treat me right ;p

alah filza kayak punya pacar aja minta treat me right, haha. it was a backstreet boys song, omg. it blew me away. JC chasez (he's the n sync guy btw) created it. love it, simple but u can dance with it.

anyways, today i had a creepy day. somethings getting into my head AGAIN. but i dont really care so much. my mom gave some advices while we're in the car. it calms me down in a snap of a finger.

today i went to senayan city with sonia yella and the stuffed animal. gak penting deh filza bonekanya. but the doll is super comfie, u couldnt let go of it. we went there to search for our drama mask task (wow it rhymes) we found it, since we were told where to get it. but FINALLY WE GOT IT. after a few shopping center-wide (haha, that is corny, shopping center-wide) search for the masks.

for drama, there were a few "controversy" today in drama class, if u havent notice. someone tried to take control. because it was not my part anymore (i meant my scene) daripada saya ngurus omongan orang, i helped mr.c create the tremendously beautiful lyre for orpheus. those beads are fantastic, mr.c! jadinya, hari ini yang ketumpahan malah yella. jengkel sepanjang homeroom dan sepulang sekolah, sebenernya sudah sejak pagi, but i tried to calm her down.

hades.. fabulous!

watever fi. peace out

OHMYGOD, we're back!

BACKSTREET BOYS CONCERT WAS FUCKIN AWESOME! i went there yesterday with my #3 retardos. we struggled all the way thru the gates, but it was all worth the price (i got it cheap tho). sooooo we waited 3 frikkin hours for the guys to go in, yella bilang: "gile, ini backstreet boys ngaret sejam". first, they came out with custom-made costumes, inpired by the film ROCKY, as told by a website. it was cool, but not as cool as the LEATHER JACKET. the motorcycle jacket was grrrrreat! surprisingly, they put stronger by kany west in the song larger than life, it was over the top.

they were wearing hood at first, the moment HOWIE open his, MY JAWS DROPPED AS I STARED AT HIM. i never thought that he's that cute. however, their solo performances, AJ RULE THE WHOLE SONG, he nailed the song. it was like rock n roll, and he showed his sex appeal, haha. he shook his butt (well not shake, but one of those butt movements when u go around, yeah that) it was so sexy omg. THE CLIMAX OF MY HAPPINESS IS WHEN I SANG WITH BRIAN LITTRELL. me and yella are the only ones who knows the song welcome home and so at the second reff, i scream and sang, and he was looking to my eyes and point out on me!! my god SOMEONE finally noticed me, hehe. it doesnt really matter sih if he notice me, i just want to sing with him one on one. aww. alah filza.

the best performance is shape of my heart, the last song. they were awwwweeeesoooome.


kudos to backstreetboys. i am totally in love with you guys.

BEEEZOEKK

in the past 3 days, i've been working for the binus cup committee as the supporting committee. kena marah, emte2an, bitching (bitching is kinda liche for moi) we've been thru. and so is the binus team loss. i know that there's more to come, but so far, we have seen a few loss. its not like i dont give a shit about losing, but it's not a big deal for me. plus, people who doesn't know about doing "work!" and "tough luck" is a pain in the ass for me. so the thing is like this. if you just hanging around, talking shits. u cant be promoted, loser. maybe i've done some mistakes in the past, BUT nothing compares to this. i'm being told to do so, u're not even called. i wouldnt do that if i were you, we dont have any power. now u're complaining. this business isn't fair young lady, nothings fair in this world. mikir dong, bego lu. (maaf kasar, saya emang mau bilang gt). kalo mau jadi presiden, sana bilang kaya lo bisa aja. geblek, tai. hari ini gue udh coba baik ya sm lo, kalo gt caranya gmau lagi gue sm lo, pegi aja lo brengsek.

mulai sekarang saya bakal curahkan semuanya pada blog. mungkin serita ke seseorang, tapi tidak agresif. saya ngga mau jd provokator hanya karna menyebut nama diluar sana, maupun disini. disini lebih efisien, jadi saya ngga mau sebut nama. saya juga akan bilang kalo org itu ga bisa baik2 juga.

yaudalah, enuf for today, thx for reading, guys.

beg for freedom

i was thinking about my life recently.

and i notice something far from what i was thinking all these years:

i have not waste a single minute of my life.

maybe, once thought that i was wasting my time, maybe i did waste a certain time from my past point of you. just like what grown-ups say "suatu kejadian pasti ada hikmahnya".

sebego-begonya saya ngurusin hidup saya. semarah-marahnya orang tua kepada saya, sebenci-bencinya teman terhadap saya. i always know that it's not the end of the world. there must be more to come. it was just a challenge that God made you in order to teach you how to become a better person. and i believe that.

saya memang kadang merasa sesal itu di hati saya. di pikiran saya, selalu ada kata-kata "fi, ngapain sih lo ....." tapi cepat atau lambat, selanjutnya saya akan tau semua dibalik kesalahan itu.

i'm not a psychologist neither wanting to be one. but if this helps, i'm happy. gudnite =)

busy busy busy busy banget!

believe it or not, my title is cinta laura's quotes.

cinta laura is sooooo HOT rite now. if u're reading this cinta laura, BINUSIANS LOVE YOU.
so back to my life. these days i had bad days, i kept getting mad on everybody, i'm sorry guys, kalo lo kena marah gue, hehe. but i really mean it, u guys know who u r, so i dont have to mention names.

i'm getting sick and sick of my frikkin glasses. my mom promise me another one, i lost my black-with-hot-red-at-the-back, it's so hot. TSSSSSST.

I WANT SNEAKERS. but not necessarily be granted sih. cuman pengen ajah.


now, i'm into short posts. i'm too fabulous to write long posts. hehe, buhbye

just hope and hope and hope

ok so the plan's like this. i begged my mom, showed her everything good from me (like my math quizzes, omg) aaaaand she said she'll help me explain to my dad about the concert. yay! but i am quilty of what i did, not quilty, at least i did realize that what i did is not good for me and for my sake. i do think i deserve to be mad at. soo, here goes the lesson.

today in school was okay, bad thing happened cos I LOST MY CHEMIST BOOK IN THE BIO LAB. but i still have hope, maybe mr.lloyd took the things left in his class. so i gtg check. tomorrow is the best day, i mean, i dont have bahasa, math, OR science tomorrow (see, responsibility paid my greatness). BUT, it'll be my first duty roaster toms. aand, its kinda embarrasing, and poor you know, knowing that some people wont listen to you. so probably i'll stay put and relax a little.

i'll see ya, need to work on my drama assignment. dadah

kesel

aaaaaaaaaa, my dad g ngebolehin pergi!

aduuuh padahal kan ud beli tikeeet. kan g enak sm yg lain


oh maan, aduh please daddy please daddy!!
just one more chance then i can go!

please, my friend. if u cant go i cant go =(

some joke(s).

these are jokes from different categories. effin' funny.


gay joke.

There was this man who walked into a bar and says to the bartender 10 shots of whiskey.

The bartender asks, "What's the matter?"

The man says, "I found out my brother is gay and marrying my best friend."

The next day the same man comes in and orders 12 shots of whiskey.

The bartenders asks, "What's wrong this time?"

The man says, "I found out that my son is gay."

The next day the same man comes in the bar and orders 15 shots of whiskey.

Then the bartender asks, "Doesn't anyone in your family like women?"

The man looks up and says, "Apprently my wife does."



corny joke.

A guy walks in for his interview.
The interviewer asks, "Whats the first thing you notice about me?"

The guy responds, "Why, You don't have any ears."

Interviewer: "Get out! Send in the next guy."

2nd guy walks in for his interview.

The interviewer asks, "Whats the first thing you notice about me?"

The guy responds, "Why, You don't have any ears."

Interviewer: "Get out! Send in the next guy."

This guy on the way out says to the 3rd guy "What ever you do, don't say anything about his not having any ears - He'll kick you right out."

3rd guy walks in for his interview.

The interviewer asks, "Whats the first thing you notice about me?"

The guy looks at the interviewer intently for a few seconds and responds, "Why, you wear contact lenses don't you."

The interviewer says, "That's impressive that you're so observant. How could you tell I wear contact lenses?"

3rd guy "Because you don't have any damn ears to hang glasses on."


blonde joke.

A blonde was sick and tired of people making fun of her for being a blonde, so she decided to hang herself.

A couple minutes later two men walk by and see her hanging by her wrists.

"What are you doing." they ask her.

So she replies "Hanging myself."

The men are confused and asked "If you are hanging youself, you put the rope around your neck."

The blond says "Duh....I tried that, I couldn't breath."




tell me wat u think. tag!

home alone

i didnt go anywhere today, i'm so bored, but different kind of boredom, like a good boredom, not like i-would-love-to-kill-someone-now-cus-i'm-bored boredom. yea, u get whatta mean.

i'm doing my chemist homework, that's kinda cool

shooting things around my room, that's kinda cool too

what's not cool : nothing to watch. (that's hell a lot of uncoolness, wtf fie?!)

yea yea, say what ever you want, but please prioritize what u need to say.
i hate when someone says something unnecessary and even worst, corny.

what i realize tady is that my slumber mask is very2 useful for this kind of circumstances. you know, when i dont know what to do or what to expect which leads me to my brain. so basically, i have absolutely nothing to think about. kay? so no guys (or girls, ew) or friends, or any kind of thoughts to think about.

maybe taking a nap for a few seconds (or minutes, or hours, or days..) would be good.



see ya, i dont wanna be ya (back off, losers)






i'm so mean.






kidding! i love you guys (the ones who read my blog, my love ain't cheap!)

the best valentine's day ever

today lots of things happened.

1. today's my mom's birthday HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA! i love you =)

2. today's valentine's day, i had 4 chocolates i guess, thank you! (i'm sorry, tadi cuma bagi-bagi permen)

3. my daddy is home! some treasure-ing baggage, haha.

however, i have some news that makes me go "urrgh"

1. today was the induction of prefects, it's kinda weird (sorry mr.peter) to be inducted in front of the student body. it was not going very well, first, but getting better later time.

2. i didnt get anything other than the camcorder, but i do ask for one of those perfumes. tp at least i got the thingy. and i got some free aigner body lotion & lip gloss from the plane (complimentary), yay daddy! i'm a brandwhore, let's face it. haha. i'm kidding, but i am a little BIT.

i skipped breakfast! it is actually a good news, i wanted to skip breakfast so bad, i did only once in my life. but i survived! yay, i didnt eat much today.

and another one is a bad news comes from my bro. unfortunately he was taken to the hospital, because of the car accident. he was okay, but soon after the accident, his heart was pumping so fast, and hospitalized for a few days. it was yesterday, and we got the news this afternoon. his car was real bad. i mean, he was crushed(or hit) by a trooper! a frikkin big car. and his is a toyota corona, a small car. cepet sembuh ya bang.

i gtg now, take a shower. BYE PEEPS

gastro strikes

dari mulai di jalan pulang, maag saya kambuh. saya makan spaghetti CABE dari sekolah, dan memang dari pagi saya sudah makan yang pedas2 sih, tapi biasanya nggak sampe sakit. saya melilit, sudah gitu, hari ini facial day. saya nangis tadi di tempat facial, trus sekarang saya kayak kucing kena cacar. haha.

dr jam 5 les terus, wow. kimia terus matematika. saya jadi suka sekali kimia, wow. it's so easy in a way, but complicated. hafalan nggak begitu banyak, tapi matematika nggak usah mikir kyk physics. yang pasti, itu adalah pelajaran, yang saya bisa ambil dengan serius! yea filza.

saya ngga tau besok, muka saya brewokan bengkak dimana-mana. udah besok ada suatu kejadian dimana saya harus berdiri didepan BANYAK orang. haduh, pusing.


eww, just now, i saw nicky tirta in some tv show. how sick, gtg. i need to lay down!

dizzih

saya lagi bingung cari pelajaran apa yang harus diambil. karena setiap pelajarn yang saya pilih pasti ada sesuatu yang membuat itu tidak bisa diambil. saya nggak mau perpanjang ;)

i need my vcam!



i want it so bad i cant say a thing abt it. so gudbye, i'm soo tired.

hey sistah! (and brothers)

i just woke up, waiting for acha to get up. i'm going for breakfast like, in half an hour now. 2 days ago i went to nandra's party, and it was awesome! movies at subtitles = in-credible! thx for everything nan =)

yesterday i went to erha, to check on my facial condition, i suppose. bodohnya, saya pencet2 dulu lagi, those komedos or whatever you call it in english sampai merah2. trus dimarain sama dokter saya, well not literally angry, but keep telling me in a soft and delicant way. (please fi)

gtg, boredom awaits

me!

i need some shopping bag!

the thing i bought cant fit the papers!


please figure it out by yourself. peace.

bagelen mini

saya baru lihat inovasi baru, dan riset baru! ternyata, bagelen ukuran kecil, membuat orang lebih lahap untuk makan bagelen, dengan itu, tidak capek makan bagelen, haha.

saya baru pulang dari rumah nenek, tadi ketemu nayang. omgggggggg! lucunya nggak ketulungan. tadi dya main di atas perut saya, yaampun, ternyata berat juga. kemarin saya menyadari sesuatu. saya agak salut sama pak ogah atau yang juga diebut polisi gadungan atau apalah, pokoknya anak-anak muda (atau tua) yang sering mengatur mobil di pertigaan atau perempatan. mereka itu jago juga. bisa loh jadi polisi. tapi biasanya orang-orang tersebut pengangguran yang sering mangkal di jalan. walaupun begitu, saya salut pada mereka.

tapi, saya paling suka sama pemulung.

1. mereka nggak peduli, kerjanya ngangkut sampah.

2. mereka membantu membersihkan sampah di jalan, terutama sampah plastik! untuk diolah lagi.

3. walaupun itu kerjaan kotor, jangan salah, pemulung bisa melebihi gaji karyawan toko perhari!

dan, menurut saya, hanya orang pintar yang mengerti itu semua. mungkin diantara mereka ada yang putus sekolah, tidak waras, atau mungkin terpaksa melakukannya karena mereka harus makan. tapi niat mereka membuahkan hasil. bila anda penah dengar, ataupun menonton salah satunya di acara kick andy, ada seorang kepala sekolah di sebuah daerah yang memerlukan biaya untuk istrinya yang divonis kanker pada otak, dan iapun rela untuk menjadi pemulung sebelum berangkat ke tempat kerjanya tersebut. ia isi waktunya hanya dengan bekerja, dan tidak malu akan apa kata orang lain. di mata saya, orang orang seperti itu mempunyai derajat tinggi yang tersendiri dikarnakan kerja keras demi orang yang dicintainya walaupun pekerjaan sampingannya dianggap "kotor" oleh publik.

ciao!

morning sunshine!

mygodd, i slept thru the movie last night. now, i'm going to my granny's house. aaa so lazy, but i'm excited to my oh-so-cute cousin!

p.s: wilhelmina has a hostile womb! yeah. i watched ugly betty last night, it was awesome!




gtg, the car's waiting. ciao

bubba bubba

maaan i have a bunch of homeworks. and i'm sooo tired. its kinda fun cus today we got to study at the back yard. although we gain a caught a lot of fresh air, i think something bit me. an ant would be one. i cant find the spot, but it hurts!

i'm getting bored. i'll write later, gudbye!

weyoooow

this is like.. what? 6 in the morning? maaan, my mom made me get up horribly!

my dad is packing, yeap he always pack immediately a few hours before going to the airport. i'm so tired, but i cant sleep! i always do that, that is why, never make a wake up call on your daughters unless there is a fire or a plane to catch!

i'm back to sketching, i just bought a small sketchbook that is very "COOL" and useful too! it's fun just to doodle, am i ryte?

anya : it's okay beb, i just need the support, and i love you for that! thank you anya <3


gtg, i need some "me" moments in recovery of the wake up shock!

mooooo

filza is sketching cheap stuff. haha, figure that out.

man, i'm tired baby!

wuihh udah capeknya kayak apa. dari pagi jam 8 udah makan, papa ulang taun, jadinya breakfast di lotus, karena papa ada meeting jam 10. lucu, nggak lucu juga sih, cuman tadi pagi papa saya bilang "ini buburnya kok kebanyakan air ya? tolong ya bilangin.." menurut saya nothing wrong, tapi memang sih, pas sudah mau habis, sisa air banyak gitu. yasud lah.

off to carrefour.
saya paling malas ke carrefour. memang nyaman, tapi yang dilhat itu-itu saja. carrefour itu pengelola gedung, sedangkan toko2 nya hanya numpang. sedangkan giant, dya itu hanya salah satu pembeli besar POINS, dan sisanya juga sama, dan bisa cuci mata lagi! in my case cuci mata itu artinya melihat dvd sekitar. haha.

sebelum itu papa telfon, suruh beli jaket winternya dia di pim 2. yasudah, ke pim2. tapi tokonya belum buka! mau apa lagi, masa tunggu besok? tunggu lah kita, muter2. toko pun buka..

sudah ketemu, telfon papa. dya bilang ke mama saya "saya lihat dulu deh di tempat lain, kamu standby aja disitu, tapi saya meeting dulu. jadi sekitar 2 jam-an lagi, jalan2 aja" SABAR FI, SABAAAR..

waktu berlalu..

sudah makan, pake ke pim1 segala lagi, yasudah saya sekalian cari kado. muka sudah mulai pucat (nggak juga sih) capek banget rasanya. akhirnya papa telfon, suruh beli sekarang, YAY!

akhirnya diambil juga, saya lihat knitwear warna hitam, bagus banget! diskon 70% lagi! jarang-jarang ketemu gituan disini. minta mama, pertama-pertamanya mama udah mikir, i believe that she was going to say yes, but guess what? she refused to say yes! (in my opinion)
alasannya : "kamu kan udah beli gituan yang warna putih fii"
saya : "yaampun maa, itu kan beda bahannya, lagian yang ini kan lebih bagus, lagian kan aku pake terus"
mama saya ; "sama aja fi, kamu udah berapa kali beli gituan, disini kan indonesia, ngga ada winter"

aduuuh, padahal itu bukan kaos. kalo saya nggak suka beli kaos, jujur saja. saya lebih suka beli turtle neck atau sweater, kemana-mana bisa dipakai, dan lebih appropriate, coba ada bapak. pasti boleh :( i'm such a spoiled brat ;p but FYI, i'm not that spoiled actually. i know when i'm buying stuff too much, and in fact, these days i'm not spending too much money on things. but i have to with this one! just this particular item, mommy! i want it so bad i can hardly breathe (haha, kidding)

hari ini saya sudah nggak mau keluar-keluar lagi. nanti malem saya mau les matematika, takutnya kejadian minggu lalu terulang lagi, jangan deh.


i'll talk to ya in 24 hours, seeya!

special assembly

banjir di ibukota

saya ada emergency assembly, atau kata halusnya special assembly, tadi sebelum pulang sekolah. semua siswa dipulangkan just to prevent the traffic that was assumed to be so bad at later hours. saya pulang sama ariani, and now i 'm watching forbes list of the rich under 25,well not exactly but something like that. they're superactors, no doubt abt it.

hari ini saya lagi kesel banget, i feel so annoyed by this boy. that certain person always make jokes or should i say nonsense yang buat orang sakit hati. saya sudah coba sabar, tapi lama-lama saya nggak tahan.

tomorrow's my dad's birthday, mungkin akan pergi sampai sore. sore saja karena matematika tak sabar menunggu saya. i dont mind actually, it's my duty.


saya harus turun, mama tunggu lama. sampainanti ;)