300? enough.

weyyowwwwssup? ah men how alay was that.

so i'm sweating rite now, because of the 40-minute-exercise. i was actually told to have a 15-minute one. however, because of my brand of heroine, which is american idol (alah filza sok di dramatisir my brand of heroine) i got to finish 40 minutes without wining or sighs!i burned 300 calories, which was approximately 10% of the meal calories i gained today. ohwell, i gained the healthy-ness? how bout that.

hmm.. what about today ya? today was.. okay. i felt better about drama. now i get it, after a long and winding journey of understanding. haha, i like that phrase. but, i'm not done with it. for some reasons, i might be wrong on how i get the topic, sooo we'll talk abt out later.

tomorrow was supposed to be my day off, and i planned to go to my friends house, ar should i say.. crib, andrew. haha. anyways, and yea, once again, my mom cut the lines and said. but its your dad's day off too, so you might as well spend some time with him, or maybe eat somewhere. well okayy mom. sorry guys, i couldnt come with you.

people are planning to go overseas for the holidays, and guess where i'm going : JOGJAAA! but its just a plan, nothing much to say. i was pleading for taiwan, but my dad laughed. i dont know why, people are like, i wanna go to the states, i wanna go to europe. well i'm not saying its wrong, cus i do have desires to go to those places in june, but i cant, and there's too much reasons for that. but! i'm bored with those options, dude, come on. does anyone ever thought of south america? china? vietnam? without having your parents asking you to or comes from your opinion? i personally love africa, but i know my dad wont let me before i turn 17, i guess. criminality in africa is hell. why not your country? lets sayy, solo. its a nice place, i've never been there or anything, but its really cool from what i heard. and my wishlist of countries to visit this year are :

1. China (taiwan and beijing)
2. Vietnam along with Thailand
3. South America
4. Spain (!) and only spain, not the whole europe (i like the spanish vibe, its soo cool!)
5. Egypt
6. New Zealand (its common, i know. but its just simply nice :)

although its "this year" however i dont like to go to those places in summer. its HOT. besides, i've always love winter vacation, without any exceptions even for NZ. It's really cold in the winter (since the winter is in june), am i rite? well, from what i heard, yes. Spain in the winter is : GORGEOUS! besides, its not too cold and not too hot either (d'uh its winter) and i dont think one of them would happen anyways so, lets just keep dreaming on.

and some cities around indonesia :

1. Jogja and Solo
2. Lombok (not necessarily tho, i wanna get out of beach paradise, its a little boring for me)
3. Irian/Papua (it might sound crazy, but i looooove their art)
4. Aceh (d'uh. i'm acehnese and i've never been there? kinda stupid rite?)

i know aceh is insanely hot, but i think i can take it (for a few days!) and i love shopping in jogja! and solo's not too far away from jogja, so why not?



i hope i can go to one of these places. gtg, shower.

andrew and filza in action

filza : boo!
andrew : hi
filza : loyo amat lo dru
andrew : abis ad yg kegeeran d seblah lo
filza : haha, FIDELAAAAA ADA YANG NGATAIN TUH
fidela : wat??ngatain apaan?SYP??
filza : haha,a ndrew tuh barusan, katanya lo kegeeran
fidela: swt... dasar org yg aneh..
filza : haha dru, dibilang aneh lo haha. dasar bebek andru
andrew: jadi kmaren gw nyuci kolor jula perez abis itu ampe kesurupan
filza : eh jangan sembarang nyuci looo, ada fans nya nanti yang marah loh dru, tuh ada di ruang sebelah lg ngomong.
andrew: si bos serem yaa ntar klo mcm2 disunatlu fi
filza : maksud gue budi dodol. haha.
andrew: budi mahngefansnya ma peter
filza : haha. julia perez matany ZEKSEEEH - mulan jameylah
andrew : lebih sekseee rambutlu ahahahah
filza : yaiyalah gue tau, wignya aja kaga ada. haha.
andrew : haha ok d
* sabar, andrew lg mencari inspirasi keliling*
andrew : hahahahha sorry tadi si jon manggl gw i'll be backkkkk
filza : YAY
andrew: rambutmuseksi itu terbukti dri caramu menyisir rambutmu
yella: geblek sekali anak anak inii...
filza : emang dasar pada ngiri sama rambut gue.



peace out, cims.

hello from school

i'm in this boring IT lesson. and i cant wait to go to business class. i wanna see results

results! results! results!

i was watching keeping up with the kardashians just this morning, and season 2 is getting awesome! robert kardashian is dating adrianne bailon, the cheetah girl. its so cool by how his younger sisters connect with her. and its fun to say "oh my brother is dating a cheetah girl!" haha, okay grow up filza.

i wanna go to vegas! not for party of course, i miss redha like hell. not necessarily stay there for a month, just for a few weeks is fine. and i miss my meadows mall so much. hehe. with him coming home is fine too, at least i get to meet him. but he only has time in december. he gt work on some things, some school things.

heyy, i think i'm in love again, haha. cheap talks. but true, with this "charismatic" person sari said to be. hehe. i'm not in love lah. just... attracted :)

andrew says : and andrew is watching you writing this blog

yea yea, its pretty boring here, i feel like committing suicide any minute now. (yea, like that's gonna happen) kidding!


gtg, some logbook stuff with crazy tima.

nice job for the pain!

i dont know what's prong with people these days. especially the ones i know. they started to crawl onto my body, and let me down in a snap. i just realized that you are a little mean.

tima is a pain in the ass man, i never ever had to write pages of logbook.




gtg, sorrow is waiting.

words for anya

nya, its okay. we're still right where we are now. be patient, honey. the time will come. i know u miss it so much, i do too. u 'll never lose us even tho we're sooo far from you. besides, i'm still next to you right? if u need anything i'll be at school or bintaro, or msn :) i promise there will be the time of the 3 of us, again. maybe now he's a kind of invisible, but he's not dead anya. everything will come right back at you, now u cant have them, later on, its all yours. i love you guys like my brother and sister. recapitulating is fine, just be patient, and dont let it gets into your head too much. that's what people said to me all the time :) be okay, alr?



so much love, filza.

title

sunday afternoon is a good start for a learning session. i'm gonna read laskar pelangi, which i have not finish until now. and last night, i was remembering the times of last year, which anya mention earlier. yea, i do miss those, nya. but as i said : we'll get to that again, i promise. the times we went thru was amaaaaazing. i cant believe we were so insanely "loud". the 3 of us has history, and we just cant wait for the future.

i'm sorry i was being too dramatic, but that's the way it was.


i gtg read lp. my mom will go nuts if she found the book "un-finished" by tonight.

Saturday morning, and the rain aint fallin'.... THANK YOU!

i was suppose to go t join some service team, even tho i was not recieving any command, but i just wanna do it. however, i promised my mom to go to inacraft exh, with her. and so, i wasnt allowed.

hey new layout, tell me what u think.



ciao~

good!

morning guys. today's a holiday for binus, and i'm enjoying every single minute.

yesterday's my friend zack's birthday! he just turn 16 HAPPY BIRTHDAY ZACK

so i'm going for a quality time with my mom.



gtg take a shower. bye

words

maaf kalo akhir-akhir ini saya pelit banget nulis post. bukan karena saya kurang tertarik lagi untuk nge-post. tapi akhir akhir ini perasaan saya campur aduk. ngga usah ngomong tulis, untuk ngerasain saja udah susah, ngomong apalagi. ya, pulang dr hwa chong memang ada perubahan. dirumah, saya masih ngga tahu mau apa. nonton tv g tertarik lagi, surfing males, paling komunikasi sama teman. chatting atau telfon lah. tp dengan itu saya jd ngga belajar. breaches saya jd numpuk, kerja ngga maksimal. belom lagi tuntutan keluarga untuk nilai dan segala macamnya lah. soo, thx for reading, i really appreciate it.

i feel like a donkey

4.0

so i called my brother this morning, and he was pretty surprised by the score and my memory card is locked! i dunno wat happened, it just happened!

oyea, and this guy i like, he makes me feel, urgghh. i'm not happy.


gtg, mountainous homewokrs.

macaron-ee

watching west side story, it's kinda boring at the beginning.

i have an essay assignment, for BAHASA. oyea, tomorrow, report card's being distributed. my bahasa score is a pain in the ass.

gtg, i'm lazy

HCI

i'm home, baby, i'm home.

so fo the last 7 days, i've spent my time in singapore for an immersion program in hwa chong. it was faaaaaaaaaaaaantastic! i met new friends, i learn new things, do crazy things, experience unusual stuff, etc.

i'm speechless. one by one i'll tell ya the story. i left my heart in hwa chong, haha. but its true ;)

tough luck

masyaallah filzaaaa. ok, so there's something wrong with my ipod, and i cannot see my music in there!! omg some freakin idiotic program made it to my ipod and congratulations for making my day plus my flight a little more BORING. well i have another 2GB MP3, which i cant live with, i mean, i can only listen to 100 songs, which make sense cus i never really listen to more than 100 songs in a single day.


okay, now, i'm fine with it.

gtg, there's some good movie in star world. uhhh, finally.

more drama

yesterday, i had an audition for "the crucible" and i audition for the role Rebecca. She's like, this good girl, and most of the time, the girls audition for Abigail, the evil one. Abby is evil, and for me, i really have to know the character really well (for evils) then i can act it out. but for rebecca, she's a typical southern girl, who wants to have peace. who knows, i might get abigail, but i was not hoping for it tho. However, after my audition, mr.c asks, "It's susanna rite?" and i said "no, rebecca." and i'm afraid, he put me for susanna which i didn't want to be. whoa



gtg jogging. bye

at last

in the past 3 days i feel like i was diagnosed with bipolar, but in fact i'm not. bipolar is wayy tragic. but i'm okay now. i didn't go for a jog with my parents cause i just wanna stay home and do stuff. probably lay back and watch tv.

i'm going to singapore on monday, it's pretty good, i didn't get to shop or anything on the first 5 days, but i will. at least i get out of binus territory. sorry mr.peter

speaking of mr.peter, he just had a birthday yesterday, happy birthday mr. peter. and there's some kind of celebration in every teacher's lounge. everybody's eating cakes, but i dont have the appetite, sorry.

i need some loud music, gotta search on it. seeya

hey guys, i think i have nothing to cheer me up right now.


stress, and cold.






bye.

a day in the life

for binusians, i know this morning i was real sucky. that's because something was getting over my head. i was not pissed on anyone, even tho i'm kinda pissed too. but you guys should know that i wouldn't hate anyone for no reason.

soo back to my daily life, i fail bahasa. i didnt tell my mom, although, i already told her, like, everything. except for my bahasa result. i even fail in my summary grade. i was not expecting a good result in bahasa, that's why.


i'm making my movie, and i'm pretty sad about it. i dont feel like i did my best. maybe because i couldnt think about an inspiring idea. i'm sad because i didn't do my best, i feel embarrassed, i feel stupid. this is something i love, i truly love. it's just been ruined. i just want people to know that i'm not that enthusiastic in movie making anymore. even to do it, i wanna cry sometimes. i didnt have the ability to ignore some criticism regarding something i love. i had a dream to be a trailer maker - a person who creates trailer of a movie. but i dont think i still want it. maybe in my deepest mind i said i would, but i would think again. they say talent shows in a young age, and now, i discovered that i dont have any talent in that particular area. i know my friends would just say "come on, it's just a thought" well, no it isn't.


sorry for wasting your time reading this. it's just that, shit happens in my life, and i cant avoid writing about it.