senior, who was also my bro's friend at that time (btw, this was 6th grade) and i were screaming and talking talking in the cafetaria alone, haha. Because of Clay of course. But it was so funny, she hugged me badly when i gave a her a poster of Clay Aiken, haha. So there i was, humiliated by mr. clay aiken.
i grew up listening to queen and a little bit of michael learns to rock, sicne my dad always turn it on. I listened to Air Supply, but i dont really like it tho. as i grew up, pop music became HUGE. And so i started listening to backstreet boys, a little bit of westlife, Spice girls etc. And as my brother grows older, i began listening to his kind of music. But i found out that my true love was in pop music. So i started listening to them again. But one thing, i never enjoy j-pop, k-pop, chinese pop or whatever, no. I like filipino artist lately, they have good music, it's just that i couldnt understand a word, haha. Now, i figured that my true love is in blues, swingjazz music. I dont enjoy some modern jazz (those jazz that's in rite now), and i cant figure out why. It started when my dad bought this jazz Robbie Williams album, Swing like you mean it, probably around 2003, i guess. And i began to love those catchy tunes. Now, i'm listening to Tony bennet, Jane Monheit, Michael Buble (his jazz song covers), Frank Sinatra, and jazz Robbie Williams of course. Apart from that, i like soul artists. Amy winehouse, Stevie Wonder, and George Benson, also that new artist Duffy, i like her too. Elton John is a great one too. Haha, sometimes i dont like to search on some new artist, coz it's better not to forget the old, than trying to dig the new ones, because i mean they will rise sooner or later. But dont get me wrong, i do like the new ones too, i love them, but the ones who made it to the charts now. I like both, and a little bit of everything.
thank you for reading my boring, wasteful, land of life blog-post.
Ok, enuf talk about Clay Aiken, i was his fan. I literally begged my dad to buy my his cd (which wasn't out yet at that time in jak), in singapore. My senior, who was also my bro's friend at that time (btw, this was 6th grade) and i were screaming and talking talking in the cafetaria alone, haha. Because of Clay of course. But it was so funny, she hugged me badly when i gave a her a poster of Clay Aiken, haha. So there i was, humiliated by mr. clay aiken.
i grew up listening to queen and a little bit of michael learns to rock, sicne my dad always turn it on. I listened to Air Supply, but i dont really like it tho. as i grew up, pop music became HUGE. And so i started listening to backstreet boys, a little bit of westlife, Spice girls etc. And as my brother grows older, i began listening to his kind of music. But i found out that my true love was in pop music. So i started listening to them again. But one thing, i never enjoy j-pop, k-pop, chinese pop or whatever, no. I like filipino artist lately, they have good music, it's just that i couldnt understand a word, haha. Now, i figured that my true love is in blues, swingjazz music. I dont enjoy some modern jazz (those jazz that's in rite now), and i cant figure out why. It started when my dad bought this jazz Robbie Williams album, Swing like you mean it, probably around 2003, i guess. And i began to love those catchy tunes. Now, i'm listening to Tony bennet, Jane Monheit, Michael Buble (his jazz song covers), Frank Sinatra, and jazz Robbie Williams of course. Apart from that, i like soul artists. Amy winehouse, Stevie Wonder, and George Benson, also that new artist Duffy, i like her too. Elton John is a great one too. Haha, sometimes i dont like to search on some new artist, coz it's better not to forget the old, than trying to dig the new ones, because i mean they will rise sooner or later. But dont get me wrong, i do like the new ones too, i love them, but the ones who made it to the charts now. I like both, and a little bit of everything.
thank you for reading my boring, wasteful, land of life blog-post.
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
National Awakening
Pengetahuan saya akan Kebangkitan Nasional amat sempit, dan saya tidak bisa bohong. Karena dimata saya, sebuah rangkaian kata-kata belumlah kuat jika belum ada pengetahuan-pengetahuan yang bersangkutan untuk menguatkan rangkaian tersebut. Sebagai sesorang yang ingin mempunyai sifat nasionalisme yang kuat(ya, ingin karena saya masih ragu akan ke-nasionalisme-an saya), kata bangkit pada nilai nilai sejarah bangsa indonesia, menurut saya tertera pada awal 1900-an, dimana jiwa nasionalisme bangkit pada diri masing-masing jiwa rakyat indonesia. Kehadiran organisasi Budi Utomo adalah sesuatu yang sakral pada frase "Kebangkitan Nasional", dikarenakan pembangkitan luas kesadaran nasionalisme rakyat indonesia. Organisasi Budi Utomo merupakan komunitas pemuda, yang berpikiran kedepan untuk memajukan bangsa ini, dan menerapkan keadilan. Walaupun halangan kerap kali datang, namun dengan tersebar luasnya kesadaran nasionalisme tersebut, nama Indonesia mulai bangkit.
Mungkin nanti saya akan gali lagi info-info lain tentang topik ini, tapi maaf bila tidak. Sekian, filza.
Mungkin nanti saya akan gali lagi info-info lain tentang topik ini, tapi maaf bila tidak. Sekian, filza.
bum bum bum bum cuap
this morning, i woke up at 7. and i have an empty stomach. i don't know what i want to have for breakfast!
my mom's away my dad's away, they both went for a jog. i'm alone, waiting for the car to go back at 11 so then i can go to school and do the drama practice thingy. and i really have to revise the script, well at least help a little. cus i'm so tired of doing it all over again.
i had a really good nite sleep last night. that's because i slept at 10 something, and woke up at 7. haha, it looks like a cheesy-fairy tale. when you open your window, and inhale the fresh air with the flowers and the birds singing to you. ok, back to the real life, people!
in front of me, this small bended calender from bread papa. with images of the cram puffs SOO GOOD, AND DEEEELICIOUS! haha. but honestly, yes, i do have a desire for beard papa's cream puffs, although i have to admit, they are a little expensive. its funny, when i went to L.A, to the creepy montrey park, i saw this beard papa store, but it was closed. but i think they have a better taste there, in LA. but do not got to montrey park, it's creepy, well not in a mystic way, but in a never-find-that-atmosphere-across-America way. speaking of america, i wanted to go there but since my brother's coming in December because of his stupid working stuff whatever, so i cant go there. unless if i want to go to some other places, it's fine. I'll probably go somewhere by august, when the ticket price is quite low, haha. and u promised me something daddy!
i wanna go to Singapore tho, not for shopping. for hanging out with my friends. haha. when you're alone, only with your friends, you can really feel the freedom man. but this summer i have to go to the boring Medan. at least i can make my grandma happy :) but i'll probably waste most of my time wandering around sun plaza anyways, or the warnet. since no one practically use Internet in my house. but it's so hot there, and it's so awkward to bring over sized sunglasses when you're in Medan. they'll probably think : "hey it's not Bali, it's Medan, get used to it"
i'm getting hungrier, help! i need to buy something, ciao!
my mom's away my dad's away, they both went for a jog. i'm alone, waiting for the car to go back at 11 so then i can go to school and do the drama practice thingy. and i really have to revise the script, well at least help a little. cus i'm so tired of doing it all over again.
i had a really good nite sleep last night. that's because i slept at 10 something, and woke up at 7. haha, it looks like a cheesy-fairy tale. when you open your window, and inhale the fresh air with the flowers and the birds singing to you. ok, back to the real life, people!
in front of me, this small bended calender from bread papa. with images of the cram puffs SOO GOOD, AND DEEEELICIOUS! haha. but honestly, yes, i do have a desire for beard papa's cream puffs, although i have to admit, they are a little expensive. its funny, when i went to L.A, to the creepy montrey park, i saw this beard papa store, but it was closed. but i think they have a better taste there, in LA. but do not got to montrey park, it's creepy, well not in a mystic way, but in a never-find-that-atmosphere-across-America way. speaking of america, i wanted to go there but since my brother's coming in December because of his stupid working stuff whatever, so i cant go there. unless if i want to go to some other places, it's fine. I'll probably go somewhere by august, when the ticket price is quite low, haha. and u promised me something daddy!
i wanna go to Singapore tho, not for shopping. for hanging out with my friends. haha. when you're alone, only with your friends, you can really feel the freedom man. but this summer i have to go to the boring Medan. at least i can make my grandma happy :) but i'll probably waste most of my time wandering around sun plaza anyways, or the warnet. since no one practically use Internet in my house. but it's so hot there, and it's so awkward to bring over sized sunglasses when you're in Medan. they'll probably think : "hey it's not Bali, it's Medan, get used to it"
i'm getting hungrier, help! i need to buy something, ciao!
Monday, May 19, 2008
NOVEMBER 22 2007!
if you know that date, it's too sacred. well, not sacred, but it is memorable. it was the birth of RETARDOOOOOOOS! my pals, and me doing crazy thing, omg. we are very much in our retardness of one another. i cannot forget that date. and i hope you remember, girls.
and cims! too bad i wasnt there when it was built. i was busy with narnia, with my stardom. alaah, haha. i'm joking. but i was glad that we made it this far. haha btw, it's so funny how we cover things so quickly. we are true actors, cims. haha
love, filza. (or zong, or whatever you wanna call me)
and cims! too bad i wasnt there when it was built. i was busy with narnia, with my stardom. alaah, haha. i'm joking. but i was glad that we made it this far. haha btw, it's so funny how we cover things so quickly. we are true actors, cims. haha
love, filza. (or zong, or whatever you wanna call me)
last session!
hey man, today was my last period with mr.lloyd! my awesome bio teacher. we ended up doing revision for the test instead of taking pictures. well, its is important, i admit. it's just that you're so cool, mr. lloyd. but anyways, you're still on youtube! haha. sorry if we talk too much, or cheat too much haha. sorry of i talk so loud mr.lloyd. and one more thing, please give me awesome marks on the exams, just like what you did last time, haha 10B LOVES YOU!
p.s. : he's not moving out, it was 10B's last period with him. since next week's exam. i'll see you in gr11 mr. loyd!
tomorrow's holiday but i'll still go to schooooool!!
p.s. : he's not moving out, it was 10B's last period with him. since next week's exam. i'll see you in gr11 mr. loyd!
tomorrow's holiday but i'll still go to schooooool!!
Sunday, May 18, 2008
shit happens
Gosh! man, in any minute i'll vommit. It's soooo sad i dont wanna leave grade 10! 10B was so much fun, i did not regret a single minute with my classmates. we have 432 hours left, and yes, i'm counting. i remember the birthdays we had, it was sooo much fun! although maybe within we had some conflicts or stuff, but it is part of the memories.
cims, it's so sad to leave. i hope it still remains in the future. we are effin' awesome! all the crazy ideas, all the love and MCs. all the secrets that we kept all these times, we rule guys! haha, it's so crazy. my big dude, andrew, do not ever stop rappin'. i love you and we are gonna be MTV stars in 10 years, baby! Jon, lo tetep ganteng ya, jangan ngerusakin muka lo. haha. canda deng, belajar yg bener ya Jon, jgn ngeliatin yg ga penting mulu haha. reuben, lo tetep kocak kok ben, tapi dendam foto masih ada loh ben, haha. rayner, keep cookin'! 10 taun lagi gue nanti gue k restoran lo. chris, belajar yg bener! haha MY ARDOS! yella, "gimana ya, susah sih jd org hot" haha. we rule the streets, and the search for caucasians for you, my dear. haha. michiiiiiiiiiiiii! keep tuning in for RnB, girl. haha, u've inspired yella, big time. and last but not least, NAIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! we had a blast this past year! starting from photos of math class, all the way to math class seriousness. i love you , my dear. and i can assure you that we will not be losing contact.
others : SONIAAA ! we'll audition for more prod promise? david, keep the hotness, man. haha. ADRIAAAAAAN! minta maaf ya sm jon, kasian. tp keep singing man, haha. lo jd penulis gue ok?. fidel-marcia-riski i love you guys. lenny-caro-alvina makasi buat bantuan belajarnya haha. ARIANIIIIIIIIII belajar ya! trus tetp sabar. FERIIIIIINAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i'm speechless, i love you! kevin-jason, kalo ada salah maafin ya. ga ada yg lupa lagi kan? I LOVE YOU GUYS.
I LOVE 10B btw, thx for the 8 awards, guys! haha but being the messiest isn't so pretty.
cims, it's so sad to leave. i hope it still remains in the future. we are effin' awesome! all the crazy ideas, all the love and MCs. all the secrets that we kept all these times, we rule guys! haha, it's so crazy. my big dude, andrew, do not ever stop rappin'. i love you and we are gonna be MTV stars in 10 years, baby! Jon, lo tetep ganteng ya, jangan ngerusakin muka lo. haha. canda deng, belajar yg bener ya Jon, jgn ngeliatin yg ga penting mulu haha. reuben, lo tetep kocak kok ben, tapi dendam foto masih ada loh ben, haha. rayner, keep cookin'! 10 taun lagi gue nanti gue k restoran lo. chris, belajar yg bener! haha MY ARDOS! yella, "gimana ya, susah sih jd org hot" haha. we rule the streets, and the search for caucasians for you, my dear. haha. michiiiiiiiiiiiii! keep tuning in for RnB, girl. haha, u've inspired yella, big time. and last but not least, NAIDAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! we had a blast this past year! starting from photos of math class, all the way to math class seriousness. i love you , my dear. and i can assure you that we will not be losing contact.
others : SONIAAA ! we'll audition for more prod promise? david, keep the hotness, man. haha. ADRIAAAAAAN! minta maaf ya sm jon, kasian. tp keep singing man, haha. lo jd penulis gue ok?. fidel-marcia-riski i love you guys. lenny-caro-alvina makasi buat bantuan belajarnya haha. ARIANIIIIIIIIII belajar ya! trus tetp sabar. FERIIIIIINAAAAAAAAAAAAAA i'm speechless, i love you! kevin-jason, kalo ada salah maafin ya. ga ada yg lupa lagi kan? I LOVE YOU GUYS.
I LOVE 10B btw, thx for the 8 awards, guys! haha but being the messiest isn't so pretty.
Thursday, May 15, 2008
school 3.23
hi, i'm gonna go home any minute now, i'm gonna stay, and do my work. i have business presentation which i have not start until now, IT submission, 3 pages to go! 3 pages, of bizzare writings. and i still have service essay due tomorrow, gosh. that's why people, do not pospone tasks!
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS. RATRI.
gtg, i have to host. ciao
btw, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MS. RATRI.
gtg, i have to host. ciao
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
chocorollers
hey blog, long time no connect with me ya? ooo, easy laah.
nonsense comes out form me easily. so.. yeah. i just finished my drama script that i revised and became 12 pages of dialogs and singing! but i'm happy. but still i have to ask mr.c's commentaries tomorrow. because today, he asked a lot and i didn't seem to give the right answers. and i kinda regret not googling.
i had a pretty nice day at school, it's just the my school song was revised and the word BINA NUSANTARA was changed to BINUS SCHOOL SIMPRUG. it sounds maksa yet, it makes the song our very own school song.
i'm gonna have a long day tomorrow. i gtg to sleep, ciao.
p.s : i'm gonna start writing labels from now on. haha.
nonsense comes out form me easily. so.. yeah. i just finished my drama script that i revised and became 12 pages of dialogs and singing! but i'm happy. but still i have to ask mr.c's commentaries tomorrow. because today, he asked a lot and i didn't seem to give the right answers. and i kinda regret not googling.
i had a pretty nice day at school, it's just the my school song was revised and the word BINA NUSANTARA was changed to BINUS SCHOOL SIMPRUG. it sounds maksa yet, it makes the song our very own school song.
i'm gonna have a long day tomorrow. i gtg to sleep, ciao.
p.s : i'm gonna start writing labels from now on. haha.
Thursday, May 8, 2008
huh?
i felt so emo today. and i just dont want to write. the thing is, it's so weird.
bcs i'm pretty emo at this moment.
bcs i'm pretty emo at this moment.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
did i ever tell you?
did i ever tell you how i hate plagiarism so much? that is only for do-badders. i'm sorry to say, but this world is full of copycats that wouldn't care so much. well this is what i can say :
MIND YOUR OWN CREATION, SUCK-UPS.
hey, no-brainers. please use your own brain. remember the wizard of oz? yea, scarecrow fought for a brain,note that. what did u do with yours? nothing, rite.?i noticed. you're a loser-user. and please think about it with you own brain.
MIND YOUR OWN CREATION, SUCK-UPS.
hey, no-brainers. please use your own brain. remember the wizard of oz? yea, scarecrow fought for a brain,note that. what did u do with yours? nothing, rite.?i noticed. you're a loser-user. and please think about it with you own brain.
Monday, May 5, 2008
me and my country
hey fellas.
this morning, i sang the national anthem along with the school. and i figured that at that moment, when i sang the national anthem, i felt such an emotional movement in my mind that shows a certain pride of this nation.
saat saya menyanyikan indonesia raya, perasaan saya berbeda dengan menyanyikan lagu yang sangat memancarkan kehidupan saya selama ini sekalipun. pride sebagai orang berkependudukan dan asli indonesia, membuat saya berpikir bahwa jiwa yang saya miliki berasal sudah melekat dengan bangsa ini dan memang jiwa orang indonesia. hati saya bergerak saat saya melihat kepala sekolah saya, Mr. Peter mencoba melantunkan lagu Indonesia Raya walaupun saya paham benar bahwa beliau belum fasih berbahasa indonesia, dan mungkin belum hafal benar nada-nada di lagu tersebut. dengan tegasnya, beliau menyuruh kami mengulang Indonesia Raya lantaran banyak yang masih lenggak-lenggok alias tidak serius. jujur, saya agak terharu. walaupun selama ini saya tidak selalu menghormati beliau, akan tetapi saya salut dengan beliau.
kembali ke indonesia raya. saya masih melihat banyak dari teman-teman saya, masih menganggap menyanyikan indonesia raya di sekolah seperti binus itu adalah sebuah lelucon untuk dipertanyakan dan ditertawakan. komando guru membuat mereka bernyanyi secara skeptis, dan tidak enak dilihat. saat itu dipikiran saya adalah, pertama, sekolah ini adalah bagian dari indonesia. hampir atau lebih dari 90% penghuni sekolah kami adalah orang indonesia. pembangun dan pembina sekolah kami adalah orang indonesia. memang pembelajaran kami berbasis bahasa asing. namun kami masih menunjukkan effort untuk melahirkan anak-anak indonesia yang berpikiran global, berperilaku lokal (think globally, act locally) contohnya dalam pelajaran Sastra Indonesia yang merupakan salah satu pelajaran tersulit untuk murid-murid skolah kami. jadi tanpa diragukan lagi, sekolah ini adalah bagian dari indonesia yang memang mendunia. kedua, kalau memang anda masih keberatan dalam menyanyikan lagu kebangsaan, sebaiknya anda diam. sorry to say, tapi dalam sudut pandang saya, anda belum bisa mendapatkan paspor indonesia. passport, particularly. karena begini, menurut saya, pergi keluar negeri, bukan hanya sekedar mencari pengalaman semata. tapi juga membawa nama baik indonesia. bila anda belum menyadari apa yang kita punya sekarang sebegitu indahnya, saat anda melihat yang lebih indah diluar sana, anda akan berpaling.
sekian penjelasan saya. maaf bila anda tersinggung :)
this morning, i sang the national anthem along with the school. and i figured that at that moment, when i sang the national anthem, i felt such an emotional movement in my mind that shows a certain pride of this nation.
saat saya menyanyikan indonesia raya, perasaan saya berbeda dengan menyanyikan lagu yang sangat memancarkan kehidupan saya selama ini sekalipun. pride sebagai orang berkependudukan dan asli indonesia, membuat saya berpikir bahwa jiwa yang saya miliki berasal sudah melekat dengan bangsa ini dan memang jiwa orang indonesia. hati saya bergerak saat saya melihat kepala sekolah saya, Mr. Peter mencoba melantunkan lagu Indonesia Raya walaupun saya paham benar bahwa beliau belum fasih berbahasa indonesia, dan mungkin belum hafal benar nada-nada di lagu tersebut. dengan tegasnya, beliau menyuruh kami mengulang Indonesia Raya lantaran banyak yang masih lenggak-lenggok alias tidak serius. jujur, saya agak terharu. walaupun selama ini saya tidak selalu menghormati beliau, akan tetapi saya salut dengan beliau.
kembali ke indonesia raya. saya masih melihat banyak dari teman-teman saya, masih menganggap menyanyikan indonesia raya di sekolah seperti binus itu adalah sebuah lelucon untuk dipertanyakan dan ditertawakan. komando guru membuat mereka bernyanyi secara skeptis, dan tidak enak dilihat. saat itu dipikiran saya adalah, pertama, sekolah ini adalah bagian dari indonesia. hampir atau lebih dari 90% penghuni sekolah kami adalah orang indonesia. pembangun dan pembina sekolah kami adalah orang indonesia. memang pembelajaran kami berbasis bahasa asing. namun kami masih menunjukkan effort untuk melahirkan anak-anak indonesia yang berpikiran global, berperilaku lokal (think globally, act locally) contohnya dalam pelajaran Sastra Indonesia yang merupakan salah satu pelajaran tersulit untuk murid-murid skolah kami. jadi tanpa diragukan lagi, sekolah ini adalah bagian dari indonesia yang memang mendunia. kedua, kalau memang anda masih keberatan dalam menyanyikan lagu kebangsaan, sebaiknya anda diam. sorry to say, tapi dalam sudut pandang saya, anda belum bisa mendapatkan paspor indonesia. passport, particularly. karena begini, menurut saya, pergi keluar negeri, bukan hanya sekedar mencari pengalaman semata. tapi juga membawa nama baik indonesia. bila anda belum menyadari apa yang kita punya sekarang sebegitu indahnya, saat anda melihat yang lebih indah diluar sana, anda akan berpaling.
sekian penjelasan saya. maaf bila anda tersinggung :)
Sunday, May 4, 2008
new!
i was just thinking about something. ok so, instead of looking for hot guys, i'll look for some hot flings! which means, that i would search for celebrities my age, guy and a girl, who are friends or dating, and look cute when they're together, its fuuuun!
these are today's choice :
1.
arent they just cute together? ugh, i wish i was those girls. but i'm happy being filza :) pick your favorite, and tag!
these are today's choice :
1.
this might seem childish, but taylor's 16 and alyson's 15. its just a slight technical problem :)
arent they just cute together? ugh, i wish i was those girls. but i'm happy being filza :) pick your favorite, and tag!
what a great sensibility
oohhmygosh. i woke up late again, its now 7.30, and i was supposed to wake up earlier to get the nasi uduk that i love too much. mmm... from yesterday, i've just realized something :
I ♥ CINNAMON ROLES
a liiiittle weird, but oh well. my appetite doesn't give a damn, sorry. gtg, computer off by 9. see ya!
I ♥ CINNAMON ROLES
a liiiittle weird, but oh well. my appetite doesn't give a damn, sorry. gtg, computer off by 9. see ya!
Saturday, May 3, 2008
my feet!
asli kaki saya pegel banget. i went to the concert, and i just got home. it was okay, derick was hot, and his sunglasses are even hotter. omg i'm in love with his elvis sunglasses (that's not even elvish-ish, he wore it only for the elvis portion) because at first he was throwing his guitar picks, and later on his elvis hankie and i was like : gimme the sunglasses! haha, but no he didnt.
me and anya talked a lot about our friends' weird relationships this afternoon, and i just notice that : hell yea, they are weird. well i'm not saying that its a good thing, nor bad. but still, the ew-ness attacked me harshly. even now
i just cannot wait until the exam week finishes. gtg bye
me and anya talked a lot about our friends' weird relationships this afternoon, and i just notice that : hell yea, they are weird. well i'm not saying that its a good thing, nor bad. but still, the ew-ness attacked me harshly. even now
i just cannot wait until the exam week finishes. gtg bye
Friday, May 2, 2008
much
there's so many things that happened during school. and i'm not gonna mention about the futsal match we had, its just too complicated. i had a walk with ms.vivi after school, to dacument the CAS students. i was teaching before narnia starts, so i left, and now since the drama club was moved to mondays, i have the chance to start again. ms.vivi said she wants to have this project with me. raise awareness with new phrase with new brainstorming, with new ideas. however, i talked about not making movies anymore. i wanna do it for service, and i guess i just have to fight for it.
we walked to the back of the school, and i chatted with the ibu in charge, and she still remembers me! and she said it has been really good, i mean when i first came in, it was a mess. and it was great now! after a while, we went to SDN grogol. i've been wanting to go there ever sicne i join CAS, its just not my portion. so now i get to see it, it was really nice! the building is really good, and so i asked ms.vivi abt it. she said it was not that good when binus first came in SDN grogol. its anew buliding, and i saw happy faces within the community.
we walked to the back of the school, and i chatted with the ibu in charge, and she still remembers me! and she said it has been really good, i mean when i first came in, it was a mess. and it was great now! after a while, we went to SDN grogol. i've been wanting to go there ever sicne i join CAS, its just not my portion. so now i get to see it, it was really nice! the building is really good, and so i asked ms.vivi abt it. she said it was not that good when binus first came in SDN grogol. its anew buliding, and i saw happy faces within the community.
recapitulating
just now, i was reading my old posts. i found something funny, corny, stupid, etc. i remember how active i was last year, with all the choir games, community service, etc etc. and i found this post, where i planned my 17th birthday party with my dearest friend, anya, and we were so excited so we planned these crazy things. we mentioned about getting those myspace stars. at the time we were just discovering joe brooks and gabe bondoc. i remember how crazy we were about them, like how girls are crazy about beatles in the old days, i mean, you can just see the hysteria rite? and we would love to invite our dearest e-brother, to come. we talked about how Romania and Singapore not to mention Thailand, really means to us back then. Our crushes, our long-lasting history and mistery, the chatrooms, the guy-books consultations, the esplanade, the i-have-bad-experiences-with-gangsta stories, the asian retards, the bridtongchais, teh batisahs, the as-an-asian complaints, the heartthrob hunting, and the JACKPOT DAY! it only happens ocne in a lifetime :) there's so much to share with so little space to tell. i really really miss those times. and how we figured that 214 really means something to you, nya.
to nandra, i miss JIFFEST too much, darl!
(in the theatre)
Filza : oh my god.. she's pregnant..
Nandra : what did she say? what did she say?
Filza : she's pregnant with his baby
Nandra : WHAT? Sick bastard!!
Filza : Nandraaa! shh.
and i miss bule hunting in bali too! remember the basketball-sounded guy? i still remember his face. ahaha. and shopping in ubud, uhuhu.
kalo sariii, belom lama sih kejadian2 pentingnya, ah payah nih. haha. yang pasti, i'm so glad 'sara' is practically demolished out of the story.
naida, michi, yella. i'm speechless, but all i can say is : bananas! ily girls. not to mention, cims. i'm so gonna miss you guys in gr11
ahaha i'm talking as if i'm gonna go abroad any minute now. but i was just remembering :)
its 1. am, school at 6, bye.
to nandra, i miss JIFFEST too much, darl!
(in the theatre)
Filza : oh my god.. she's pregnant..
Nandra : what did she say? what did she say?
Filza : she's pregnant with his baby
Nandra : WHAT? Sick bastard!!
Filza : Nandraaa! shh.
and i miss bule hunting in bali too! remember the basketball-sounded guy? i still remember his face. ahaha. and shopping in ubud, uhuhu.
kalo sariii, belom lama sih kejadian2 pentingnya, ah payah nih. haha. yang pasti, i'm so glad 'sara' is practically demolished out of the story.
naida, michi, yella. i'm speechless, but all i can say is : bananas! ily girls. not to mention, cims. i'm so gonna miss you guys in gr11
ahaha i'm talking as if i'm gonna go abroad any minute now. but i was just remembering :)
its 1. am, school at 6, bye.
sleepies
i ended up doing nothing about bahasa. i just cant concentrate! how stupid -.-
p.s for a couple : marriage? are you cray-zee? we're not even graduated yet. why do u have to commit so much? i dont get you guys. weirdos ew, sorry to say.
p.s for a couple : marriage? are you cray-zee? we're not even graduated yet. why do u have to commit so much? i dont get you guys. weirdos ew, sorry to say.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
second post for the day :D
i actually wanted to discuss something in this post, that might be a long one, but i have so little time, i really have to finish my bahasa task. but one thing i wanna share with you guys is that some of you might know that i used to be in the production of the wiz abt 2 years ago, and in the wiz musical, there's a song called Home. And it is such an amzing song, everytime i sing the song i got goosebumps. and i am not kidding this time. the song was so pure, and i think it meant so much to me i cant even declare it verbally. i dont know why, because the song doesnt really have a realted subject with my life or my stories, however, i felt a certain kind of spiritual connection between me and the song and as the result : goosebumps. it might sound crazy or weird, but it is a fact that i cant deny.
peace out. ciao
peace out. ciao
ellen
the ellen show is getting even more cornier. pagiii btw.
i dont know where my family and i are going today. but i think i need to finish my works first before going out with them. or we'll probably go by tonight. i wanna have lunch actually, with somebody, but people are having plans alr, oh well.
now i can hear my dad asking where to go, and i'm sooo lazy to answer. let him choose la. gtg, i need to finish my chemist hw.
i dont know where my family and i are going today. but i think i need to finish my works first before going out with them. or we'll probably go by tonight. i wanna have lunch actually, with somebody, but people are having plans alr, oh well.
now i can hear my dad asking where to go, and i'm sooo lazy to answer. let him choose la. gtg, i need to finish my chemist hw.
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