omg i have to buy tayswift's fearless album. it's a M-U-S-T-H-A-V-E. cus i finally found an album that is solely personal. i know it's about love, love, love, it is typical. but the words are differently recited by the artist, and it is good. i like songs that has a story behind it, and this album clearly stated each and every story behind the song. in which i can connect well.

wooohooooo!

i love the idea that when i was on the flight home from bali, it was sunset!! it's soooo pretty. i'm 'flying' so technically i'm watching the sunset BEFORE the people on the beach see it finishing thru the horizon. haha i feel prooouuuud.

this is the digicam image, i'll show you the SLR image later (my battery's finished).

ANYA'S BACK. yay yay yayerz.

I WANNA GO BOWLING. oh, reminds me. i'll just go to the movies nearby then -_-

i'm back! from medan. my bro's home so we had to visit our beloved grandmum. anyway, this was THE FIRST TIME that i was actually ENJOYING my medan holiday. 1. because it was short (3 days! haha) 2. because we went to the beach! although bali is nicer... but at least i could escape from the city. the 'mirror beach' haha nah, pantai cermin is like 1.5 hrs away from medan and the wind is nice.. i get to see some farms and what not. they have fishermen too! well nto exactly, they search for shrimps. my driver bought shrimps and... baby stingray. the man said it was stuck in the shrimp net hahahahah. its funny tho

vacayy is not over! more adventures to come fellaz.

i am currently listening to baby, it's cold outside. a very romantic jazz song, i love it too much.


Ahh, but it's coooold outside~

ok, i'm feeling like posting since the past few days.

i've been following what anya said... from now on i will turn off my computer when i'm away :( well truth be told i was just leaving some buffering for tv shows. didn't mean to "leave a message" people who dingdong-ed me on msn. so forgive me, my fere :(

anyway, i just learned something. did you realize that gossip girl has a lot of literary devices? that's so cool. anyway, ugly betty is such GUILTY PLEASURE (this is the real thang). i could die if UB's not on tv. i've been a fan, never MISSED an episode of the telenovela, and so as the american tv show. i have been taking a close look at betty's outfits. piece by piece they're DOWNRIGHT EXPENSIVE (designer all the way, sister). it's just that the wardrobe department crashed the colors and patterns therefore turns out that it has always been a fashion catastrophe. as i watched the behind the scenes, it is like designer clothes head to toe. whereas the fashion editor (in this case, Wilhelmina) is wearing a $140 suit from H&M and she looks like a million dollars.

anyway i dotn wanna look like a fashion-obsession victim. (there a huge diff between a fashion victim and a fashion-obsession victim. for all i know i can be obsessive at times) and now i'm being a total brat please dont mind.

sitcoms are loooooooove as well. i just cant get over it. sitcoms are my type :) haha.

i just went accessories shopping with mumz. bought A LOT. what can i say, it's too great it outshines me most of the time hahahahha (a non-living thing just beat filza.. in life)

oh speaking of life.... this is a new quote i found. "can you pretend like you have a life for just one minute?" hahahhahahah. i love finding quotes about a lifeless being. like me. uh shit, do i even have a life to say that?

anyway, it's 10 and... i wanna watch tv. see you soon.

i'm listening to player's player again. it's just too deep gaaazsh

monday = doomsday! dont wanna talk abt it :(

i'm in need of food. altho i'm kinda on a diet, well nto that strict, not that strict. but i was notified by nature that i must have gained weight. i'm not trying to be anorexic or anything, but the goal is just to try healthy living. and so far, it didnt quite work out for me. i did try tho, ate red rice... GREEN VEGGIES... and reduce my dinner-portion. that is all very cliche in my life due to the fact that i have HUGE appetite. hahahhaha lets keep trying people. live healthily!

ok... i used to say i dislike tights... now i take back my words. i love it. leggings are so comfy... warm... i hereby announce that my leggings are now a part of my pajamas =) awesome stuff. i love it like i love john mayer hahahhaha wow huge difference.

seeya later.

it was the music

it was a message

it was a time

along that genuine line of hope

i stuttered

for i was seeing you

who blocked my way to ecstacy

and led me to another direction

i was given everything but the one i longed for

: my way to that day

there was zero

knowing you’ve given me everything but that,

now i feel like i’m a whole again

of a complete wasteland

as you know

it was shit

it was dirt

it was lust

i know this is a total crap, i was just tryna kill time. sorry

omg, TOK was a waste. srsly, i was like "sir, is this a typo?" and he was like "no, i cant answer if it's a typo or not" and he ended up not answering any single question. GOSH, dont come then. shoo shoo

i'm pretty pissed. anyway, i wanna get on the dance floor dancing to lady gagagagagagagagagagagagagagagaga haha such a cute name

i have business tomorrow, and i'm like... lazy. you can tell, huh?

i want jiffest! this year they're using fx as a venue! yes yes yes. i wanna watch WORLDS APART but it's night time dang. and loads of free screenings! haha nandraaaaaa it'll be better than last year. srsly fuuuuuuuuuun. i'll see ya there!

4 more subjects! wish me luck, people. virtual prayers count!

YESTERDAY WAS ITGS :((

DAYYYMMM HARD. it was fuckin' a lot! god, itgs the term was godawful! i didn't finish. godddd ugh.

wish me luck on today's. bahasa...... i hope it goes well. and it has to anyway, so yea cross your fingers X.

have you ever felt like you actually regret thinking about somebody in a bad way, cause people change you know, and that person might eventually change too as time rolls, right? well, it's happening to me now. and shoot, yeah.

i can't believe that the nicest person i can think of NOW, is the person i used to say the non-boyfriend material one back then. its sooo disturbing, and really, it is.

i regret, seriously, if i can turn back time i would. but the good thing is he's not the kind of person who turns back the page. so he's on to NOW. and i like that.

i know i'm being SUPER melancholic right now, but srsly, you guys. DONT EVER -at least- make promises or swear (hear that, anya) on somebody cus you'll eventually, at some point, think about them. and its a great feeling now, i'm telling you, and it just sucks to recap all those unfortunate moments :(

picture:http://www.sandrophoto.com/wp-content/themes
/ubminim/images/digital-photography-3.jpg

I'VE BEEN TAGGED by Cheisy Zefanya :):)

now here goes

Answer the questions below, do a Google image search with your answer, take a
picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of
explanation.Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.

1. The age you'll be your next birthday

my sweetest seventeen :)

2. A place you'd like to travel to

anywhere with unicef

3. You're favourite place:

bedroom is so love

4. You're favourite food.

nothing beats mcd's apple pie

5. My favourite pet

if only he's real :(:(

6. Your favourite colour combination

it's a lot.. but i'm standing strong for this one :)

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

trench coats! if only i own one :(

8. Your favourite all time song

hits by coldplay. inevitably awesome.

9. Your all time favourite TV show


my eyes just open everytime lizzie's on :p

10. First name of your significant other/crush

hottie.

11. The town in which you live

jakartaa

12. Your first job

anything for opraah

13. Your dream job

someone like Ian Wright. travelshow-host!

14. A bad habit you have

clutter :(

15. Your worst fear

dissapointment

16. The one thing you'd like to do before you die

complete my call

17. The first thing you'll buy if you get $1000000

a strategic penthouse. awesomeee

tagging:
1. Sariee
2. Johanna
3. Clariszaa
4. Redha
5. Andrew

CAMP WAS FUUUUUNNNNN !!! thank you SLCs!!

i learned a lot about leadership from campp but unfortunately we didnt take any picture on the late night (scary candle) meeting haha but ok. i was glad that everyone shared something and was sooo sincere. honesty was the word :) thank you for the rest of the activities and glad everybody followed :) AND I DIDNT GO TO THE LABRYNTH :( but oh well. see the maze doen there in the photo?

I MISS MY LITTLE GUYS ALREADY :) RICO ODI AND ARMAAAAAAAN :):)

THANK YOU SOOO MUCH LEADERS! ily ALL <3

at last..

HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL 3



it was awesome as hell, yeah!

incredible work. *standing ovation*

the movie was soooooo great! it was beyond my expectations. the choreography was BREATH-TAKING. to watch it on the premiere day was also a hard work facing those obsessive kids. srsly, it was awesome. i'm speechless. really. one question: can i try being one of the character's understudy? if possible :D


haha sure not.

it's a dream <3>

unified.

i'm too nice, i'm actually granting yo wishesss, bloggeerz. haha jk pals.

hello people of the world, i haven't post for aggggesss maaann. sick as hell, i know. well not quite, i actually tried to post the other day, and that other day was like... a week ago. i tried to post on the frggin iGoogle, which i was excited about. that day, however, it got screwed, something refreshed and whooossshhhh ... my super quite long post swept away. great job, webbie! but anyways, i'm kinda sick of this layout skin thing, i might as well changed it to the old one. haha, i love that one. unfortunately... it's boring. i'll think it over.

this week was soooooo fuuuuuuunn, thanks to ALL TEACHERS for all the hard work in the making of Unity in Diversity week. it was a huuuge success, and i was so proud of my school nao. the "curtain call" of UiD was starvaganza, or as anya liked to call it *vgnz, which was pretty cool there, anya. and starvaganza was magnificent! it was a-w-e-s-o-m-e. even though it was tiring for 5 of us (with the exception of aryandi -__-) but it was all paid off. my favorite was the ethnic part of the phillipines tribal dance thingy, the bollywood dance, aaanndd pak ade+mr.sadrakh were totally funny. oh and the saman dance + choir of the PSG was awesome too, these ladies were on top this year, bravo! and bravo to all of the performers!

haha orang nyasar ;p

mr.c stole the show, woot woot <3>

the saman!


and i still cant blv those are my teachers.... dancing. awesome job, everybody! :):):)

I <3>

i'm writing this from iGoogle. omg so fetch, baby! haha keren deh, u guys shud try it. it's iGoogle, thanks for introducing it to me red!

Happy Birthday, Nai! glad u like the surprise although the candles are scary.

so i went to bogor today, and spent a day with my baby cousin nayang. and something happened, so we were playing she was running, and i was about to call her name, but something different came out..

"dek, jgn lari"
"naida!"
"eh maksudnya nayang"


haha sowee nai ;p

priceless!

oh, i love you sarrie you know i do <3

ohmay, i just watched this movie, and you know what, the movie was so...


VAGUE.

SERIOUSLY, if you really wanna make a movie, please think this over. i cant say that it was plotless, but i am saying that THE RESOLUTION IS U N C L E A R. i was waiting, it was already like 7/8 of the movie and i was "okay... is this movie going somewhere?" of course, half of the whole movie has a progression, i can see that. but HELLOOOOOOOOO. what is jesse mccartney up to? he's obviously sick, we all know that. and a psychopath, but why? i'm not seeing any background and a clear ending people.

so it was like this:

a girl at school, she's running for a scholarship -> lab-partnering with jesse -> jesse becomes obsessed -> the girl dates this cool guy -> jesse took her out to "play" -> she likes jesse as a friend and had fun with him -> jesse gone -> the girl becomes wilder -> jesse came back -> jesse gone -> the girl's finding him but he wouldn't see her -> she stalked him -> they made love -> he told her that his life sucks and her's dont so he wants to ruin her life but she didnt respond -> they kissed -> jesse leaving to canada -> the girl drove off to canada to meet jesse with his truck.


IF YOU'RE WITH ME PLEASE TAG WITH A "YES, I'M WITH YOU" TEXT. THANK YOU, ADIOS.

i know the presidential debate is like HOT as fire these days. and i shall say, mccain is such a challenged donkey. last week, obama was like "i previously warned.." and mccain was like "i also warned that..." it's like... DUDE! come up with something else, obama gave his resolution by warning, and mccain's such a fat copycat. mccain is overly competitive.

now i'm watching the second debate, and i like this one cus both of them are able to move around, so at least i can see some gesture, pheww. and MCCAIN will not be as stiff. haha

oh boy, it was finished-.- for the second time i missed the debate.

i worked my ass off today, pretty happy bout it tho. but i still have not work on my room that pretty much looks like a zoo at the moment. i've been cooking much lately, since that is the only thing i feel like doing instead of cleaning. i hate cleaning. srsly, i just can't imagine living alone, haha. anyways, i dont feel like going out today, maybe i do. but i need to keep my mum company.

i just bought a red box with hearty pattern on it. shiny even. looks valentine-ish but i dont care, it has some cool components. which i think is cool, you may not. you may even think i'm such a fool for buying that box that was pretty pricey.

i want another watch. i'm so addicted.

karma >.< i now love wearing leggings for sleeping.

ugh mom attacks, she wants a beauty treatment for me. so lazeh. i hate going to salon these days. its so... time-consuming.

you know what: I NEED SOME FREGGIN GOOD TV SHOWS. dumb channels.


i'm watching joan cusack checking out come cheese. stupid. youtube is so lame right now. i dont feel like going youtube. ciao.

i feel bad for people i've stalked before thru the net >.< like srsly. but its fuuuuuuuun, i recommend people to try it. you might get some unexpected infos.

i adore CERN, for inventing the world wide web. you science ppl are geniuses (no pun intended).

i dont give a damn on those time-and-energy-consuming bullshits about how internet changed the world in a bad way and things like that. you know what, internet plays a big part of your life, and you can not deny that it does make a change in whichever part of your brain.... in one way or another. you might live without internet, but it is beneficial you cannot resist. despite the fact that crimes and porn whatever comes in handy across the network but srsly guys, i mean sometimes we're the one who has to make an effort not to check it out, right?

by the way, i've been driving myself to movies again lately, although i didn't go to the movies much but i do buy vcds and (illegal) dvds. haha poor me. i just loooove to call it illegal, not that i wanna act all bad, but it's fun being descriptive haha. there's a huge difference between dvds, and illegal dvds. dvds or original dvds cost a fortune while illegal dvds only take probbly... say... 4% of one original dvd. i'm not blaming anyone or my friends of saying dvd but its just my point of view. and i just learned that lately, so never mind if i said dvds before. haha besides, i learn one thing from andrew last weekend:

appreciate and respect every point of view. Thanks fella!

anyways, lets go back to my point, i've been watching a lot of indonesian movies. not that i wanna make fun of the bad ones and embrace the good ones only. but i want to compare and reflect (ceileeeeh) how the film industry in indonesia is growing. but... idk how to say this. because as it grows, there are a lot of movies that keeps.. ok, let me put it this way.. there are 3 movies. movie A, if you promote the film in.. say.. paris film festival, it would make a big hit. but for movies B & C, not only that people wouldnt even try to get in the cinema, but it would also downgrade indonesia in the film industry. so it is a hard work. but good movies are coming our way lately, but it didn't violate the presence of movies which are supposedly not to be shown in our country for whatever reason. its just wrooong.

i hate that i lost my gie vcd >.< where did i put it ya? i was tryna buy chants of lotus the other day, but im glad i didnt buy it cus i seem to have lack of money that day haha. i'm gonna buy it soon. so excited. heheeee.

oyea, by the way. laskar pelangi wasn't as good as the book. srsly. i was hoping for more. they turn things around, and i was shocked.



i gtg help my mum. see ya.

now i'm here, sitting, elaborating my laziness. gosh, i hate being lazy. not that i don't wanna have fun, but i need to do my duties.

duties. gosh it haunts me night and day. now i'm home alone. well not exactly alone, but ... yeah u can call it alone. *nothing to say* ok. been watching some tv shows, and i have to say... gossip girl is going too inappropriate. it was fine before, but now. its a no no. idk if you guys agree but for me, its overly adult-ic (or however you wanna put it). i would rather watch ugly betty than gossip girl. besides, scandals can sometimes bore you. IT BORES YOU BAAAD.

and heroes, i can go maddddddaaaahh. gosh mohinder suresh is such a sick bastard x( i hate him like... like... damn.

HOLY CRAP
i really need to go to the beach... something like... water would do.

been pigging out in my room lately, with cookies. movies, music, and what not. i've been a wreck since after ramadhan. i cant found myself some peace of mind. and god knows why. well, i do to. i must interfere with nature, no matter how. and by this i did not mean talking to animals like a sick lunatic.

of which i'm beginning to discover if i'm acting like one. scaryxzx.

talking on skype with sari for... quiet a long while. and she was HYPED about having skype. she couldnt get over it.




i need water. sea water. i need to go to greece. oasis would be fine. not that imma swim in it. nvm, ciaoooooista.

ok i'm so consumptive >.< this month i've reached twice my limit omg help. gotta save some moneeeyy.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

ok got this message for sarriee: SAR, CHECK OUT AJ'S NEW VIDEO. ITS A NEW SONG HE MADE, GOSH IT WAS GODAWESOME! AND YOU KNOW WHAT, THE LYRIC WAS ABOUT LYDIA! omg omg omg, awwwwwnesssss.

i (illegally) downloaded the video from youtube hahas =)

so far, my holiday was okay. nothing's special except for lebaran, had a lot of fun fighting with my little monsters. i was a pillow that day, they whipped me with plastic chocolate jars. and went thru my bag. opened my wallet. spread my money bills all over the bed. played with my oh-so-low-bat phone. put out all the cds i brought. GOSH WHEN CAN THEY STOP. uh, i know : when they grow up. in around... 10 years time.

oh, and they played soccer pillow balls. guess the target : my head.


kill me.

this is like the cutest thing ever. i'm reading a kadohata novel, and found this. A girl was talking to her little brother who was carrying a stick

"Did you hit anyone?"

"No, because nobody hit you"


awwness

i'm so sick of my blog sometimes

you're a golden ocean on a shore of bright white sand





in a complicated world you bring simplicity









i'll wait till forever is through..

i miss you :'( whichever you are. haha.

a very very good friend of mine is an ocean away. one, idk where.

it's holiday, and i hate it. i just wanna get it overwith and come back to school


i went to sayap ibu yesterday, and frankly saying, i love my trip. i fell in love with the kids.

nandra's asleep, she was staying over.






i hate that i love your favorite song >.<

rooster rocks my day. these lyrics are sooo deep. been having the cd for a few years now, just noticed how beautiful it was written.


Does it help if i say
That im really truly sorry
And that I never meant for it to end- this way
Theres a place in your heart
Where you know you'll always find me
and I'll be with you wherever you are
Near or far

Oh so if you believe
Say a prayer for me
I wont be here tomorrow
Somewhere I gotta be
Things you want to say
Save them for another day
Cos i can hear the angels calling
Angels calling for me



that is super saaaaaad T.T

KEMBANG NESTAPA


mawar mekar semekar-mekarnya
juga duri yang menghiasi tangkai memanjang
menggores, berzina dengan darah manusia
lalu bercampur dengan kelopak yang selaras
dan kami pun berdansa.

namun saat ini.

melati kian lama kian hilang
kelopak kecilnya sudah tua dan mencoklat
lebah tak inginkan lagi
kupu pun mati beku di dinding rumah ini.




filza, dan sendok kue kecil.

this is what keeps filza and anya's tie (whatever ties we have now) alive:

filza: ... not that i care..
anya: (hugs me) you do care..

filza: he's a person too..
anya: a jerk
filza: that would make you a jerk too know why
filza: cus u're acting like one

anya: wrong convo, genius

filza: what you did is wrong too
anya: i know
anya: umm...i'm not gonna apologize?
filza: r u shameless?
anya: no i dont think what i did is wrong
filza: but you just said i know.

anya: LOLOLOLOL
filza: HAHAHHAHAHA

(i meant laughter -.-)

filza: SUMPAH DOTA ABIS MUKANYA

anya: aah get me a crush
anya: i wanna live crushless, pls

(huh?)

anya: OMG BEBI ITU HOMO ABIS HELP HELP
filza: HOMO BANGET KAN GILA BEBI HELP HELP

anya: CAN GO DIE LARH

anya: dia tuh metrosex xcore

anya: METROSEX HXC

anya: METROSEX TO THE FREAKING CORE.

haha we like to talk about metrosex people. they're... interesting.... (sarcastically)

anya: that ugly fuckshitcock

filza: you did? what you fuckheadcrazybitchass-punk who didnt invite me
anya: omg u can swear

anya: okay
anya: okay
anya: okay
anya: FUCK MAN
filza: ANYA PLS DONT SWEAR
anya: ok sorry




our days were pweeteeeh. I LOVE YOU ANYA.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY BABY SEKARSARI :)

you're 16 now!

you look awesome last night
glad that you were super shocked and happy at the surprise :)
we're super happy that you looove our present.

walaupun mesti ngalah sama almer buat ngucapin ulang tahun -__-
12.02 (yaudah, ngalah semenit)

happy birthday sayang :)

TERM TESTS ARE OVAAAAHH!

although i'm still concerned.

1. the grades
2. the grades
3. the grades
4. the semester exaaaaaaaaaam!


frikkin shithead if this is term, what's for semester?

from there on i can conclude that
(i just read naida's blog haha)


I WANT MY GRADE 10 BACK!

I suck, nearly in everything i do.

i am so down right now, hopeless. business is just driving me crazy.


i regret not spending my free time to study. and i also regret not taking economy in the first place.

redha, if u read this please dont tell mom and dad. and pray for me please.


i can't do this. i dont have the urge to learn. but i learn from my mistakes. please forgive me pa, just this once. promise i'll fix it.

i dont like this subject at all, i just hope that binus can afford some subjects like history or geography.






i wanna cry >.<

ok, i take back my words. sara b is pretty good. easy listening especially when youre in the car waiting to buy josh groban's huhuu.

i like the songs i hated. and now i regret hating it. haha

i just realize.



i need josh groban's new cd to be inside my car. need. need. need.

it's been long since i replay so she dances all the time and just now it came out on the radio. and i felt a sense of satisfaction in the middle of my stress-insanity (does that even exist?lol).

i need this.

so she dances. always been my favorite.

i'm in loooooove with a song. i replay every 5 minutes. since i know i'm not gonna be able to listen any day next week. it's on youtube :( not available on limewire.

anyways, sariiii! aj rafael punya blog loh, ternyata dia temenan sama my fav myspace musician haha senang deh.

2nd anyways, TERM TEST. shoot man, business is leyzeh. bio needs a deeper dig. English is ... hard. Math is... practice. ITGS is ... okay. just a waste of time. Bahasa is... scary >.< TOK : A WASTE. i just hate it.

i spent 2 hours stalking someone, along with anya. its completely shocking. i cant stop putting a sad emoticon on msn.

i need CAS hours. i'll beg mr.linus to extend the ACP time. hehe.

i'm still sad :( 2 days of sorrow. man, i cant blv i feel so mad if i see that face.


i cant get over it, ces.

thanks zack, for everything... really.



i miss you. and i dont want you to be sorry, it's all my fault i was so stupid. i'm feeling too emotional now, but at least i can handle it.

127 hours 57 minutes till ...







trembles, shakes, and furrowed brows.

ternyata album sara bareilles ga sebagus itu -___-

easy listening, yes. but it didnt cause goosebumps.

unlike taylor swift.

sara bareilles menang cover doang -__-

taylor swift rocked my foot.

IM.. historical, hysterical.

anya: AAAH GUE KANGEN GABE PARAH GILA
anya: ok lebay


filza: peter + gabe + budi + david apa anthony
anya: HAHAHAHAHAHA gue ngakak
anya: yang ada gabenya
filza: GAY GALORE
anya: peter ama budi
anya: trus david...
anya: ama gabe?!


anya: HOMO BANGET GILA KAN BEBI HELP HELP




si warren jg sama aja, pertama pmnya


"can't smile without you"


sebelumnya...


"WHO HAS FLOPPY DISK"



gaul. hha



gabe: go sleep
filza: u go
filza: count sheep
gabe: i will
gabe: with calculator



filza: but i do appreciate my mom and dad for giving me such bloods so i can survive
gabe: lol thats deep
gabe: :|
gabe: yea atleast we have bloods huh
gabe: think abt those...
gabe: uh corpse..
gabe: with no bloods..
gabe: :|


anya gabe sama aja -___- jayus(dan lebay)nya ga nahan.




filza: u want pictures from the exchange?
zack: lol i was about to ask for pictures
zack: filza, u read my mind
filza: .....
filza: photobucket.com/filzasbucket
zack: photobucket?
zack: as in on facebook?
filza: noo
filza: just open the site
zack: wait
zack: u mean u tried to send me a link?



zack is a self-proclaimed information-illiterate.



sarrie: *worried*
filza: santai aja sar
filza: the point of relationship is to find a pillow
filza: to lean on
sarrie: huahahahahha keren jg tu
sarrie: dapet dr mana?
filza: temen gue pas di camp nembak temen gue
filza: "liv, kyknya.. gue kyknya udh ketemuin deh, bantal yang bisa nemenin gue"
filza: OMAIGAT GA SIH LO
sarrie: HUAHAHHAHAHA itu ngenyekk.. (seperti biasa -__-)



sarrie says:

"...filza has been gotikrized....

ayo fie bergotik ria bersama saya.."


omg, susanna


yang satu ini bukan di chatroom tapi parahnya super.

filza: sar, gue masih stress..
sarrie: sabarr fie.. *ngeliat2 buku* iya sih fie.. keliatan dr tulisan lo..
filza: O.O emang tulisan gue kayak gt sar...

T_T



reuben: oi
reuben: gua ud ktmu bhsa kren baru lagi ni
reuben: coba lu tanya k gua
reuben: 'ben lu homo y?'



filza: lo mau selingkuh sm siapa? andrew
reuben: holy fuck
reuben: i aint gay
reuben: knp y smua org hates the fact that im not gay
filza: ure not gay, ure homo
reuben: kan
reuben: but thats ok lah
reuben: deep down i feel very heterosexually



reuben -__- seksualitas masih dipertanyakan haha



andrew: apaan si artinya afk?
rayner: away from keyboard dodol



naida: rambutnya
naida: kyk mangkok
reuben: tai tu rambut kalo jatoh dipake alay main bola



cims rule.


there are loads. but i couldnt beat the futility to put it all out here.

memang ada yg jayus. mohon dimaklumi. haha bye

i drew your initial on my palm this morning, hoping it was your hand.

speech thing tomorrow, quite nervous.






i just youtubed stuff, and found out how bondoc touched my heart for one more moment.


yucky, filza. lebay.

know that group in facebook titled "i was doing my homework and i ended up on facebook"?


well, i was doing my homework and i ended up on blogger.



was doing my speech for a competition, i researched her quotes and stuff. and found "I didn’t want to be a cosmetic diva wearing high heels and make-up, prancing around at the celebrity functions."

and so, i realized that in making a business, do not aim for celebrities to use your product. i know, they are role models, but by making your products cost a fortune, your products will not be loved by the world. Celebrities and fortunates are only a small piece of the world. It is better to create something affordable, with a great path finding. meaning that your products, has a good quality and surely will attract the customers. however, there's a huge gap between selling products which "feels cheap" and "cheap". The first one regards to the quality of your product, and make sure that your product doesnt "feel cheap". and the second one pertains to cost, and which target of the customers you want to aim for. and yet, still keeping a good quality for the product.


and yea, now i sound like a business and man geek. it just popped, you know me.




gtg, wait for nandra to come back.

homeworks galooooore >.<



i miss cheisy. spiritually. she hasnt been around for a few days. the last time she was here is when we played online. when we chose the combo over the jonas borthers. although LJ is now out of the list, for me.

the month of the ACP is coming! ACP, CCA, same thing.

well, i'm quite happy with the fact that the school offers 65 frikkin ACPs for this year. It's like, 65! haha but nonetheless i already started mine. Most definitely i'll be joining debate, in which my self-proclaimed "supervisor" slash whatever (haha) pushed me to. we even have an online ACP. unfortunately, (i dont know if this is karma or what) theatre guild ACP will have MY FAIR LADY for this semester's production for crying out loud! i was so pissed. i told mr.c i'll not be joining anymore, but still. its crazy. ugh.

i'm soo soo sooo depressed by all the pressure. school. friends. stuff. wtfs.

The capacity of hope has gone

Gone along with my beliefs of life

Diverse thoughts of people has aroused me to rip the head of mine.

Although i still have a heart to lose

So which one goes first?

I’m afraid i can’t close my eyes anymore

I’m afraid i can’t burst in tears any longer

Nonetheless i have to die

I need to die

Kill me.

omg, haha i cant blv redha has a blog. but of course, no one beats me in the family :p

and of course, he talks about those university craps which is totally boring compared to mine. haha be jealous, red. and he admitted that mine is vastly inspiring. haha, no i just made that up. and we made a deal not to spill what-so-ever thing said in each other's blogs. or else...

"like brother like sister" and unlikely, our mom is totally computer illiterate.


and btw, he exaggerates most of the time, so never mind the tags he wrote.
i better go dress up. ciao

i found some stories. quite interesting

Billy loved Katie with all his heart. But he never told a Single soul. Katie secretly loved him too. But she thought she would never have a chance with him. Billy asked his friends what they think of her and his friends thought she was gay. They didn't like her at all. So Billy just went along with them. They all made fun of her and made her feel really bad. Katie was so upset.

One day they followed her home from school making fun of her the whole way home. Once she got inside her house she dropped to the floor cringe. She had a crush on Billy since 3rd grade. She didn't know what to do. When Billy got home he felt real bad about what he had done. So he decided to go to Katie's house to tell her he was sorry and that he really loves her.

When he got there he knocked on the door no one answered.

The door was open so he walked in. He walked into the living room and found Katie lying dead on the floor. She had slit her wrists. Billy was so up set . He knew it was his fault she killed her self. And now he could never tell her how he really felt.

The lesson of this story is: Don't wait to until the last minute to tell someone how you really feel. Because it just might be too late. And don't always go by what your friends say, follow your heart.

aww :)

SELAMAT HARI KEMERDEKAAN!

63 TAHUN MERDEKA


17-08-45

17-08-08



MERDEKA!

anyaaa : stfu dickhead
clean slate : u stfu whorebag
anyaaa : ugh!
anyaaa : omg filza go say smth mean
Filzaa : proud and outstanding IB student

clean slate : now its the jonas whores
anyaaa : wrong move gabe
Filzaa : JONAS BROTHERS, please!
anyaaa : filza might kill you rite now
clean slate : oh :|
clean slate : sry. i meant
clean slate : jonas hoes

clean slate : funnily
Filzaa : i was like screaming and anya was like looking at cone
anyaaa : omg he looked hot
clean slate : oh i thought u mean corner
clean slate : cone is a human?

clean slate : u still felt the shake
clean slate : move here
clean slate : no earthquakes
anyaaa : we're gonna shake shake
clean slate : like beyonce shake? :-O
Filzaa : corny alert

clean slate : i think its pretty serious
clean slate : it might severe our ties
clean slate : whatever ties we have now

from cesi's blog.

(11:14 PM) clean slate: hey. how come a person playing piano is called a pianist but a person driving race car is not called racist?
(11:14 PM) Filzaa: cuz it's weird when you say PIANER

(11:15 PM) clean slate: hey you know that saying love is blind?
(11:15 PM) anya: AND?
(11:15 PM) clean slate: then how can you belive in love at first sight?

(11:25 PM) Filzaa: yeah, racist
(11:25 PM) anya: im nottt
(11:25 PM) clean slate: racist
(11:25 PM) clean slate: i h8 u
(11:25 PM) anya: yeah, RACIST!
(11:25 PM) anya: i loathe you.
(11:25 PM) clean slate: i loathe'r u
(11:25 PM) clean slate: beat dat emu
(11:25 PM) anya: i loathe-est you.
(11:25 PM) clean slate: ..ok

(11:31 PM) anya: falisahtongxiongchai batisah binti jamilah. thats filza's new name
(11:32 PM) clean slate: :-O
(11:32 PM) clean slate: i pity your husband
(11:32 PM) Filzaa: ah, i hate u
(11:32 PM) clean slate: he'll have to pronounce when he weds you

(11:33 PM) anya: NELSON MANDELA IS AFRICAN
(11:33 PM) Filzaa: GOAW I HATE YOU ANYA
(11:33 PM) anya: wtf is goaw?
(11:33 PM) Filzaa: HE'S THE PRESIDENT
(11:33 PM) clean slate: ok?
(11:33 PM) Filzaa: AND A SAVIOR
(11:33 PM) clean slate: and hes hitler's bro?
(11:33 PM) anya: i can die laughing.
(11:33 PM) Filzaa: of course not
(11:33 PM) clean slate: anya is a liar

a.gay-be come back to planet earth, dude! fuckin miss 3 of us talking.

I see things divergently, on the grass of grieve.

I was senseless and ignorant, and yet i believe in dignity.

I gathered up my bits of brain with empty hands everyday, but i’m not able to retain.

I live life the way it goes, but never had the urge to discover,

though phenomenon is faintly perceived.

Why would i care?

For i am the only person in this world.

Brazen, and heartless.

I was lost, lost in the middle of nowhere, lost in the thought of you on my way home. i was lost in my own equanimity. And my equanimity was thinking of you. I was shocked. I was shocked when i saw myself alive in the middle of dusk. I was troubled when i horse-ride within this life, that made me jump all the way across the globe. And finally found you.

I was ecstatic when my world finally comes off to a new start, when perseverance are all paid off. Somehow it’s irrelevant how things are moving and how you comprehend the movement. I started babbling about unfortunate things that could happen in another second.

Later that second you scolded me in my unconsciousness. A pleasant surprise, and i thank you for it. However, good things must come to an end. I was on top of the world when i reckon that my lips were stuck to yours. It was the best 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 seconds of my life before i was shattered into a million pieces.

Now I’m only a part of the cement you walked upon every day, hoping to be picked up.

puisi lagi nge-trend. haha, i didnt decide to make one but it popped in my head. so i'll post, pinjem ide ya sari, icha. and other bloggers who made one too. biasa amatur, jadinya maklum kalo norak haha.

kiasan hidup selalu melewati setiap detak jantungku
saat mawar menghampiri , terbanglah pikiran
terbang ke langit ke-7
tapi mengapa hujan menjatuhkan impiku?
airpun tak bisa basahi jiwaku yang terbakar
teriaklah, kalbu.
ambil kayu, biar api takkan padam.
aku lengah akan nyanyianmu
nyanyian setan yang menyita setiap detik hidup itu
hidup remaja bejat yang ingin berlindung
lindungi, biar mereka tak dengar.
akan pedihnya teriakan itu.

Filza, doubtful.

yeay i moved to English A2! HAHA I'M HAPPY. it's so nice, it has that learning atmosphere, unlike English B -_- well despite the fact that i have to read the Scarlet Letter up to chapter 15 this weekend, i'm so glad i made the right choice. and i have a lot to catch up with.

just did my debate thing today, it was fun. as for speech, i'm kinda left behind T-T

i've created a CAS blog not only for my reflections, but also for informations. feel free to check it out, it's available on the links bar, feel free to ask any question regarding CAS, and feel free to link if you wanna ;p but i'm not pushing haha


ok thx seeyaaaa

gosh, zack. what takes you so long -__-

i'm learning to get over it, i'm over it. although cesi didnt believe me. at all. this month is so packed, with school stuff and inter-school stuff. however, it makes me feel more as a high school student. i got a few more confessions to make. and finish my overloaded list of books to read. well the book's are more 'in my face' since it's in my room waiting to take turns.

oh shit, i cant go to A2 for now. i have to wait till october. they'll see my term test. ok larh.

my pimples are sheerly irritating. people said "dont think about it" well hey, it's on my fuckin' forehead, and irritating, how can i not think about it while its always hurting my head or brain whatever. i have this certain skin sensitivity from my dad, genetically. but what makes it different is that he suffered on the body, i suffered on my face which creates severe acne 'flood'.

i think experience is the best teacher in the whole wide world.


i'll start an essay about it after i found some reference. haha



i'll see ya

life has been pretty darn hard these days, a real life story happens to a very special person. i'm scared. last night, i was so shocked, i could hardly breathe. and questions started to popped in my mind. "can i really except and be normal about it?" "but who am i to judge?" it was just so serious, i cant even study by myself. and coming back to school was my drug, just to calm myself down. and learn.

no i became so interested in biology. cell rocks. thank god i dont feel so geeky.

unlikely, i feel like such a scumbag :(( i have a confession to make. im just finding it hard how to say it right.

this fakking circumstance had gone too wrong. but as cesi said "how can you be so calm about it? youre too nice fie." but my question is how can i say anything? i dont even know what to say, i cant judge. besides, swearing is not my thing. i guess i need to make another campaign "not to swear much when you're in a shock" i guess that'll do much in our lives, eh? if no.. never mind.

fak. oh boy, i just swore. lets not


i'll pass. see ya

i'm in complete shock right now. cant think, cant speak, cant get out of my seat. basically shivered on my seat while typing this shocking post. i cant study, help me.



this is too shocking to end.

Danny is soo hottt <3 and he looks
omg, i love you :D

omg i just cant wait till Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants 2 comes out!
i just loooooove the film, i saw the trailer ytd, and fell in love with it.

today was supposed to be an official lunch or dinner, and stuff. but i guess somebody changed the plan. guess where we went for my parents' anniversary party: my granny's house -_-"

for some apparent reason, i dont know what to say

but anyways, i went thru it. so i was taking a break from my math-learning period (how geeky) but turns out that i'm taking looong break. meanwhile, i was looking at the pictures of my friends on facebook. i noticed that simple plan has arrived in jakarta, and i thought, "cool".

can you possibly imagine that i just watched Little Miss Sunshine this afternoon? i know i'm so outdated -_- however not many ppl scold me at my outdatedness haha



gtg, study galore _-_

just now, i was tuning in my itunes, and the song viva la vida came out. i heard these crystal clear lyrics of the song which came out of chris martin's mouth

"sweep the streets i used to own"

from there on, i began elaborating the lyrics, and i first thought (long before i knew this), that it would be about winning but it wasn't. it's about downfalls and it is scary, a wake up call for a "king" and some other stuff pertaining to that.

and the phrase above is so extreme, it gave me a wake up call. because from those 7 letters, gave a sense of such change for, say, a king. and now he's just a tiny little piece of the world. however, he was a tiny piece of the world, and still is. physically, and capability-wise. power is just a part of arrogance which can brings us back to "sweeping" and gives us a wake up call of how something can change drastically, and by the end of the day, brings us to think that every human being's the same from the fact that this guy would still be the same self as he was before the downfall. get it? if yes, good. if no, contact me. haha


last, i wanna congratulate mr.Godfried for the birth of his newborn baby girl :D
peace out

i loove my new layout. although i was hoping for another font, unlike the one under (this, i changed it), but it's nice and eye catching in my point of view. hope u like it, if u dont, please tag.

please, my friends, you know who you are. i hayyyyte this kind of condition. i hayte fights, honesttly i didnt want things to be like this. i hayyyyyyyyyyyte this truthfully. i dont know what to do, myself. i dont know how to get into your mind, girl. and just stop everything. i hate it that you're not talking to each other. u guys start to make me mad too, you know. do u know how it feels to be in the middle while trying to make things better for the sake of our ties, whatever the ties we have now. if u cant do it for us or yourself, try doing it for me. for the sake of your friend. ever think about my feelings?

now i'm not gonna get emotional. the point is i dont like this, at all. please think about what i said above, i'm starting to get mad. man, be gentle. girl, persevere in this kind of moment. as for me, i'll try my best.

alright guys, i take back my words. I DONT LIKE MILEY CYRUS. i dont hate her, cus i do listen to her songs, but she mocked selena gomez! . she did an impersonation on sel's video, and mocked her!

papermountains

omg my eyes are manufacturing tears because of my sleepy-ness my god! i havent done all my homeworks, and there are some more left. and i gotta read the damn big book. i'm not pissed by how things go in IB, it's just that it kinds of remind me how focus i am before and how i'm not right now, so that's sort of a problem.

i lost my vitamin. well, realistically it could not possibly went somewhere. but it did. oh boy, i'm sleepy as hell. but i have to welcome tomorrow, since my naida's coming (yay!) and stuff happens toms, plus, i have good subjects to enjoy tomorrow, well with the exceptions of bio.


i'll ttyl.

mom just made my day. i was silent in the car, coz i sort of had a tough day. she said while holding my hands

"adek, kok tumben ga cerita?"

i love you mom :)

bomb!

i miss chatting with my friends talking cock. hahhahaha canda lah


tadi pagi saya sempet... merenung lah istilahnya teh. jadi lagi ngobrol sama mas sawal si abang sopir. terus akhir pembicaraan, dia bilang "ini mendung, de" dan teruslah pikiran saya langsung ke isu hujan. aneh saya tau, tapi yaaa begitu.

eniweis, hujan.. berhubung lagi di mobil, saya relasi aja mobil sama ujan. kadang saya suka agak kesel kalo lagi ujan, nggak bisa liat apa-apa sama sekali. kadang ngambek sama nyokap gara-gara saya nggak bisa ngomongin apa-apa yang ada di sekitar saya. pokoknya kesel to the kor. tapi saya kadang suka liat ekspresi pengendara motor yang saat ujan hanya bisa berlindung di bawah jembatan layang. kadang kalo mereka buru-buru, harus rela ujan-ujanan. kasian.. tapi menurut realita mereka harus jalani itu semua. nggak adil sih, tp adil juga. tau kenapa? karena lebih baik mereka terbantu dengan kendarai motor dengan cepat, daripada mesti jalan kaki puluhan kilometer. orang kecil terbantu, walaupun kadang menyebalkan di jalan, dan sangat basah.

jujur saya ngga pernah mau menyalahkan berpa juta motor yang berkeliaran di jakarta. karena saya tau, kalo saya nggak punya ekonomi keluarga yang mampu membeli mobil, pasti saya bakal kendarai motor, and it'll just make me one of them.



ci-ao.

11HR4
7.11MAT.GB
4.11BUS.MC
8.11ENB.RB
1.11CS2.VT
9.11INA.PD
6.11BIO.SM
1.11EE1.MF
2.11TOK.SC
5.11ITG.TH

in any of these classes? tag!
i'm finding my classmates =p

now u're getting on my nerves. it's all about yooooouuuu, why cant it be about me for one second you moron! dont turn things over just to impress, omg. OMG I HATE YOU TO DEATH.

everyone's crazy about adam. but what i can do is just lay back and watch the girls go crazy on monday morning.




altho i am curious. haha

okay, i have a confession to make.

i made anya a fully-decorated birthday card. and forgot to give it to her :(((
aaand, her birthday was on january 2nd! haha i'm sorry bby. i'll give it to u ASAP.
it's been 6 months, and it was piled up with other white materials, very hard to notice :D

ouuuujah, so tired. had a packed day. so here's what i can say:

every sad-times might conclude to a lifeless fate.




thx

i.need.help

she's a rockstar

And just maybe I can convince time to slow up
Giving me enough time in my life to grow up
Time be my friend, let me start again

Home - The Wiz

wezzzzzup

i had a tiring day. i went jogging, as usual. but ended up stranded in grand indonesia without taking a bath, haha i know, gross. but hey, what could be more relieving than shopping.

sadly, the sunnies i wanted to buy for weeks had already gone!!!!! omg, i'm so sorry ces, i didnt buy it cus there was no more.. sorry but we cant take mirror pictures :( i wanted to buy so bad :(((( so i bought another one, but the lens is different, you cant see urself with this one. aaaa i really want it :( but i'm happy with this one as well. i bought myself a few things and here's the funny thing.

so when my dad was trying on shoes, i took a look around. i saw this jacket, well more like a coat. since it was more sophisticated, but short. and it has fur on it and i thought "hmm... interesting" so i went to the person, and ask "mba, ini bulu apa ya, apa sintetik?" "umm... enggak sih.. disini bulunya asli semua" at that point of time, sedikit malu, cuman ya namanya orang nanya. at least i had the knowledge knowing that not every fur on an outfit is real. or in other words faux fur does exists."oh, ada di dalemnya, lamb" dalam hati "anjrit bulu kambing"



nonetheless, how cruel.

i hope u dont mind me doing this nonsense

1: Who was your last call from and what was it about?

naida, her new uniform haha

.

2: Is there a member of the opposite gender on your mind?
yes, obviously

.

3: Last movie you watched and with who?

wanted, frieennzzeeee

.

4: Have you told anybody you loved them today?

umm... i cant remember.

.

5: What mood are you in?

confused :S

.

6: Do you miss anyone?

OBVIOUSLY

.

7: Are you growing apart from someone close?

YEEEEEESSSSSSS.

.

8: What would you do if your last ex called you?

...

.

9: Where was your default pic taken?

my roooom

.

10: Have you ever liked anyone on your top friends?
nope

.

11: Do you have a facebook?

yes, you're talking to a social media freak

.

12: What is one thing that's hurting you right on?

wounds

.

13: Is there anybody you wish you could kill?

nyamuk!

.

14: What will you be doing at 8am tomorrow?

maybe... out?

.

15: When is the last time you cried?

i cant remember

.

17: Is Tom your friend on myspace?

DUH. he's like, tha man! haha, i love your picture btw tom, change it!

.

18: Do you have a best friend?

loadds.

.

19: Are you dating the person you text the most?

nope :(

.

20: Is there anyone you hate?

a few

.

21: Who is the last person you held hands with?

mom

.

22: Do you like someone?

i'm not sure

.

23: How much are you on the phone daily?

probably like.. 3-5

.

24: Are you in a good mood?

Yes

.

25: Have you ever been in love?

uh huh

.

26: Do you love your life?

yeap

.

27: What's your favorite shirt?

my new comfie white tank top

.

28: Who cleans your room ?

Mba asih ku tercinta

.

29: What are you really into?

theatre

.

30: What is something you really want to do now?

vaca

.

31: Do your parents know what's happening in your life?

not for some ;p

.

32: Who do you trust with EVERYTHING?

Allah

.

33: Are you living a lie?

umm...

.

34: Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else?

i dont wish, but i imagine.

.

35: Who was the third last person that left you a comment?

mitaa
.

36: Did you hug anyone yesterday?

mama

.

37: Who made you laugh last?

simon cowell

.

38: What will you be doing in 3 hours?

tv?

.

39: What is your wallpaper on your phone?

me laughing

.

40: What color are your eyes

dark hazel

.

41: What would you do if you get the NDP tickets?

have fun?

.

42: Will you be in a relationship in 50 days?

i can dream

.

43: Who were you with last night?

mom

.

44: What's outside your window?
nothing

.

45: What are you doing this weekend?

hang out with my dad, or my friends.