my dad told me to stay in A2 HL. idk if i have to be sad or happy. i just dont want my future to get worse.

anyway, today is an off day for me cus... im just.... off today. i just wanna dance.

oh and i dont really know about this. but i'm not that free, like i cant rly go on a night out unless im having a sleepover. sometimes i just need that atmosphere, loud music and the dance floor. but i cant. and nowadays ive been recapitulating my old dancing days. and by practicing a lot, i didnt feel that much need of going out. my room is pretty small, but its enough for practicing everyday.

ive been dancing since i was 5, although i dont attend formal classes much, i take dances off videos, and mimic them until i got it right. and if i dont, i'll be so mad. i'll be sweaty AND mad. i began watching old center stage and grease long time ago and adore ballet. so i mimic lyrical/theatrical dances off tv. but im no good compare to hip hop dancers. im zero. but i dont care what people think, cus i do this to satisfy myself. and im satisfied.

i think thats a step ahead.

i just need to do theatre. i just have to do it before i die.

BATSY WON :D;D;D;DD HAPPYYY

i was watching with anya, comment and complaint a lot on those malaysian singers.. and it went down to taufik and hadyyy omg i was psyched batsy is finally here :D:D:D and he won too! he was best dressed for the night. well after him, it was bcl's malaysian hubby. he's cute too.

anya had no choice but voting for AFGAN. altho she dislikes him. afganisme, ew please. anyway, i told odi that if he happen to bump into batsy, please send my regards. and it was a joke, i mean yeah. BUT HE SERIOUSULY DID OMG OMG OMG TAUFIK GOT MY REGARDSSSSS

odi: "my friend filza is a huge friend of yours"
batsy: "haha thx where is she now?"
odi: "she's not here bla bla bla (i dont really know)"
batsy: "oh thats too bad.."
*odi ran*

OMG I DONT CARE I LOVE YOU BATSYYYYYYYYYYY THX ODI THE BEST MAN IN THE WORLD

anya and i were fighting last night about stuff, but ends up with LMAO-ing our own selves. it was fun. we were waiting for the best artist award and i was like "TAUFIKKKKKK" cheesy : "AFGAAAAAN MASGAAANNN" gross. but it turns out that siti won. tough luck. she is good. i just hope batsy won.

its like. once he's here, im not there to watch. so i have to go all the way to singapore to watch taufik cus his fanbase is so tiny here. argh fugg you people with less broad creative knowledge

my speech went really good ytd. i stumbled upon the second half ONCE only. but ms elsie & peter said it was excellent and im really happy cus this is my first speech appreciated by the principal weeheeeee. BUT i wore the wrong earrings. its too big peter said. -.- so he said he'll make it as an example of unnecessary accessories which peter told me to bring. haha ok then i said. but my HAIR is a good example. i can hear YOU SENIORS, bad seniors, laughing over it hahaha i love you friends. it'll always be the trademark of out batch :D

ok im very smelly. shall go to bath.

filza loves batsy.

OMG DADDY MAKE UP YOUR MIND. ytd was transcript request form day and i'm only 70% sure that im going to nevada. AIYAAA :(

its so sad to know that after graduation you'll be thrown out to the desert and study. :'( haha anyway i'm just kidding. IB exams are coming, and im aiming for 36 hahahah please. but idk i just hope so, cus im downgrading my total weaknesses like bio and, well not so much english, cus i downgraded english cus i have no choice. stupid bio. if i didn fail bio i could stay in A2. but nonetheless i can feel slightly painless. so yeah. just that bahasa is still my weakness even tho im in sl. and i think thats it. business is fine, math is fine, itgs.... i can work on it.

the bombings were very dissapointing. and it was a suicidal bomb. SO FUCKIN STUPID if you wanna get yourself killed, get yourself hung. DO NOT BOMB PLACES MORON -.- and we were dismissed earlier ytd, although i kinda watch harry potter at 3.30. oh and speaking of harry, THE MOVIE WAS DISSAPOINTING AS WELL. god knows why. TOTALLY DISSAPOINTED. as a fan. so DONT DIE FOR IT IF YOU HAVE NOT WATCHED. gaaaaaaah

oh ytd icha sonia and i got the number of one of the popcorn stall guy HAHAHAHHAHA we were chatting and joking around and icha was kidding about NUMBERS. but then he was like "SUREEE" and we were like "icha......................." and well he said we cud order movies from him. like hp, the driver was ordering tickets for us while we were in school hahahahah so that makes it a lot easier. besides hes cool i guess :/ ew

haha so just got home from breakfast with mummmm and shopping with mummmm which was quite a funny experience shopping in the morning. so i'll see you laterrrr

Filzaa says (7:32 PM):
aku jg close kok temperaturnya
anya says (7:32 PM):
takutnya lebih dr 38
anya says (7:32 PM):
kamu 37?
anya says (7:32 PM):
37 mah normal
Filzaa says (7:32 PM):
35
anya says (7:32 PM):
aku cek ah
anya says (7:32 PM):
ITU JAUH DODOL
Filzaa says (7:32 PM):
oh gitu ya

hihiii i love chezyyyy

SCHOOL'S TOMORROW! STOKED :D

i cant wait to see my friends :D omg

ok orientation today was not bad. the new kids are very shy. but we'll see tomorrow.

ok speech on friday. i havent prepared. serious.

ive beend ancing for cas camp and for myself lately. change songs and moves for the 1897234th time. and i think i have to give an easier, and publicised, routine for the newborns. so yeah. my feet hurts SO BAD. serious.

kangen yongkiiiiiii!

IM DONE WITH DAD'S WORK. very happy, veeery happy.

so he's leaving in supposedly half an hour. but until now, he hasnt even taken any bath. and i doubt that he'll be late, cus he'll be super late.

oh the reason that i wanna post is that I FOUND A GREAT VENUE FOR GATHERING IN KEMAAANG. ok i know kemang has every space filled with cafes, but this is super cute. it has a stage and stagelights and band kits for us to rent! together with the place, and they only have sofas with pillows and bears. really, a great arisan place. haha. and they have an outdoor too. the only problem is, it is together with an apple store -.- so u'll be seeing those macs and ipods while hanging out with your friends. haha. its not on my toplist but we'll definitely have to check it outtt.

lets go to pepenero for lunch on tuesday, anyone?

oooheyyy. I'M SO BORED. i'm like, downloading indo songs FOR MY DAD. cus he doesnt listen to my stuff. and i have to wait to put it in his ipod and i like doing it simultaneously, as in the downloading, otherwise it'll burst, i guess :/ he's going on a business trip this afternoon, and yet i could only put songs NOW. ytd ive no time, besides the laptop's not in my room nymore. oh i think i slept during titanics D= oh well. i'll watch it later. anyway, yes, this takes TOOOOOOO long. but he begged me, for it is a long flight for him. so i'll be kind

shopping with my daddy never gets any better weeeheeeee

ok so.............. school in 3 days. i have a packed meeting scheds for next week, starting TOMORROW. and i'll be going to school i guess so it means I GET TO MEET TEACHERS oh i miss them SO MUCH. i think i miss them more than my friends. haha kidding babes. my teachers ARE my friends (well not all of them, i cant miss all of them) so ya'll are equall.

i have to be serious next semester, like, really.

ok i'll post later again. see you

i like this image

i was always fascinated with the jackson 5. but seeing MJ died, i wasn't all weepy weepy. i just have to keep to myself that his music will always be in our hearts.

when i was born and start liking the jackson 5 when i was like... 11, or 12? i cant remember. but i do know that it was sad knowing that they dont exist anymore when i'm alive. started when i started to play disney dance dance revolution and my brother bought his first playstation when he was 14-15. and "i want you back" was on the mickey stage! and so i got to listen to it on the radio and i was like "cool!" ok weird.

anyway, then i'll be there and more hits came to my head. i loved it. and i still do now.

never been so much of a fan of michael. sorry. i just listen to heal the world and we are the world cus i'm concerned about poverty.

ok so. im going to the gym any minute now. no actually any hour. i have to buy dad's jeans. wonder why not mine -.-

silet has been discussing mj forever! gah, im so sick. even US channels are showing the memorial once. silet is a gossip show. why bother -.-

so school next week! stoked.

i voted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

haha i was so excited this morning, u cant tell. its so fun voting. i hate the day tho, its so empty, and slow. and the house is so quiet and stuff. and shin's leaving :( thx for the sms sorry i forgot to text this morning :(

anyway, i wanna go out with mom, maybe later. i called my uber sexy dairy product today, CHEESY. haha anya, she was like "hello?" "I VOTEDD!!" hahhaha be jealous 16-year-olds lol
oh and people overseas, u cud vote with your passports. how fun :D

so today im so lazy, AND STRESSED. i cant blv i actually have important works to do these days, life didnt get any better as you get older.

you guys should watch renee olstead's rendition of chaka khan's through the fire! its THAT good! omg and i cant find in anywhere on youtube. sucks to be you :( buy the dvd, i promise it'll be worth it.

oh and duff's new movie "what goes up" SUCKS ASS. srs, do not ever buy it. its downright boring. and sickening. ugh

batsy is going to APM 2009 here in jakarta :D omggg i wanna watch but idk howwwwww. BATSYYYY IS COMIN TO TOWN :D

lets go to the movies peeps. sorry i cant go to dinner last time. lets have a nother one next week. loveyous.

BUH BYEEEEEE

hello there... the angel of my nightmare. :D

ok my mom just went grocery shopping and i can hear her being busy with her stuff. i dont wanna get involved. haha.

im lazy. lazy.lazy.

see you

this was over a year ago, a week before i turn 16. before i change.

my mom said i changed a lot as i grow up, and that is not maturity.

i'll try mom.

oh btw, shes okay now. my dad too i guess. and my bro, he's just... what he is. so idgaf.
i wanna start a new page this year, and i guess i'll start that next week when school starts.

ok, i need to tell you guys, how THE SECRET LIFE OF BEES turned my world around ytd. the movie was awesome. and so as hes just not into you. it is a wake up call. changes how i think :) so i guess i'll stop here, ive been having stomach ache since 4 pm and its not over till now. the meeting today was fun. cant wait to see you guys next week. ciao.

uuu i miss you girls, i miss the drama. hahahaha no i miss the dance :D

alright, i wanna blog everyday now.

toefl and SAT in daytime
read novels nighttime.

nice! =) haha well, i think its quite fun reading indonesian literature, never really find it interesting until i tried reading the books for the summer. argenteuil, a novel by N.H.Dini. i think the front part is okay-ly boring. but i'll see, i mean its only the first quarter of the book.

school has given a book of short stories by A.A.Navis, and i have read only 2 short stories out of the whole book. on the plane. haha, imho it didnt wow me. i love short stories but idk for this one. i guess the spice that makes reader's piece of curiosity is the first parts of a short story book. RIPIN was great because the first short story of the book is awesome. and i think that really drives me to read a lot more of the book. as for this one, idk, but so far, not a good one for me.

i'm halfway through reading my EE books. well, a quarter away actually. or less. i just have to finish wicked, then i'm done. but im still not sure, after reading the color purple, its pretty different from what i heard. in reviews, it is always about sexual exploitation and yada yada yada, but its only like, 40% of the book. the rest was different. perhaps oprah's book club wasnt that attentive =/ oh well, i cant blame the entire world.

i seriously think you guys shud read it tho, its SO GOOD.

so unexpected, thus it wont bore you, at leas the ending wudnt. yes, it bored the hell out of me in the first few but it was an amazing, amazing book. wicked was rather... okay. but it's unique, that's why. you know what, try reading both books.

oh and after you finish, dont forget to help me with my EE. hahahaha

WHICH REMINDS ME. i havent touched any schoolwork this holiday :p i wanna focus on SAT and toefl, but i guess i have to start tomorrow.
well, my EE, im reading it. i havent done the outline, nor the RQ haha but imma finish the book first.
BUSINESS IA.
im gonna move to HL later, so i have to get malourd's consent first ayyt. i guess thats it.
the rest will just probably study bio and study TOK. well you cant really STUDY TOK but at least learning how to analyse THEORY OF KNOWLEDGE is important due to the needs of passing IB. i just need it >.<

since cable was plugged out of my room. nowadays......... I WATCH INDO SINETRONS 0.0 dont ask, it was a sucky entertainment. although some episodes are quite good. well last night i watched 'dewi' and luna maya got preggered by this other guy and the kid is mentally disabled so her servant 'adopted' the kid for her. and she pushed the kid in frnt of everyone so she'll stop calling her mom.

very dramatic. well not so much trust me haha

oh and i watched son of the mask too. the baby was cute. thats all i can say. the rest are just too... lebay. although alan cummings was there. and thats the best part about it. i love alan cummings, even though he looks gay but in a scary way. he's very theatrical.

no comment on the presidential debate, i would rather talk about it face to face.

doon is leaving in 6 DAYSSSS! shin im gonna miss youuuu :(:(:( my dooooooon

so i'll be blogging again tomorrow, see you :)

home since a few days ago from medan. yes, ETERNAL GLORY. haha

anyway, ive been "pretty busy" no actually grounded. and too much problems at home. like ytd, im sorry mother. :'( my reason for internet is bcs i need my toefl listening tracks to exercise, butttt you know me. i ended up on twitter. college prep has been insanely freakin me out. well prior to the prep, I STILL DONT KNOW WHAT MAJOR AM TAKING. shit man.

i was thinking about communicative science and disease (career: speech therapist)
reasons: i'd work in a hospital, 1/3 medical 1/3 communication 1/3 child psychology (just as i wanted)
but my bio grade, which i failed, didnt seem to meet the requirements. well that can wait but i was thinking, i didnt wanna be far away from home. i want singapore, but they dont have this major. so i guess i'll give it a pass. my dad doesnt know that im sure of sg, mayb i'll tell him later.

now in relation to that, communication.
reason: i can cope with this
problems:
a. too basic! why go overseas
b. it seems wrong
c. too basic!

hotel management
reason: unlv singapore is offering the course, so i guess i'll just run for it.
problems:
a. i dont really like the campus -.-
b. hotel management in the family... again?? my dad mentioned smth about this. and mom said i just wanna take an easy ride since my brother had been through the same thing.

school in the states:
problems:
a. i have to drive
b. credit cards and fuel moneyyyy (hard to control)
c. social security problems
d. the calls....... (dont ask)
e. my dad's demands

benefits:
a. great environment
b. new experience
c. i can travel much

school in singapore:
problems:
a. it gets boring after a while
b. i cant travel accross the country in a day
c. not so much of a new living experience
d. tuition money is pretty much the same as in the states, since i would be going intensive there. i'd graduate later in singapore than the states.

benefits:
a. close to home
b. i dont have to drive
c. cheaper living cost?
additional d. closer to anya -.- HAHAHAHAHA jk

pick. pick. TAG FOR ME. HELP MEEEEE