my stomach is aching.

yoga class today was damn boring, it was downright meditation.

i have to use PC :( THE NEW INTERNET GUY DIDNT PLUG THE FRKKIN CABLE TO MY LAPTOP :(

my CAS evidences sucks to hell. like, a shattered glass on the pavements. its everywhere! exams in 2 weeks. NOOOOO.

a few days ago skye was telling me "filza, youre not allowed to sleep in class, if you want to sleep then just go home" DUDE, come on. i didnt distract you. that guy srsly has a problem, its like, he cares too much. u shudnt

i think i flunked my bio test the other day dieeeeeeeeeeeeeee im getting worse each day. shud mug more.

ok see ya

good morning :)

ytd, turned out. nothing was finished D= and on friday, didnt do anything D=

okay today in 20 hrs i have to finish

WL outline
CAS reflections in total of: 14 D=
BIO HUMAN PHYSIOLOGY
thinkquest storyboard and writing
english reading & movie planning
EE READING D=



helllpppppp. dieeeeeeeee

and still, my dad : "lets go to the museum!" omgggggg

thus, i would want a vacation to zimbabwe.

plus, i want a private jet to take me to bora-bora when i graduate.

i decided not to go with the girls to GrandIndo cus i need to study HUMAN PHYSIOLOGY. i hate muggin. like seriously.

and i srsly hate the fact that i spent all a lot to buy food thus no cash to photo copy bio study guide -.-

TODAY WAS KARTINI DAY. thank you for those ppl who showed up in indo attire. but there are a lot who didnt, but tis ok, maybe its my fault by saying 'attire', and the new juniors didnt understand what it means.

more pictures will be up tomorrow :) hopefully.

just got in a fight with my mom. she was so pushy and forceful :(

PLEASE DO COME TO FAMILY SPORTS DAY :D IT'LL BE A LOT OF FUN. yea i'm like.. the co-dj :p nah, just music director assistant. i'll be watching you guys from the center of the hall. so watch me -.- and we'll be playing a lot of music. and request will be taken. also support the fun fair stall CAS students made! it'll be a lot of fun. meeting teachers with their groove on :D -.-

i apologize my culturific people. i was being a bitch this afternoon. shudnt have done that. sorry :(

my worst habit: thinking i can always fix mistakes without telling anyone what's wrong, too afraid to face the real world. i hate to say this but i cant always get in the right track. making mistakes, telling my parents, then trying my hardest under supervision - cant. i thought i can fix it all with their hands off my stuff. thus we'll forget the past and everything will go back to normal. my parents always said, that i cant work alone. truth be told, i always told people the right thing to do, but i cant do it for myself. im trying tho.

today's EE class was fun. della and i were sorting through the untouched books in the library (most of them are media) and found 'teenage sex'. surprisingly, it was very educating :p finally our questions were answered. 'how to do it' was one of them . LOL and AIDS, teenage pregnancy, rape, homosexuality, teenage confusion of their sexual orientation were all elaborated. never knew those kinda things, especially bout rape. never knew the types of effect a victim would get, it was scary i can tell ya that. it was not nasty, AT ALL. its like.. the answer book. i blv teenagers do ask themselves about it and this light book answers it all. go check it out - for those who are 16 and above :)

i used to bitch about the movie SPECTACULAR! tha nickelodeon shit/high school musical wannabe. well, the last musical number wasn't THAT bad. however there are some weird dancemoves. cheap movies. but i was inspired, it was a big stage, so they had a lot of opportunities. anyway, gotta wake up early tmr! see ya peepzers.

WORLD LITERATURE OUTLINE BY FRIDAY shootz

THE COLOR PURPLE FINISHED BY TOMORROW shootz

EXTENDED ESSAY RESEARCH QUEST BY FRIDAY shootz

BANNER ISSUE COVERED BY TOMORROW MORNING shootz

BUSINESS IA SUPPORTING DOCUMENTS BY MAY 1 shootz

ITGS OUTLINE BY TOMORROW shootz

SUBJECT REVIEW shootz

THINKQUEST shootz

BOOK DRIVE BOX shootz

IB, go put a crap on smth else lhe.

today was so hectic. i dont feel like blogging. i'll blog tomorrow.

its me... again.

so last night (or shud i say morning -.-) went to bed at 3, woke up around 5.25 ish. idk i feel like blogging now. im so empty inside. no one's listening to me. much less i dont really know what to share juga sih.

my mind is falling apart, i dont think i'll survive school today. and i have extra class until 3. i srsly dont think i'll survive biology, but thanks to the seating arrangement, i'll have a chance to be alive at least. my lab mates are bloody geniuses!

oh, and ytd mr godfried, my math teacher, gave me tonnes of calculator programmes! gosh, now i can do stuff thats fuckin awesome. this is probably a tiny bit part of IB that makes me wanna hug the logo so tight.

which reminds me, mr. peter's in singapore, and so tomorrow i will have to sing with rama only D= this is the only thing i hate about being vp. gosh.

i have so much to say, so little time. better go now ciao

my day at school. my fellow funmily day music mixers

anyway, today was a loooong day.

school was okay 'cept the fact that i didn't eat at all. the only thing i ate was a piece of anya's chicken fillet, and a piece of ivana's fish. for lunch -.-
so after school mr lai was all tired, he didnt have enuf sleep. pity him. and so he dropped me off at the bus stop. turned out he met ms arlene and they were all going shopping. since she's going home the same way as i am, so i hopped in and went grocery shopping with my school mummy and daddyyyy.

so afterwards i went to pim, fetched, but my mom said i should eat there first. so i ate. after eating my tummy was painful as it is in hell. and i had to walk like a hunchback at the mall. i couldn't take it. so i went home with a lot of pain. it got worse, i was damn pathetic.

so i just woke up from the horrid sickness, and this is a good time to mug. so i guess.

btw culturific ladies, tmr i nandra and i will announce the layout for the banner. thank you girls.

another itgs frikkin lecture tmr. grrr. its so boring, i slept in class today, lecture session only, and thank god ms tima has enough faith in me, i think she knows i'll read it anyway :) idk why, every rule she sets up for garren and i should not be talking in class not even a word, never really works. idk, we will always find a way to make people happy :D besides our talk is always very entertaining.

tomorrow... no language class. and only 3 main subj. VICTORYYYYY
but theres the horrid TOK. lets practice deductive reasoning.

IB is stress
stress kills
therefore IB kills (and everyone knows).

i dont need 40 damn minutes to learn about this. damn easy. i hate nearly all of the boys in my class, i know its TOK, but youre no better than a kid living on the street you fucking losers. you just lost my respect, and soon much more. i dont need your crap to be around me, let alone your fucking brain.


sorry for all these. im so angry

anyway, have a good tuesday :) will post afterschool.

im so down now.
thinking of this person doesnt get me anywhere.
i wanna go back, and listen to the piano sound from nowhere.
maybe its true when you said "isn't it just wonderful lying down next to someone you love"


i need to go back, for i am ready to run.

i like this picture a lot, by nandra.
thank youuu it made my day.

anyway. i've only finished 2 tasks -.-

the dentist doesnt make me feel good about my teeth, but people said its better. idk, my sense perception just works my way.
and my mom said i need to "think" before i shop. well hey, i found a way to solve the problem even before we bought it mom, but you disagreed the next day -.- peculiarity. never really find a point in essence in this kind of problems.

brb, eat pempek.

back.

im full!

i havent done my CAS reflections due to my trainer's lousy act le argh
gym is my obsession rite now, but i never can do it on weekends. idk why, maybe that relaxation atmosphere emphasized in the word "weekend". although yoga refers to relaxation or peace of mind or find your center kind of shapes, i dont intend to join my weekend yoga class.

i slacked a lot today. but not as much as ytd. k ciao

woah. my kind of moment

I took a chance, i took a shot
And you might think I'm bulletproof, but I'm not
You took a swing, i took it hard
And down here from the ground i see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like I don't know you
You tell me that that you love me then cut me down
And I need you like a heartbeat
But you know you got a mean streak
Makes me run for cover when you're around
And here's to you and your temper
Yes, I remember what you said last night
And I know that you see what you're doing to me
Tell me why

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day
Well I get so confused and frustrated
Forget what I'm trying to say, oh

Taylor Swift - Tell Me Why

phew. weekends.

i have managed to list down what am i sppsd to work on this weekend. apparently, found my EE topic alr, which i am excited about. and CAS reflections. i feel like the compulsory subjects (or what they call 'the heart of IB') are the real weapons for the killing of IB students.


originally written 17/04

my friday at school, taken by ichel.

hey guys

im scared for April 27, really i am.
i seriously dont think im good enough :(

anyway, weekend.

finish The Color Purple
finish Wicked
finish Kunjungan Nyonya Tua
finish my article
finish Thinkquest writing
finish CAS reflections
review math
review bio
review business






die.

OH MY

Happy birthday Reuben! it was a surprise, he was so grumpy on his birthday (at least we made him so) but turned out great :) all the best, man.


hello, 'tis almost the end of the week fellaz.

damn ridiculous le.

i've only finished 1/6 tasks that was given, due TOMORROW. and the one is actually 0.5 - 0.5 -.- half for cas dance reflections, and the other half for bahasa homework (and that was the easy one) crap.

i srsly need to fill up the slack. cus internet doesn't get me anywhere for the moment. tis just facebook twitter facebook twitter stalking facebook twitter oceanup twitter. but of course, i wouldn't put blog on my blacklist due to its educational aspect. virtual journalism? the thing is, what ive been doing is damn sinful in the English A2 bible.

truth be told, i enjoy English A2 lectures. not that i fully agree on media studies and how the new media throws garbage on our butts, but the chance to interrelate things is merely exciting. that's why i answer practically every question asked, people. even though i may be wrong haha but who cares? God gave me this mouth to take risks. and besides, ms donna's ma girrlll. she rocks the charisma.

why am i blogging while i have a pile of stuff to do? because i rock. dont ask.

lol no, i think this is one of the ways to take a rest from mugging. rather than goin on facebook.....................................or twitter..........................or more facebook.... dang i feel so crappy D= (im doing it rite now)

MY A;LSFAFSD/LH;L//;LK;KDFA EXTENDED ESSAY. out of 200+ pages of The Color Purple, i've read only 20 pages of it :( 10 % sucks. and tomorrow i have to come up with the research question, and meeting with mr.c :((((( and since im his only EE student in the class.................im screwed.

LAST WEEK OF APRIL: THE ZOO. WORST WEEK, HELP.

new convo- IT class.

filza: hey gurrrlfriend
garren: ?
filza: hey garren
garren: ?
garren: gotcha
filza: hey dummy
garren: iyaaaa, i am since my name is filza rite..how are u garr??
filza: i'm stupid, filza.
garren: well its okay, its better than being sexually attracted to hairy older men
filza: i'm attracted to an unhairy high school student, gua g homo
garren: gosh, filza's using both acc to make fun of me and herself. idiot
filza: its not insulting
garren: haha!! gareeen's dumb
garren: seeee!!! she is using her acc and even mine..
filza: for the record, idk what you mean. LOL.


fyi, this isnot a quote, rather we used this posting box for a chatroom

it's 6.08 and i'm dressed for school.

all of the sudden i remember at this point, two weeks ago i was trembling so badly. for i knew i'll be seeing you for the first time in 11 months. 7.16, i saw you in the edge of your class row, seated and yet that face, i know its you.

i tried to hide my face, so on the way up, you wouldn't see me. and i succeeded, you didn't see me.

hey, virtual-engineers :) i'm back.

it's been a month since i updated, and this past month has been terrific :)

alrite, BALI was amazing! it was a great getaway with great people, (although anya would make my days a lot more awesome) and the extend days were full of... stories :D mushroom beach, the hidden beach that garren and i found that morning, was breath-taking. it was a wonder, since no one's there to interrupt, it was one fine afternoon.

it was hella fun. rayner's surfing pants are always down everytime the wave comes, so he ended up wearing his boxers alone -.- bara too i guess. garren's tie dye pants blinded my eyes, they look like colored bamboos, oh and i got sunburn, and peeled off my skin... not my fault. now its back already, dont worry. yogi got a temporary tattoo, ying andn yang (or was it yin and yan?) ON HIS CHEST. hahhahah he looked like a true monk, with his baldness.

finally, i'm back to HCI's immersion trip. it was fine, altho had some moments on getting lost in singapore -.- haha but it was okay. met my peeps from last year, it was great going ahead for spring break :D we all went out with warren at east coast, and congratz war you made it to student council :D but we didnt take a picture :( anyway, met oliver, norman, and lingjie from the boarding school. chatted with oliver almost every night after quiet hours, haha it was so nice to relax near the pond for a little while. the program was quite different, altho it was good. i shared host with rama and abe at some point, altho at breaks i separated myself hehe. met zack, and talk to him, almost everyday at school, on break times. he's been thru a lot, and i did too so we're on the same boat. i miss him quite much now, he was surprised to see me at first lol.

Mr. charles low said i've grown, he said im more mature now that i'm in grade 11. he also mentioned that the maturity comes from the toughness of grade 11. haha true, sir. IB kills. oh speaking of IB, i checked out IB quotes that anya was promoting haha dang funny. and mrs giam was surprised to see me again :p great to see them again as well.

oh and thanks to alastair, little jeremy, jeremy, darren, troy, kurt, you guys are great hosts.

KURT!

it sucks to know that you're getting older, but at the same time, you are ecstatic to have your driver's license and your id. it's very confusing. i manage to make decisions more wisely now that i'm older each day. well, that's what i think. anyway, i'm starting to be booze-free for 2 weeks now :D:D and want to stay that way until my birthday, which is a month + away so, i better manage to tempted-free for 7 weeks. well my goal is actually 4 months but what can i do if it's my birthday right? hehe

i miss my two e-buddies together. i love hearing what she has to say, what he has to say. and finally what i have to say.

last night it was cavin's birthday. the place is very unique, but i have to admit... it was scary :'( i didnt wanna go to the toilet, trust me, i was shaking at some point. but we had fun :D thx cav

with one of the bottom 10 finalists of indonesian idol, GEVIN.
look, its pretty creepy but so intimate, which was the best part.

regrets : didn't go parasailing, didn't go for a slingshot in singapore (cus bali's was too nerve-wrecking), didn't see the rest of my friends in sg.

my soundtrack for the moment : getting stronger - adeaze (i really need to be strong, this longing doesn't get me anywhere, its a burden)

oh quotes, qotes.

sevira: mas, bisa minta bawang goreng ga? sama minum ya
masnya: oh bisa dong, minumnya mau apa?
sevira: bawang goreng
masnya: hah?
sevira: *ga peduli*

ciao, kiddos. filza.